I think I know what your answer will be.

):

I feel like a pest.

Should I let go?

):

Too many things, just too many things remind me of you.

Happiness is shortlived.

I am still sooooo addicted to qssymm :D lovely show.

There was dance on fri and we did cleaning up AGAIN. ya, we have to do that everytime until the performance coming sunday. LOL. It's really really boring. GEEZ.

So yst I went swimming at JK's condo for quite awhile before we left for lunch and to cathay for movie... YEAH! we watched He's just not that into you! It's darn nice. :D and i cried a few times during the touching scenes and all. worth watching (: like what fel said, chic flick. hahs

today i stayed at home for the whole day and rot. seriously just rot infront of the com and watched qssymm. LOL. and guess what it's 3plus in the morning and i'm still blogging. I have to get up around 9 plus tml. gonna help out at dancerobics den there'll be bio lect and meeting fel str8 after tt at JP. she's gonna shop for her bling bling. (: and there's dance at 7.30 tml. it's FULL dress. geez. means i have to wear the hot pants again... and learn the change really fast... jiayou!!!

I'm gonna finish watching qssymm epi 25 before gg to sleep...
tata! :D

This mon, we had Gals' shopping! :D queenie, xiwen, christina, fel and I went shopping tgt. hees. really bought alot of stuff from bugis.... it was tiring. LOL. den we went back school soon after for dance. And brushed up on our blocking and stuff like that.

Tues, Fel and I went Bugis AGAIN! lol. had beef noodles. hehe. den went shopping again. we joined the rest at marina sq around 1plus for our DF outing! I duno who planned it, but it was bowling. i realised i had not bowled for a long long time. ever since he fractured my finger, i din bowl... and on tues i had to use another finger to substitute that, incase it gets injured again. And it was really cui for me. -.- and so, chris, christina, gion, kings, jeff, jacq, yimin, joc, fel and i was there. haha. it was fun la, seeing all the stunts that chris made. LOL... den we went pool and arcade. haha. it was fel's and my virgin time playing the para para thing. LOL. Then christina went without me knowing ): then i realised that she gave me a missed call on my phone. but the arcade was too noisy for me to notice. kings also left. geez. and so, the rest of us went Changing Appetite for dinner. the ribs are really nice (: den went sourcing again at Raffles City SC. christina joined us after tt... and then we went home... haha.

wed i met JK for BRunch before he reported back. den i met enxian at vivo to continue shopping for JDC stuff. i should say he really encourage me alot in terms of telling me this or that suits me and all... in the end, i realised everything i bought tt day was the stuff i'm gg to use for JDC. so the previous buys at Bugis is futile. -.- except for the high-cut sneakers i guess...

Then yst... I went for my FTT early in the morning. and guess what?!
I FREAKING PASSED MY FTT!!!!!
cheers. haha. i was so worried the night before cos i din really study for it. mich was rite... cannot use too much brain. the 1st time i studied too hard and failed. LOL. after ftt, i went JP to meet enxian for lunch den we went sch to do our bio lab reports. apparently he didnt cos he was so caught up with his GESL stuff. LOL. after tt we had comm meeting. Faizal bought donuts for all of us! :D so nice of him... haha. den after, we had dance. wore my costume and felt rather uncomfortable cos the pants are really short... :X but then again, i just have to go with it. Carol did the last part of the song with us, which is the jazz part. seriously i think i did a bad job as compared to the rest of them. i can't turn properly and there wasn't enough emotions. BOO~ )):

and so, today i stayed at home cos i was just plain lazy to go out. recess wk is at it's 5/7 alr. and yet i haven done any revision. i know i'm neglecting my studies in view of JDC. but once JDC is over, i'm gonna study real hard. oh ya, tml i will be gg out and i can use the pioneer MRT station alr. it opens tml. lol.

anyway, JK got his scan results alr. he has a slipped disc. )): but his foot is much better alr... hope it heals soon.... probably meeting him tml. yup..

Friday was just another 3-hour -lessons day for me.. it was boring, nonetheless, i survived through... *applause* LOL...

lesson in the morning was boring as usual... probably becos i hate reading and writing, and the course is more about writing. So i really dislike it. but thank god, my tutor was great. very entertaining and cute tutor. LOL. sometimes i dont understand why do we have to take certain educational modules, when it can actually be a waste of time. GEEZ.

had lunch with enxian then went for bio lab session. it's by Tham. And so, i was sabo-ed by enxian to be the leader of my group. we did pour plates, streak plates, test for antiseptic, test for antibiotics, test for alcohol effectiveness, and made our own agar plate. (: guess what, Tham was all praise for us. "this grp is really fast" "great", whatnots... LOL. kinda felt good, and felt that we were the best grp there. but this is becos for the previous lab session, we seem to be the total opposite. LOL!!! But i must say i kinda like the lab session yst... LOL.

after class enxian and I went JP to bring the table cloths for dry-cleaning. then he left for chevrons, while i met my mum, had dinner at bakerzin, then shopped around. we each bought a bag, and I also bought a cap, new socks, some cheapskate tees from giordano to cut. Soon after, we went home... SHAG.

Saturday enxian and I went back to school, in fact, the lab AGAIN. to see our plates. LOL. Tham was there with the rest of us.. I shall upload some pics later to let you see our plates. (: hees. i think our group results were not bad (: so we left the lab around 1.40 i think. had a quick lunch at Can A den rushed to the space outside LT1 to join the rest for practice before ther rehearsal. the rehearsal was at nanyang audi. our item was pushed back to 3.30. duno why. LOL, and ended around 4. I felt that we did a great job. at least we didn't waste this session... (:

had a debrief after that, and discussed about the kinda costumes we're gonna get. so, the few of us agreed to meet tml at 11am at bugis to go source for our stuff! :D YEAH excited. hahaha. but i know i'm will definitely be spending quite alot liao ): OH ya... talking about bugis, heard from fel and queen that they received the SMS about the possible terrorist attack in Bugis. my first thought is that it must be a hoax. But i was kinda worried yst cos JK was waiting for me at Bugis. Anyhow, i cabbed down there after the debrief.

We had dinner at HK cafe, LOL. den went to our usual place... and had a long talk... i felt good that i was able to get things out of my chest. (: I also felt that JK has grown... more mature i think... he seems to have been thinking alot all this while, and planning the path he should take... I'm glad that he is doing that... cos we all know that planning is impt...

Read the newpapers today and google-d about the SMS. it IS indeed a hoax, and some retarded 19-year-old guy was arrested. doesn't he have anything better to do? something is really wrong with him. he's probably sick in the mind. but whatever it is, he will have to face the punishment and he deserves it.

anyway, recently, something is wrong with my wireless conn. whenever i log on to fb, it will be stuck at EVERY SINGLE PAGE. and i'm very pissed becos of that. I duno why... but when i surf other sites, it is as bad. Well, I'll check with my bro later. GEEZ. these are the problems of ICT. BOO~

and becos of that, i'm having probs uploading pics here too. DARN. i guess i have no choice but to upload again next time. ):

FINALLY...

FINALLY i have the time to blog...

Let's start from where I last stopped:

Mon
It was just an ordinary school day with 2 hours of Bio lect by Prof Gan. It's like... HELLO! IT"S THE MOST BORING LECTURE I'VE ATTENDED OK?! damn damn damn sleepy during her lect... you guys should try man. After that, there was dance at 6.30. Carol wasnt there as she wasn't feeling well (Sees that she is getting well soon), so we had to practise our own sections on ourselves. It was a really bad day for me, cos I ended up being very pissed off that day, due to differing views, conflicts and non-consensus, and most imptly, what i think is disrespect. Had talks with some ppl and stuff, finally appeased. I was pissed partly becos i was already tired before all those shit happened.

Tues
I stupidly went to sch for nothing thinking that show and tell is on that day itself. DUMB. den went to JP with enxian to get my stuff. hees.. it was really nice to hang out with him too, cos we found out so many shocking stuff, according to him. hahaha. funny... den we went home soon after that...

Wed
No school... BUT there's comm handing over ceremony. oh ya, i think i have nv mentioned tt i actually stepped up to be the Logistics Manager of DF. haha. yea, so i was there for the ceremony. after which, I went to amk to acc JK to go to the polyclinic. his MC is extended as his foot is still swollen.. Then, i went to his place... and i saw his brother, i think it's the older of his 2 younger bros. yea, and i saw his mum too. his mum was very nice and entertaining.. (: and so, i hang around till around 6, den left for dance in school. it was a make-up session by Carol in lieu of mon... it was fine. It's really nice to hear her say that she sees IT in us during the gal's hiphop, despite us havin conflicts and stuff on mon. :D

Thur
which is today! had AED, finally i finished my AED assignment.... WOOTS........ so today's aed lesson was on facebook. so we practically facebook-ed for 2 hours.... -.- for the first time, time was flying during AED. LOL! then had lunch with christina... (: soon after was bio lect... den DF peeps met up to watch the hall dance at SRC. it was great! Hall 1 was fantastic, cos most of them were from MJ. oh well, somehow it's expected tt they will win. -.- xinhong's hall won 2nd or 3rd, can't rmb. haha. joc's hall's item was interesting too. well, i feel that the storyline is good, it was very touching and my eyes were a lil teary. it could be better though, LOL, as for this, joc will def know it herself la... keith and kings were good too! haha, i took video of them also. plus jeff and mich doing willy's choreo. haha. and of cos, my obsession no 1's item. i video-ed tt too. it was a wonderful performance by all... anyhow, i will upload the videos on fb soon, after my low disk space issue is solved. LOL.

just some random thoughts...
I just feel that this sem is not a good one for many of us, especially those friends of mine that are close to me... there seems to be a lot of stuff going on that is bugging everyone. What's more when there's tonnes of assignments and now, dance practices too, due to upcoming performance in March. we are all busy, tired and troubled.. of which, i try my best to give what i can to my frens, to help them as long as i can... I just hope that everything will turn out fine though i do feel tired too... whatever it is, let's all work tgt, dance hard tgt, and believe in ourselves that things will eventually get back to normal... cos i believe in my frens as much as i believe in myself :D

okok, i better go sleep soon, there's ALS in the morning, and lab in the afternoon. it's my 3-hr-lesson day! BOO~~~~~~ ):

Hi :D

Summary
Tues: supposedly no school, but i had to go there for CS briefing. LOL. And
I chose on the spot. Math, Sci and Music (: Then went home and continued
cleaning the house.
Wed: No school. So I clean the kitchen tiles. And i'm so proud of myself. 'Cos
it's sparkling. LOL!!! (:
Thurs: Had AED 104 and Bio lect. Bio lect was on probability and stats. So far
so good. hope this continues on for me. Then, has dance with Willy later in the
evening. He taught us his gatsby steps! :D darn nice ok! LOL...


Fri: Had ALS 101 for half an hour only! Then went to prepare for CNY
performance :D The performance is darn nice - according to kings. LOL. and I
think it's nice too. haha. after which we went up for our buffet lunch and lucky
draw. Nope, this time I didn't win. LOL. Then continued slacking there till bio
lab session. I was darn tired alright. totally no interest in the lab session. after
3 hours of torture, I finally got to go home! Then I saw some stuff then I
shouldn't have seen when i was gg to the gal's toilet when we're 1 level down the
lab. shall not elaborate. hahaha...

so today i finally got to meet JK. :D after about 1 wk plus? yeah. watched The
Punisher". very gross and disgusting. M18 due to it's gore. loads of action, and
a lil humour incorporated in it. just that the story line isn't that defined. Don't
really understand the real motive of the punisher. oh well... we went home soon
after dinner. LOL. so, today i actually gave him the bdae gift that I got for him.
I'm glad that he likes it. hope he can use it asap. hahaha. I gave him the ambigram
as well, and he put it onto his chunk of keys almost immediately. I was glad. :D

alright, gonna paint my nails and prepare for reunion lunch tml. haha. gonna
celebrate bro's ex's bdae too. i've got a bracelet for her :D

Yst was such a heartache. But it's over. Things are back to normal...

ok, how do you know if someone likes you? Could there be a scenario
where the person likes you, but even he himself doesn't know? He
feels very sad and feels like crying when you wana leave him. Will
you think that he likes you?

***********************************************************

anyway, tml is the start of 2nd week of sch. Bio lects are good so far
cos i feel happy that i can understand. But tml's lecturer is V boring.
Hope i can survive thru it. GEEZ.

And I have been dancing from mon to fri this week. I'M TIRED. geez.
I am so weak. The NAF performance will be on Tues around 6pm at
the pavilion outside LT2. looking forward to it (:

tml's dance will be by Carol then we have to rush off to NAF rehearsal.
shagged. LOL. then, next wk is actually NIE Fiesta. I bought the coupon
from chris. guess I will go get some stuff or what lor.

I'm still thinking of what to get for JK cos his bdae is nearing!!! should I
get him a wallet? or jeans? I feel like getting the brown jeans for him so
that he can wear them for new yr, though it'll be a bdae gift in advance.
i think he needs a wallet too. his wallet is soiled by the previous field
camp he had during BMT. hmm... See how things go ba... I can't celebrate
his bdae w him on the actual day cos he will be booking out late and his
family will be celebrating with him. i'll probably celebrate with him on
the saturday before his bdae.

Today's the first day of Year 1 Sem 2~ Well, today's fine generally... Had
2hours of Biology lectures in the afternoon. And I'm free after that. I had
dance at 6.30. Today's class was conducted by Carol. Wheee....

Biology lecture was a little boring because right now it's more or less
recapping what we learnt during JC. I guess the next lectures will be more
in content. I must be prepared for it. (:
Dance was fun cos today Carol did more on stretching and I'm sure I can
get back to my previous standard if this continues. :D
Learnt 4 eights of choreo and we were supposed to present it and act it out.
It was fun. Haha. Our group decided to do sorta quiet r/s thing where we
had to express the kinda sadness, anger, frustation and stuff like that. I
couldn't help but to think of... Hmm...

Had a talk with my dance mates during dinner just now. Told them briefly
about JK's injury and situation. They mentioned that probably he'll be OOC
and posted to some admin unit or so. Well, I don't know. But his back injury
is quite bad. And they said that I shouldn't leave him at this point of time
cos they can understand how he feels. As in, when they were in NS, they
were unable to settle down as they, too, think that NS is an uncertainty, like
what JK thinks. They feel that I should be there for him. Well, I don't know.
I don't wana be too hopeful about anything here. I wana be prepared for the
worst, just in case. Sometimes I just can't help it and get quite emotional and
stuff like that. SIGH. what to do...

What I saw:

Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)

The Bottom Line

Amazing things can happen at the last minute -- you cannot give up hope

just yet!

In Detail

No matter how unlikely success might seem from where you are standing

right now, amazing things can happen -- you cannot give up hope! Think

positively, because you know deep in your heart that the game isn't over

yet and you still have plenty of energy to keep going. What you need is still

out there, and you simply have to open your mind to finding it. That person

you were betting on will come through, or the money you needed will

materialize. Just be hopeful.

****************************************************************


Are you sure? Today I heard loads of view. It all points to me staying by his
side instead of leaving him. I really don't know what to do. Geez. This really
sucks. I'm a fan of horoscope and I believe in that. However, this time I don't
know if I should. I think I shouldn't. Just in case I get too hopeful, and hurt
myself deeply.

Anyway, I'll be busy with dance for the whole of this week cos performance is
on next tues! and another one on 23rd I think. After that, dance will still be
shiong cos we need to prepare for a bigger event in Mar. Carol will be choreo-ing
for that. Looking forward to that too. (:

Oh ya. Good news. Jocelyn and Christina are in the same AED tut grp as me!!
And Mich is in the same ALS tut grp as me! DAMN, like finally! URGH. hahaha
damn happy ok. At least there is something for me to look forward to during
these 2 boring modules :D

Bringing JJ to the groomer on Weds. YEAH! see him botak (:

yoz. school starts tml. Geez. dont like. but i'm kinda glad it's those topics
that i'm strongest at in Bio. (: There's AAB 103 lect tml for 2 hrs. then,
there's dance at 6.30pm. hees finally!!!

anyway, JK didn't have guard duty yst! he was so lucky you see... last
min his duty was cancelled and so we managed to meet up. and this time
we managed to stay out late, back to before. Went for lunch and got a
printer at SL sq. it's a all-in-one HP inkjet printer and it costs only $139!!
cheap?? hahaha. but the black ink seems to deplete quite fast, but could be
due to me printing tonnes of notes for this sem.

Then, off we went to have coffee at CB. chill-ed out there for quite long
before our lazy bums finally set off back to marina sq for our dinner at the
HK cafe. After dinner, we went to esplanade, but this time we sat beside the
river for an hour to 2 hrs. chatted, enjoyed the breeze. at that moment,
a lot of things was running thru my mind. he seemed to have something to
say but always shrug it off saying "oh, nothing". while taking pics, my right
foot slipped off the stairs and there was a bruise on my foot after tt. it was
damn painful at the instance. but after awhile it's fine. it's just painful, tt's
all. took a cab halfway with mum, back home. tired.

oh ya. i forgot to mention that yst morning itself, i went for my appt at
TTSH TBCU. i waited for around 20-30 mins although I BOOKED AN
APPT. was feeling so sian. and guess what? i paid 25bucks to hear the doc
say "you do not have TB". but it's worth it. hahaha. i was in there for only
slightly more than a minute. LOL.

today i was at home like i always do on sundays. but around 8plus just now,
i finally went to play bball, which i have not played for around 4-5 months.
it was great to play bball once again. (:

talked to JK on the phone just now. was talking about plans on BBQ and
picnic. haha. the idea of it excites me. BBQ for 2. mini mini mini BBQ. it'll
be at his house there. LOL. but i hope that he will have the time den we
can go shop for BBQ stuff. HEES :D on the other hand, picnic will be much
easier. but still, it'll be great! looking forward to that...

JK's back injury seems to worsen a lot since I first knew abt it. now he's on
painkillers so it makes me feel even more worried abt it. I just hope that
he will be fine and the MO and doc will genuinely look into his problem, and
give the the right and sufficient treatment.

Happy new year to ALL!!! (:

Time flies, it's already 2009. I'm turning 20 this yr. DAMN, will not be a
teenager anymore. Looking back at 2008, ALOT of things have happened.
Last year had been a wonderful year.

It started off with me breaking off with my ex in Jan.
Was working in CPF up till July. Loads of stuff happened there too.
I got to know great friends like KV, Jean, Irene, Yati, Pei Min, Chen Boon,
Hidayah, Jameson and many many more. Of which, JK is also one of them.
I'm glad we met, but sometimes I'd rather we did not meet at all.
Besides the point, I've also got to know bastards like Mr T, those in CPF
will know. As he is a senior executive there, I shall not say out his name
here. Working in CPF has been a great experience. Great members of the
public who still rmbs me. collecting my A's results was an ordeal for me. It
was totally not what I had expected. I was totally at a lost as to what I should
do next. eventually, I went for an interview at MOE and is enrolled into
NIE now. I'm glad and lucky I should say. My results were okay for my
first sem in NIE. it's not bad, but I hope to do better in the future. And I
met some great friends at NIE too, including beloved DF mates, GESL,
OG and various modules-mates. LOVES :D

So, looking back. I think I've gained quite alot. I wana thank all that has
came into my life. (:

Yst I did not go for countdown or such cos I dont really like crowded places
and the idea of gg countdown just turns me off. fights. drunkards. molesters.
ewww... today I went out with JK for lunch and movie. went Swensons and
watched College. tt movie SUCKS. it's fucking lame and crappy. well well...
as usual. he had to leave early, cos he's booking in later. sigh! geez... we wun
be able to meet this coming sat cos he has guard duty. damn damn damn!
I'd rather he stay at home to rest than to do guard duty larr~

my time-table's out. i've got tues and weds free!!! wahahahaha. so freaking
happy. just tt there's AAB 103 tutorial not inclusive yet. But I can be assured
that I will at least have one day off. :D

alright. shall update again when I have more to blog about. hehe.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

-GPA more then 4
-Slim down
-Dance (learn more genres and improve)
-Get my Driving Lic
-Stay Healthy
-*Love (:

Yst I finally met up with Mich and Joy. The last time we met up was like
in July lar! GEEZ. And so, we went for buffet at HPC den catch up and
went to esplanade roof terrace. Soon after we went home. It's really great
to meet up after so long. Because of school and other commitments, we
were unable to meet up. Yst was a really nice day :D

Today I woke up damn early, considering tt it's still holidays. I woke up at
6 plus to acc JK to cmpb for his appt. We waited damn long for him to take
the X-ray. oh well, and he had to settle his lunch before booking in again at
1pm.

Den I went to Cine to meet Bio ppl (Idzham, Shu hui, Widiah and Chok
Wei) for a movie. I was so fucking pissed 'cos supposedly I will reach just in
time to catch Twilight, which I had wanted to watch since it started showing.
I stopped myself from watching just for today. and guess what? The train
actually broke down at Commonwealth for quite sometime. The train
captain spoke in a typical Singapore-uncle slang and we were told to alight
to wait for the next train. Everyone in that train was stunned that there's
so many ppl at Commonwealth. -.-"

And so, I WAS LATE FOR THE MOVIE AND I COULDN'T CATCH IT!!!!
then, we settled for YES MAN. damn, it was a fucking lame movie with a
half-fuck plot. But it made me laugh as I dont think I was feeling quite
happy. So ya, It's a great experience gg out with Bio ppl and perhaps we
should organise another movie session like this. (:

Tml I'm gonna pack my room, thurs I'm gg out, Sat I'm gg down to TTSH
AGAIN. but hopefully the last time. Heard tt JK has got guard duty this
coming Sat. oh well... All I hope is tt the medical review will really help in
looking into his injury and treating it.

I'm tired and I think I should sleep soon. NITES.

today's boxing day. lol. oh well...

yst was xmas! like duh... so, went out with jk and made spaghetti for
him. I think it's not nice but he says it's fine. well, I just dont like how
it tastes. haha. den we went Topman and got our sweater. Orange
with the inner of the hoodie full of poki-dots. LOL. we managed to
get the sweater at $41.++?? the usual price was $63. hahs...

Den went to esplanade to have max brener's brownie and waffle.
delicious :D soon after we had to leave cos he had to book in on yst
itself. Dont really know if we'll be meeting tml. cos he's booking out
tml instead of today la~ but in any case, we will be meeting either
on new yr's eve or new yr day. hmm... yst he gave me chocs too,
which is something I didn't expect. ya, thanks!

today I went to JP2 and shop for stuff to aid in packing and maybe
revamping of my room? haha. bought freaking loads of stuff la.
I'm so gonna dump alot of my clothes away, those tt I dont wear.
wish me luck for packing my room man. i hope i do a good job cos
i think it's been awhile since the last time I'm really satisfied with
my living conditions. haa~ lol.

Someone give me courage please... give me courage to leave. Or at
least give me hope... give me hope that there'll be a good ending to
this...

I just feel rather depressed, but I don't really know how to put it.
Sometimes I feel that all I do for him, it's worth it, cos it's all for him.
But at times, I feel that I'm so dumb and stupid, to do so much for
him, for something that is uncertain, for something that might hit
me hard again, for maybe, nothing. I'm just... dumb.

All along I have been having nightmares, but on one of these recent
nights, the opposite happened... It was great, it was exactly what
I've wanted all along. BUT, it just sucks to wake up and realise tt
it's all a dream. And yes, only in a dream there can be such beautiful
images.

LOADS OF CRAP...

Christmas is coming in a few days' time, time really flies... I don't know
if JK can book out on the eve so tt we can meet on Christmas and I can
proceed with my plan (modified) accordingly. (:

Firstly, the first part of my plan failed. The cookies didn't turn out like
what I expected though it is not inedible. LOL. just not satisfied. So this
part of the plan - failed. It's ok. well, yst I went shopping for a few items
at night nearby my house and suddenly I felt like making a Christmas
card for him, and I did. It's done, and I think it looks cute :D

Hopefully we can meet on Christmas for my 2nd part of my plan, which
is to cook spaghetti for him! I bought Angel hair spaghetti, which are much
finer, and I prefer those. LOL.

He was complaining just now that he heard that his coy is trained mainly
for inf__ and g__. SIGH. sian, I hope he doesn't get posted there after
his training. He also heard that he is booking out on Sat for this wk, as for
Christmas eve, we don't know... GEEZ.

Hi! Oh man, holidays are gg to be over soon, very soon infact! zzz....
I still rmb my hols started on the 17th of nov. Now it's already the
22nd of dec. BOO~ seriously.

Anyway, recall that day when I was totally heartbroken. well, he
doesn't remember what he said to me. I was like ... ... ... Maybe I
should just put that incident behind. or maybe I should say,
right now, things are progressing quite well for the both of us I
guess... But I always remind myself not to be too hopeful in
circumstances of such.

Chatted with KV on msn a few nights ago. Then, he started asking
about the 2 of us. I din know how to tell him, cos I myself ain't sure
exactly how it is like. Oh well. I can't help but feel depressed. Will
my plan of "8wks left" from now be executed accordingly? I don't
know, seriously. I realised SISPEC is so near my house. it's less than
3km away. Jk was feeling rather low just now as he heard that there
will be no nights out for him, or hardly (if any). and tt their usual
bookouts will be on saturdays. this makes us having less time to meet.

I asked kahsoon cos he's previously in SISPEC. However, he said that
there are nights out, depending on the company's prog too. and they
usually book out on fridays. But, he does not know if this is applicable
to JK becos JK is in Charlie coy, different from kahsoon's company
at tt time. Charlie coy had a different training programme as compared
to other coys. So, I dont know.

Just now JK asked for my address, saying that he needed it to fill up a
form. hmm. Maybe it's In-case-of-emergency kinda thing? But anyway,
now i can look forward to his nights out, cos if there is, I can meet him
since he's so near. (: the sad thing is, his camp is actually separated from
NIE canteen by a forested area. we're so near... So near, yet so far. ):
I don't know, but I just feel that I need to be there for him during this
period of time. Maybe he feels lonely cos he told me there's not a single
fren of his found there when he booked in today. I just hope that
everything will be fine for him. ((:

anyway, Sat we went shopping around city hall. and we decided to get
sweaters from TOPMAN. hees. by using my ocbc card, there's a 15%
discount on top of the 30% discount that they are already having. ((:
So, coming Thurs or Sat we will go get it. YEAH. hehe. Then for dinner
I went to HPC while he went to meet his poly mates for jap buffet. And
we bought Tees online, with great help from XY! (: I bought 3, and he
bought 6. haha. the tees are cute, seriously.

This morning I had to wake up early to go to TBCU again. today I forced
myself to purge out all the phlegm I have inside so that I dont have to
undergo the torment of inserting a ~30cm tube down my throat. and yeah,
congrats, I succeeded. LOL. Then, went over to the consultation rooms,
the nurse was supposed to measure the injection mark left behind by the
injection done on Thurs. But she couldn't find it, so she smiled and said,
"test results negative". So, it means I'm fine? haha, I don't know but
that's what I feel. And I can just leave after that. But I need to go there
again on the 3rd of Jan. GEEZ. But i guess that will be my last visit (:

After that I bought 2 tops for my grandma when I reached jurong. I have
already bought 2 for my grandfather. most prob will go there this coming
wednesday since it's my mum's off-day. Then, i can pass the tops to them.
Then I went to JP and shopped for stuff to whip up spaghetti for JK during
Christmas, printed our photo taken when we were at Raffles City SC a
few weeks ago. Gonna give it to him when we meet later this week. hees.
I also bought potatoes, to make the potato salad or whatever you call that
from kenny rogers. I hope it'll turn out fine! ((: But if i can't meet him on
Christmas, then I shall do it on Sat.

Now I'm gonna do a trial for the potato salad. Wish me luck! HAHA. ((:

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Hi, today is friday. Time really flies. sigh. 8 weeks left. do you think I
will have the courage to leave him after that? I'm really not sure. ):

Anyway, I baked some cookies on wednesday. I thought it will turn out
nice like how it did previously. But this time I kinda failed cos it looks,
and tastes different, just not as good as the previous ones. And so, how
can I give him that to share with his family? Geez. I'm so sad. Oh well.

Yst I woke up very early for the appointment at the TBCU. I really
thank JK from the bottom of my heart. Because he chose to wake up
early to accompany me although he can sleep longer. So ya, THANKS!
And I woke up even earlier so that I can prepare sandwiches to eat later.
I'm just afraid that he will be hungry la. And he says it's nice :D

The TBCU is a distance away from TTSH. it's just isolated and it's part
of TTSH. I feel so ostracised when I went there. But anyway, I just went
in for the consultation. The doctor is very nice and made me feel at ease.
Then he told me to do a phelgm test and a skin test. And I paid a total of
$103.75 for that visit. It's so ex! but oh well, i can claim it. so it's fine la.

The doc feels that I look normal and tt i dont have TB, just tt I still have
to do the tests. LOL. So, I proceeded to the building next to it, which is
also isolated, to do the tests. phlegm test seriously sounds easy and
painless. becos i was unable to extract phlegm, the nurse used a tool which
is around 30 cm or even longer, and put it str8 down my trachea. it is
painful man, seriously... it was over, den i went to do the skin test. DAMN!
I didn't know i was supposed to do a injection la. fuck. seriously. I was so
fucking scared, really. it was the injection we use to do before we had our
BCG. just tt i THOUGHT i'm the few lucky ones tt do not have to go thru
all those shit. and now, i have to do it. i'm a freshie for injections on my
forearm. it was painful, but not as painful as i thought. I'm happy I survived
through that. hahahaha.

Then, we went to CPF! our visit to our ex-workplace. tt place really brings
alot of memories. (: went there and saw diyong working there! i'm seriously
shocked!!! and i saw tt bastard. he saw us and pretended not to have seen us.
oh well, fuck off la. damn. kv wasn't there when we arrived. and so we went
long awaited lunch at amoy! had our sliced fish beehoon and strawberry shake
((: the auntie still rmbs us haha. we cant have wanton mee as the queue is
super long. LOL.

after that we went cpf again, and only interacted with kv for awhile and off
we went! we then went to cineleisure and watched Ip Man. JK didn't know
it's in mandarin. lol. cos he is more of the angmoh type. but the movie was
nice and for once in so many months, this is one that i really enjoyed. and
JK agrees to. so ya, i urge my friends to go catch it! ((:

then we went shopping but i cant find anything i like. lol, and then to the
usual place, and home sweet home. he accompanied me yst for more than
12 hours. thanks man. ((:

anyway, his posting results are out, and he is posted to SISPEC. it's very
expected so he is quite sian. But still, SISPEC is quite near my place (:
hope that after SISPEC, he can be posted to a slack unit! i'll pray for you
haha. but the thing is, after SISPEC, i might be long gone from his sight..
): i seriously dont know. geez.

today i'm so lazy to go for dance!!! urgh, sian. and i took the medicine and
it causes drowsiness. lol. it's good for sleep man. i'm so gg to take it before
sleeping. just tt now i have to take antibiotics AGAIN. and this one is big and
yellow. it tastes disgusting. it has the lingering taste in my throat after eating
it, it makes me feel sick. geez. ewww...

tml i'm meeting JK again, but this time for a shorter while. just for a few
hours. den monday i have to go to the TBCU again! to collect my tests
results and to do another phlegm test. this time i will force out whatever
phlegm i have, by hook or by crook. so that the long tool do not have to go
down my throat again. but this time JK can't accompany me cos he have
to report to camp. haha. i hope he likes it there.

will update again, soon i guess. (: