hey, just happen to read thru my secondary sch bestie's blog. and she's happily married with her daughter 5 months old. maybe i should hint hint to him, i should become a housewife and stop studying. haha. but anyway, i'm happy to see her doing well. looking at her wedding pics and all.. i really feel happy for her. especially when she has such an adorable daughter. (: i really hope to meet up with her soon cos i have not seen her for a long long time..

i'm actually thinking of signing on as a prison officer. haha. LOL!!! he was so funny. his reaction was "why do you have to do that to yourself?!" . i was like... wat's wrong with being a prison officer? haha. wanted to apply but the thingie is down! it says "under maintenance" LOL.... now i'm looking at the SPF websites... looking at the scholarships etc etc... then, looking at OCS... hai. really duno what to do if i cant get into uni!!!!!

-shrugs-

hey! the internet connection in my workplace is cut off. well well, i guess they actually track which websites we go. i cant even go google now. bleh.

work is as usual, tiring. hmm... lots of people coming down and all. nevertheless, my day was all made fine because of him (:

oh well, i cant rmb what i did last saturday... OHH !!!! oh ya. i went seoul garden with my colleagues. haha. it was rather havoc cos i ate ALOT. haha. den we went taking photos and all before we finally head home!! so i didn't go out with him... hmm..

but i went out with him on wednesday! fun. after work, we walked around maxwell looking for that particular shop he was talking abt and ! it happened to be closed..... LOL. so we practically walked round and round and finally went to chinatown to have frog porridge! nice.. esp the tofu. (: we went on to this dessert shop to have black sesame paste. then we went to central to take a look. disappointing. the layout there is like.. bleh. and it's so quiet and the shops there are so empty. well, just when we decide to go home, we saw "hokkaido ice-cream" ! so i ordered the dark choco and the cookies and cream and we sat outside, at clarke quay, jus opposite the bungee jump thingie.

i was with my heels and dress, making it rather difficult to balance myself and sit on the steps. he had to lend his hand. finally we sat down and ate the ice-cream, looking at the bungee jump-ers. i reali admire their courage!

at last, we walked to city hall and from there, we went home separately. it was already 10plus! and we're both freaking tired... but happy. (:

today i met him for lunch as well. we managed to get to the eatery that we din get to go on wednesday! had zha jiang mian. then we shared guo tie, xiao long bao and also the gluttinous rice balls. it was nice! but the zha jiang mian is like average lo.

anyway, i just got a new psp slim! lol. i bought from my brother. he is actually doing sales for this. so might as well, buy from him right.

so after our lunch, we proceeded home with the psp in hand. haha. we took turns to play winning 11. well, i think he's a better player than me while he thinks i'm better. when has he become so humble?!?! haha! he sent me to boon lay and went on to meet josh. he was already late. LOL. talking abt josh, i feel that it's nice to be discussing wedding details with your brothers cos it just shows how much each of them mean to you. hmm... (:

today was liyana's last day. i'm so gg to miss her! i'm sending her off coming monday. well, i know he's not gg. so far, dy, pm and i. i miss yaya as well! she is finally back from australia and coming back to work on monday! new temps will be coming in on monday i guess. i think we're really short of ppl. hmm. i really wonder what will happen when the whole of our batch leaves.

according to him, we're the batch that are closest to them. haha. i supposed they will miss us? i think so la. he said he cant rmb some of the temps!!! can u imagine if he says he cant rmb who m i?!?!?!?! i'm so gg to kill him if he does that. i believe we will still keep in contact after i leave. he's someone important to me.

let's talk abt something else. i have applied for uni.... i wonder how it will go la. hai. just cant help but sigh at my shitty results. let me be a housewife then.... LOL.

this is a rather long post. shall stop here. dont reali know what else to blog about. (:

-romantic-

tired!!

a lot of members came down to us today! my goodness. what crap is that? all coming down at the same time, we practically didn't stop serving members! some are so irritating. freak. so kan chiong when she heard my conversation with liyana that i have to get back to counter after serving this member. she quickly walked to me and said "eh, girl. please help me with the computer hor. i come first." i was like " ........ ". i didn't care about her though. i quickly asked qam to take over and serve her while i quickly went back to counter. somehow, the counter needs me, it needed mandarin speakers.

had a hard time doing recording. one whole stack! SE declaration was like 62?!?! wtf. ERS recording was quite bad too. oh well, i took up this duty in the first place, so i shouldn't grumble much.

after work, fazil gathered all of us to take pictures with all our OICs and the CSOs. it was a fun time taking pictures with them, especially the part where we "accidentally" made corporal lim and xxx stand next to each other. haha. it's really fun working with this bunch of people.

after which, they all left, leaving me, ter, kv and corporal lim. went coffee bean. hah. had some fusili. not nice, at least to me? cos it's too creamy for me. hmm. as usual, they went on and on about soccer. haha. it's just so them. luckily i'm quite a soccer fanatic so it's ok for me to hang out with them. hmm. when we were heading towards the MRT station, we were recalling the chinese names for the various clubs. haha. it ended up rather hilarious cos some sounded weird. hmm.

while in the train, ter was really trying hard to pronounce AC milan in mandarin. i couldn't control my laughter. hahaha.... that was when kv started to tease us. bleah. it's just so kv. LOL.

out of a sudden, i had a bad gastric pain, again. it left mi silent and pale-looking. he kept asking me to go see a doctor but he knows i won't. it's costly and it's redundant cos i think docs will only give painkillers for gastric pain and stuff. and do you ever hear of any cases where gastric pain can be cured? hmm. well, of cos i ignored his "instruction" and went home. like now, i'm fine here, blogging.

hope he can bring me to cali tomorrow. didn't make it on time today. and oh man. i actually forgot to remind him to follow up on a case! i feel super duper bad. ):

that's all for today i guess. let's see when will i have the time to blog again. bye!

-thanks for your concern-

random thoughts..

people might think i am moving on rather quickly. but personally i think otherwise. it's true that yah, i've put down my feelings for my ex already but isn't it a good thing? i mean we see, or at least i see no future in our relationship. i might be cruel to him but, isn't this better? i realised i no longer initiate to message him or call him. i realised i'm cold towards him. i realised i no longer love him. but i still miss those good times we have together. that, i will never forget. i will never forget him either.

sometimes i get emotional. i think of him, and i still feel sad. no, i no longer love him but there's still this something within me that makes me really sad. i duno how should i put it. but maybe no one can really understand how i feel right now.

he offers his help-to be there for me when i actually got this shitty results. but i rejected him coldly. it's nice of him. but it's not right, and it's too late for him to do that. why didn't he spend much more time and effort on these little things he can do so the build on our relationship? why did he have to wait till everything has ended? it's all too late.

it's difficult to be friends or maybe close friends. i dun think i can face him like the way i do in the first place. i knew he wanted to speak to me in school that day. i was on the phone. and on the line was him-my date. i jus waved to him and continued with my conversation, ignoring him after that. he was pacing near me, while his friends waiting nearby. he looks like he's got something to say. but still, i continued my conversation with my date, leaving him stranded, finally, he left with his frens. and next, i received a message from him..

really random thoughts.

suddenly i realised, it's not going to work out between us anymore.

-it's really over-

oh man! yesterday was a freaking tired day! anyway, got my a's results already. let's not talk abt it. it's freaking saddening. ): i'm applying for all the uni courses available, nie etc etc. well... hope i get into uni. i'm praying hard. i wish zj good luck too, hope tt he gets into nie. (:

for every other frens, i wish all of you well too (:

back to yst. work was like.... freak. sat and still relatively more ppl compared to other sats. time was running very very slowly.... but after work i went out with ter ter. man, we went to have beef kway teow at bugis! den we went shopping at raffles city. den went eating at the soup spoon! eating again. haha. den went esplanade... then, had chocolate fondue! heavenly. very nice!!!!! all his treat, my goodness.. haha. we kept eating! or isit jus mi?! after that, he send mi to boonlay n we went jp to get the xi gua shuang for his ulcer. den finally we went home! tiring! yet enjoyable (: i reached home ard 9plus.

i was researching on uni courses and all and i'm brought back to reality. what if, i reali cant get into local uni? what am i gg to do? i cant afford private uni fees. i cant afford overseas uni fees as well. i'm practically doomed. so what if i got a B for economics. that's h1 and that's my highest grade in my cert excluding mother tongue. my major subjs... SIGH.. thurs i can start applying for uni already. hope everything turns out fine....

tml's work again. AGAIN. i'm getting tired of this job. ): sian.

-unglam queen-