hi!

LOL. day by day, i found out more about those ridiculous stuff you did. you are just such a disappointment. you will never find true happiness. day by day, you make me hate you more than ever. you make me feel relieved that i'm finally out from your trap. you are such a hypocrite. never will you expect that i'll be in the light, and right now, at this moment, i'm in the light. i used to respect you so much. too much, maybe. yes, love is blind. i just can't believe. just tell me you weren't making use of me, that will be enough. we're still friends, yes, like how you treat your "brothers". how you treat them, will be how i'm gonna treat you. now, totally no more respect. maybe, just becos you're my "boss", i have to "respect" you infront of others. but hey, deep inside me, you just a piece of ****. enough, you beast. can't imagine i'll still have flashbacks of our "happy moments", NOT anymore. saddening indeed. nope, it's all not true. i shouldn't think about all those anymore. i'm supposed to forget you, and hate you. that is just right for me to do. i'm just nothing. just look at her. i shall look up to her. she's such a saint and you only have yourself to blame. too bad, you'll never find happiness.

-shut up-

one from one department, the other from another. one has ring, the other does not. one is darker, the other is fairer. one is better-looking, the other is not. both can 'click'. both have defined jawline. both are tall.. what to do?

i still hate you, beast.

-nonsense shit-

this wk was a week full of houseflies but it was super tiring and stressed for me. personally, i like the new oics but sometimes i just cant agree with wat some of them do. this wk, our first new oic came in. i like her. haha. she's just a workaholic and very stressed up, but definitely dedicated. former oics are even more dedicated than some of the present oics. i'm irritated by that. sigh.. personally, i'm ok with the 2nd new oic, but i don't like the way she works.. she practically asks me everything. it's like.. hello, so who's the oic now?

enough about work then. as for those incidents happened between the 2 of us. enough. i found out everything about him. the worst that i ever could. he's just such a beast and lowdown creature. he doesn't know that i'm in the light. he's a liar. every move of his meticulously calculated. i'm glad i've seen your true colours. get away from me.

got to go.. stomach ache !!! LOL ...

-i'm glad -- BARney-

i ought to start exercising soon! i need to trim fats here and there but i prefer my build as compared to others. i do not wana be skinny! LOL. watever. burn fats la.

monday started off with me reaching office super early, before 7am. and there was this siao char bo who reached there like 6am?!?!?! haha. but she is dedicated and stressed, that's y she's there early in the morning 6 o'clock. haha. then proceeded with tallying the cheques and literally typing every single shit into the excel file. i finally completed the whole thing around 4, including tallying those collected ones and all. cos in between, the queue was too long i had to stop tallying and start serving mbrs.

anyway, B is from another dept. T was the guy that i was blogging abt previously. everytime B comes to our dept, he will look for me to pass me some stuff la. then today i was in one of the rooms and i saw B and called out his name saying that i've got something to pass to him. and the thing is. i didn't noe T was behind him!!!! it was like, abit awkward. ... ... anyway, T and i still give each other awkward stares and glances... i duno y. but is there something that he wants to say?? weirdo.

had dinner at cb with bro. T wasn't there. he is still avoiding. sigh. but well, life still goes on w/o him! i'm just glad that when we were dating, he saw the real me. i feel myself, comfortable. i just hope i left a good impression. he should just rmb my good points and forget the times where i get angry. i believed we were happy.

let's move on.. today is minmin's bdae!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN MIN !!!!!! :D
we bought a big baby pooh bear for her as it's her fav cartoon character... hees. i'm glad she really like it !!!!

work again - tml . zzzzzzzzz

-i hate and love you-

one week has passed so quickly.

anyway. at work, another batch of chqs came. damn, GD chqs. around 2000. this is excluding those people where their bank a/cs had been closed and paymt rejected. there'll be another batch coming down this coming week. and our new oic is taking over. i feel that she's so poor thing. jus took over and she has to do those chqs. it's madness. tml i'll be gg to work early to help her with the chqs first. she very funny. she's always so stressed when there's things undone. the other new oic changed my opinion of her when she offered her help! hees. hopefully this continues. and all in all, we have 4 good oics !! (:

that stupid guy, or i should say, man, is driving me nuts. always avoiding the issue. don't understand him at all. i realised everything btwn us changed from the moment he was promoted. now i truly understand why career will get in the way of these things. i'm furious. the way he questioned bro made me felt like i fabricated some kinda story. he is like "... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ..." when it comes to handling these kinda stuff. for goodness sake. he's like the age to get married already and ... sigh, i duno what else to say. in any case, i realised i should really move on and forget abt him. nonsense shit. i used to like the way he work, the way he think of solutions to make the mbrs leave happily. he always had a way, somehow. i totally admired that. maybe that's y i like him. but looking at how he handles the issues btwn us, i duno if i still hold any respect for him. maybe i dont, anymore.

now, down to sports. haha. we're definitely going for our DOUBLE this season!! had a fantastic win over west ham last night. if i didn't rmb wrongly, they are one of our jinx team. well, yst nani did a totally stupid thing. i was already super unhappy with him a few matches back. he was playing like shit and what the hell? that stupid head butt from him ended his season like that. FOOLISH shit. i still love the way we played even after nani was sent off. 4-1 . chelski-s are playing against newcastle coming monday night. the best thing that could happen is for chelsea to lose that. and hey, the title's ours. (:

21st may is another big day. after that nonsensical match with the bribed ref, it's time for us to show chelski who's the real king. that champions league title is also gona be ours. hahs. :D

shall stop here then ... (:

-i realised a 30yr-old man might not
be more matured den a 20 yr-old.
i was wrong.-