Thursday, December 14, 2006

yst had lunch at 3 . den i eat w zhenying then we talk n talk n talk till 6 . c . my work is v v slack . she is damn sad man . she told mi about the guy she likes . oh gosh la . she cried the day before becos of the guy ! i think my case is much much more better compared to hers . just hope that she'll be happy again . she is my best friend since primary school .

oh ya . yst went for trg before gg for work . onli 3 . kl, cindy n mi . we did some shooting den JJC guys n our guys came . oh there will be match gg on . so we sat down n watched . hahas . jus then i saw a familiar face - leonard . he is my primary school fren . hahas . oh he's is JJC . i din noe tt . hahs . but he cant play . he did refereeing instead . we both have the same coach hahas . din sae hi or anything cos we're not sure if we get the right person . after leaving the school i msged him n asked if it was him . hahas . yes it was . so we started chatting ... it has been quite long since i seen him . 1yr plus is it ?

how i wish time can stop during primary school. not the childish times but the times i spent with zhenying they all . not much troubles or anything .

Monday, December 11, 2006

on 7th dec we had bball outing at sentosa .yes, it's sentosa for mi again . but only kahlai,cindy, shiehfang,shirmaine n mi turned up . well, it was still v fun . hahas .i made garlic bread as our snack . hahas .

we played monkey in the sea first . hahas . v funny . we built sandcastle using our feets and hands . hahas . i got everything ready - beachmat, tanning oil etc etc . but .... IT WAS RAINING !!!!! lol . sian . we swam abit . hahas . sf, kl n cindy swam alot . hahas . we threw the ball further n further away n one by one catch it . den we realised there was this lifeguard who was staring at us the whole time . hahas . ok ..... in the end he said ' u r not supposed to play ball in the water itself. only at the shore-line.' ohh . no wonder ... hahas . LOL

we were all tired after tt hahas . den we went to vivo to ben n jerry . hahas . den we walked for awhile n went to The Chicken Rice Shop . hahas . lol . quite nice ! pai tee is nice . mi n sf ordered pepsi . n u noe wat . for a small cup, it costs 2bucks . HA HA HA . lol . after tt we went to candy empire . i jus feel so happy whenever i'm there . hahas . chocolates are my best frens !!

ya . den we went home . hahas . not much to describe but it was reali enjoyable . only the 5 of us understand . hahas .

den today tricked kl into believing we were miting our frens . hahas . instead the rest of us went to bugis to get hers and xy's hotpants . hahas den i went to mit nic(nicholas) for lunch . hahas ........................... den i went home frm there . it was quite stupid cos i duno how to go home frm there . he point to tt hotel there n ask mi to walk to around there den i can find the mrt station . lol but in the end i asked this lady on the streets . hahas . finally . i found the station . lol
hahas .

i'm going to start working tml already . hahas . duno how la . damn sian . shld go n slp now . gd nite ppl .

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

hmm i saw this at my friend's blog . very touching indeed .

read it . =)

("V")

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer. Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.

So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.

Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.

Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

("V")

anyway, i haven really started studying . i guess i shld reali start soon . yea . tml i'm going out with ying after my bball trg to bugis . i can look for zhenying too . hahas . i miss both YINGs alot la . my best frens . hahas . =))

Saturday, December 02, 2006

firstly, happy birthday marvin ! =)) if i'm not wrong . and i don't think i'm wrong . hahas . must slim down ya ?? and take care . sorry amanda didn't wish u yesterday . but anyway, happy belated birthday amanda ! =)

i don't know what to blog . argh. but i will be looking forward to the match later . tomorrow morning 1.10 am . middlesbrough versus manchester united . hahas . manchester united will win . BIG ... hahas . i will watch it definitely . no doubts .

anyway, although i am a girl . i think that soccer reports and stuff should be done by guys n not girls . recently jamie yeo joined in football extra . and seriously i just feel weird listening to a girl/woman discuss about soccer in national TV . is it just me or what ? but anyway, just a comment . hahas maybe one day there will be no guys reporting about soccer ? hahas .

seriously i don't know what to blog about now . shall stop here then . hahas . take care people .

Friday, December 01, 2006

hahas . it's 1 december already . time really flies . 1 more month and school reopens . argh . i'm afraid of my new class . but i'm glad that there are 8 of my 0611g pals together with me - mich, ah joy, kenny, vivi, fang, shiyu, ling n via . let's study hard together ok ? =))

anyway . kahlai they all coming back tomorrow ! yeah . i miss them alot . hahas . wonder what they do there at vietnam . i guess they will be sad to leave there because they spent time with those children over there . after they come back then monday will have training . today i cant go training again cos i'm still sick . now even xinyu is also sick . oh my god la . she better take care ! nowadays the westher really pisses me off . it is always so sunny in the morning and near late afternoon, it will rain heavily . argh . it is so easy to get sick like that .

oh my god . last week i met ms tan to let her see my math file . actually i did it just for the sake of letting her see it . i even came up with a fake plan of what i'm going to do during this holidays to catch up with the work that i missed out during J1 . she believed ! and what worst is that she asked me to go back on 27th to take a full 3-hour math paper . OH MY GOD . and she wants me to aim like B ?? oh please . i have never passed math in J1 . oh shit . and she even ask me to tell fang n vivi about this so that they can take the paper together with me . hais . sian .

i miss my primary school buddies - zhenying, chaohui, siewkhim and huiling. hahas zhenying is my bestest buddies of all . we were supposed to live together when we were primary 5 but for some reasons that we both don't know, she ended up not living with me . chaohui is very cute and funny . hahas . she is also very cheerful and she makes everyone of us smile . siewkhim is more quiet and petite . nice character too . but she transferred school after primary 4 . the good thing is that we still keep in contact . huiling . i have not contacted her for quite long but i know she is still very auntie . hahas . i reali miss all of them and hope that we can go out together soon . =))

alright . shall stop here . i better do my assignments now . 20 assignments in the MLG !!! madness ! hahas .

Thursday, November 30, 2006

i do not have alot to say hahas . but firstly, thank you nicholas who come back into my life again . hahas . i thought u had forgotten about mi but u didnt . hahas . thank u for that . i was really happy when u msged me that night . i was just thinking about u ! hahas . glad that u have finished your a'levels . hope that u can get really good grades . =))

my mother is really nice . because i was coughing like shit then at night she specially went over to the supermarket just to buy lozenges for me . i really appreciate that . thank u ! =)) it might seem a small thing to some but it really means alot to me . i'm so glad that i am her daughter . hahas .

anyway, i have this special msg to YING:
ying, although we wun be in the same class next year, i still hope that u wun pon lessons again . i will still check on u v often to see if u are in school ok . hahas . and i will study hard and not let any of u down . =) most importantly, we will always be good frens n whenever u need help, pls approach me ok ? dun keep probs to urself . i'm always here . =)) lastly, take care !

actually recently i have been thinking . i feel that i am more happpy now that i have no 1 in mind . it's more carefree . n u dun have to be sad over anything regarding relationships . and that's a v good feeling . hahas . =))

and i'm so looking forward to kahlai they all coming back from vietnam . hahas . at first when i join basketball together with marin, i'm or i shld sae we, were kinda afraid of kahlai cos she seems quite cold . but over time, we realised she is a v nice n FUNNY person . and also a good captain . hahas . together with cindy . u can see the strong friendship they hold between them . and from there, u can see the real meaning of friendship . hahas . ok let's talk abt my teammates .

kahlai - good captain n a great fren . =) she's also quite cute . hahas ! reali thank u . i have nv regretted knowing u . i dun care . i wana let u have a reali happy bdae next year . hahas . u will see ....... wahahahah .

xinyu - ok . she's abit sort sort 1 . hahas . our v.capt . she can talk v fast also . and she n cindy have something in common -knee injury . hey pls . TAKE CARE OF UR KNEES OK . WE NEED U !

cindy - wahahah . v v funny person . i like to hang out w her cos she can make mi laugh . u too ok . pls TAKE CARE OF UR KNEES N WE NEED U TOO !! hahas . hope tt the plan tt we came up with will work ! hahas u noe what i'm referring to !

marin - i known her since bridging course thru naph . hahas . nice person also . and she can be quite cheeky at times hahas . i had a great time knowing u ! we must run together during free time ok . so that i can meet the timing and we can both fulfil our wish to slim down more !

shiehfang - african gal . hahas . jk la . wa she damn strong 1 . discus thrower . she shoot 3 pointer no need to jump . hahas . n she shoot hit the board, the board can shake like mad . hahas . v funny also .

vivien - always w fang . hahas . v stupid and blur 1 . hahas . but she is v nice . and wat else ... alot of guys like her . i think hahas . v cute also .

shirmaine - half japanese (recently then i got to know it) hahas . we look forward to chill out at your house next year after a's . we believe it will be super duper fun !!! hahas . i duno u in depth but i noe u r a nice person . hahas .

connie - also in netball . hahas . den she quite hyper i think . hahas . rmb that time i had ushering tgt w her, lianjie n hidil . nice experience . hope that we can all train well tgt for next year !

HER - forget it . i'm not going to sae . i guess all of u noe .

hahas ok . thank you guys for being my teammates n most importantly, my friends . hahas . it is becos of all of u here(except ahems..) that made me never regretted joining basketball . thank you !


=))

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

anyway i went to queensway on wed w xinyu to c those tshirts to make the bball tshirt . it wasnt reali smooth . we wanted tt certain tshirt but there isnt enuff stock . we cant reali find 1 tt's reali appealing to us . hahas . oh ya . before that we went to pizza hut to eat hahas . i ate curry zazzle baked rice . wasnt as spicy as they described . they were like "it is v v spicy" hahas . ok la . it's alrite . not v hot . hahas . mi n xinyu took 961 to queensway from causeway . oh my god ... the bus is crawling . it took ard 50 mins to reach there. n it was raining . it was so cold wen we enter the shopping centre . n i was wearing jersey top . sleeveless . den wen we go home we took 198 n it was freezing cold as well . n i took it all the way back to boonlay interchange . SO COLD . i guess it is becos of tt which lead to mi falling sick now .

hmm . there was bball training today but i din go . cos .. i sick . AGAIN . LOL . but wat reali pisseed mi off is tt teammate of mine . n if u hav been followin closely u wil noe who i'm talking abt . yes it's B** **N . LOL . Kahlai, cindy, fang, vivi n shirmaine went to vietnam already den there is left with onli mi, xinyu, marin, connie n HER . wth . on wed(22/11) i tot xinyu will come for the trg but she wasnt going . so there was onli mi, marin n HER . oh gosh . u shld be there to c how she act big man . i felt so disgusted . LOL . i dun rmb KL they all asking her to take charge moreover, our vice captain, xinyu is stil w us . the way SHE acts big . OH MY GOD . ok fine . i din reali show her displeasure or wat la .

ohh . den today's trg, xinyu isn't going . so the most will be left wif mi, marin, connie n HER . n this is provided tt the 4 of us has nothin on . i decided not to go becos i'm not feeling well . u noe i wana informed the other 3 of them including HER so that they nite not end up trg alone . i nsged them . n SHE replied mi sae "ur reason for not gg?? " . den again she said "u haven tell mi ur reason for not gg" . so demanding . ewww . c . she thinks she's so big . excuse mi B** **N , u aren't the captain or vice even . even if u're not the cap or vice-cap, i wud glady tell if u asked in a nice way . she knew i hate her n she asked mi in this manner . irks mi . she can asked in a more friendlier n less demanding way like " why r u not going ? something on outside or wat ?" . tt will be much better . so . i din wana tell her so i said " it's something private n i dun tink there's a need to tell u much more other than this. u're not the cap or vice" .

ohh u noe wat . i'm even more irritated . she said "i need to report to them and u should noe reason shld be valid. anyway since u like that sae. then anythin not my prob" . v broken rite . this is exactly wat she said . wth man . she's like accusing mi of not gg for training due to INVALID reasons . WTH . n wat report to them . HA !!!! so funny . who do u think u r ?? LOL . i kinda get even angrier . i said " u mean dey asked u to take charge ? OMG. wtf my prob, i'll settle myself and wat's ur meaning of tt? u mean i'm not gg 4 trg due to invalid reasons . tt's too much. n i'll tell them myself . i'm jus telling u jus incase u end up trg alone" . fcuk man . i cant stand her . n seriously i dun feel like gg to her hse for bbq . it's sooo ... argh !

guess wat . i reali meant well as for the trg alone part . i'm telling her so tt she noes i'm not gg . n can u imagine the rest are all not gg n she doesnt noe . then she'll end up alone . c . i meant well n i can swear off my asses for this . n WTH . she took this as a sarcastic remark n said "sorry i won't be trg alone . disappointed ? too bad ." oh FCUK . tt reali sparked off the fire leading to a quarrel . sucks . it's so disgusting . i'm not telling onli her . in fact, i told all my other 3 teammates who are in singapore-xinyu, connie n marin . fuck . i reali hate her . n this reminded mi of wat she said last time tt built the foundation of my hatred towards her .

she complained to cindy abt mi i think . if i'm not wrong . den she threatened saying she mite quit bball . wth . u wana quit, quit then ! it's so childish to sae this kinda things n especially when she will not do it . fuck . wt's most irritating is tt she said her old injuries r back n it's all due to mi . she said this " due to jas stupid passes" . oh what the fuck . excuse mi . y couldn't it be her that didnt catch the ball properly . n how the hell does she know tt I'M the one who caused her old injuries to return . oh crap . n she used the word "stupid" . oh my god . i think she has to go n have a brainwash n get all those words n meaning right back into her head . sometimes i reali think she's quite retarded . yst i've told her i'm telling her i'm not gg trg becos i'm afraid she mite end up trg alone . n she asked AGAIN . not only tt . i have to xplain wat exactly i mean . c . i'm not accusing her .

oh . n wen i quarrel w her n she doesnt noe wat to sae, she'll be like "freak, sick, damn sick, stop ur crap la, bullshit" LOL . i noe she'll sae all this . n i bet she'll come n check my blog if i b**** about her here . i noe she will come n take a look . oh no . i have to prepare for all her tags that will be coming in as wat 'tom dick harry' LOL . too bad i've changed the tagboard or u guys will c how broken she speaks . hahas . nvm . i guess i have to study hard now so tt i can beat her in her studies . LOL . i reali hate her . n i can swear off my asses tt i'm not the only 1 who hate her . n it's not 1 or 2 others tt hate her . it's plentiful . LOL .

alright alright . i shall stop here . hahas . oh ya before tt i shall put the OBS bbq pic here . hahas .



from left:arshad,faris,mi,khai n dinie


busy preparin food . credits to winston, zhonghao n roch . jason also . in the later part.



gals act macho, guys act sissy . hahas .



mi roch n khai . oh wat's tt thing roch's holding ??

ok . done . but i dun understand y some pics so small . it mite turn out weird or otherwise in the blog page . hmm . reali nice having bbq w them . farewell to jason ! oh ya . he already left last wk . take care . =))

Thursday, November 23, 2006

hahas . i saw from mich's blog n xiao.hei's blog .. i also wana try this .. since we r going to be separated . 0611G . we r united in a way tt we go against tt KC . 0611gians noe wat i mean . hahas .


shiying - erm . not v close to her . but kinda scandalous w techun . lol !


beryl, jill, michelle, joycelyn, weejie, marvin, xinying - we r usually tgt during breaks in the canteen or library . it is nice to hang ard w them . hahas . i rmb last time on weds we wud order chicken cutlet cos weds is unhealthy day . hahas . den we'll buy indian rojak n share . hahas . i reali had a great time w them .=)


beryl - our class tai-tai . v rich . hmm . she leaving to australia to study . all the best ! we'll nv forget u . <3


vivien - stupid . blur . hahas . always tgt w shieh fang . nice person . my teammate also hahas .


karling - SLOW . our class platinum 1 . wahaha . she's my pri sch fren la . hahs .


jill - small . hahas ! funny la . also like to complain . but beryl's better at this . hahas .


joycelyn - guai . v v guai . but she turned a lil bad (talk-back) after influence frm michelle n kenny . other culprits are terence, wee jie . hahas . but she sing damn nice !


shiyu - sort sort 1 . always w karling n sylvia . hahas . lac la gal . connect wires properly !


shieh fang - v v black 1 . hahas . we always call her african . hahas . but she v funny also . always w vivi . my teammate also . hahas . discus thrower . she's got lots of strength !


michelle - sometimes quite depressed 1 . hahas . like ahlian like that . hahas . but nice person also .


sylvia - hardworking i shld sae . hahas . my sec sch de . our pw rep . v responsible .


xinying - my best fren ! i love her like mad . hahas . she's always there 4 mi . especially during the OAC camp where i broke my finger . hahas . now we r gg to be separated . damn sad . but i'll nv forget her !!


chan kai - the shoe boy . hahas . nothin much to sae abt him . but my pw grp 1 . hahas . congratulations on overcoming ur stage fright ! u done well tt dae !


weejie - my sec sch classmate . hahas . i pity him for the situation he has been in for the year . regarding KC . he's a v nice guy la . hahas .


lixin - maple boy . rather lame . hahas but gd luck for ur poly life . hope u feel less stressed there . n stop being addicted to maple la !


kenny- my sec sch classmate also . he likes man U too . last time v quiet n guai . now changed to v lame n noisy . hahas . he likes vivi . n also techun - gay relationship . hahas ! nice guy .


techun - always tgt w kenny 1 . also lame la . crappy . hahas . noisy also . but can be nice if he wans to . nice person also .


marvin - the round 1 . funny . indulges in food wen sad . marvin dun do tt la . not gd ! funny guy always w weejie 1 . hahas .


terence - some ppl call him gay . lol . hahas . but he's quite nice also la . gd in english . hahas .


xinchen - our class mao zedong . v tall . 193 izit ?? hahas . my OP grp also . always got tt weird expressions . hahas .


hahas . this is my class . everyone is nice . but there wun be any 0611G anymore next yr . this is reaLI sad . we wanted to make class jacket - which is like a last kinda thing for the class, as a class . but we din managed to get tt done becos there is no black jacket from the supplier . the plan failed . it adds on the our sadness cos the "last thing" cant be done . tsk tsk tsk hais .


i'm glad to have all of them as my classmates even if it is only for a yr . as a chairperson, seriously i feel tt i had not done enuff for the class . reali sorry for tt . for those leaving innova next yr for poly overseas or wat, all the best n hope u adapt well to the new surroundings . as for those retaining, work hard ! we'll stil c each other in school . in all , take care ! i love 0611G .

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

yst was fun . reali . hahas . i woke up like 6plus .... to get to school for the biology DNA PCR workshop . some experiment where we have to do the gel electrophoresis thingie . but this time we have lambda DNA given to us as the DNA ladder . hahas . it's kinda complicated cos there's this PCR thing which we need to learn . interesting, but the hours are long ...... 0900h - 1700h . LOL .

during the lunch break i went to the canteen to look for val . zhenjie and roch was there . it was around 1120h . val left for CWP 1st to collect stuff from her fren . den the three of us are to mit her later to eat . hahas . den in the end roch was playing com till 1140h den we reached CWP like 1200h . oh my god la . i'm supposed to reach school by 1230h . quickly, i buy the food, tom yam bee hoon kuay . lol . i onli finished like 1225h . lol . hahas . finally i flew back to school . reported 1255h . LOL . i bluffed teacher sae i got diarrhoea . oh my god la . i feel so bad when mrs oh asked r u ok . .... hahas . well ....

oh ya ph ya !!! i'm in the same grp as elizabeth n .... phoebe ..... lol .. hahas . okok . den we did our experiment n stuff . oh my god la . failure . hahas . we took the comb out be4 submerging it into the buffer . so wen i inject the 10microlit of sample into the wells, it kinda overflow ... it's all due to the air trapped in the wells when the comb was taken out . hahas . but anyway . after staining the whole gel . we managed to c 3 bands from our ladder . hahas . the thing was so funny . there was this machine tt holds our gel in containers then it will kip swirling 4 a long long time ........ 20mins ... ?

anyway . after the bio workshop mi n eliz joined shelly n winston to buy the bbq stuff . roch joined us too . this bbq is specially for jason . his farewell .. so sad la . den we met the rest of the obs ppl at sembawang ... besides eliz, roch, winston, shelly n mi, who was there .... hmmm . elbert, merelda, khai, zhiheng, arshad, marsha-with her bf peter, zhonghao, faris . hahas . and of cos jason . sofia n dinie came later . the bbq was fun . hahas . mi n shelly prepared sambal fish . yea success ! hahas . they like it ok . hahas . it was dirty as well . we were being kinda horny n dirty . wat sort ever . hahas . n the ever so horny khai is of cos horny too . wahahah . some dirty jokes n stuff lydat . hahas . c . tt's obs ppl . hahas .

another funny thing . shelly n merelda went to the guys toilet n used bottles to make it look like tt guy thing n pretend peeing . den faris will be looking at the ****s and give a v shocked look . ok . tt's their pose . hahas . funny la . the 2nd was den successful . cos the 1st time, there was this guy who went in n looked at them w a v weird expression . hahas !!!! wth man . so funny . we went to the playgrd ard 9pm . hahas . swings slides etc etc . we took some pic where we stack one after another on the slide . hahas . oh my god la . we were sliding down by our side . our hips hurt so much as one by one added weight ... ouch la . but it was fun . hahas . den finally jason said his farewell speech . faris was like wo xiang ni, ni xiang wo . wo yao ni, ni yao wo. wo ai ni, ni ai wo . hahas . funny sia . den we were like ... ohhhhhhh .... den they hugged . hahas . reali will miss jason man .

hahas . we left there like 9plus near 10 . hmmm . tiring . but we're all happy . hahas . i love them man . =))

Sunday, November 19, 2006

a few days din blog le . hahas . anyway . on fri actually got bball trg . but i fell sick jus the night be4 . i was also supposed to mit my sec sch cliques after the trg . in the end i din go 4 the trg . hmm . den i went to mit my cliques ard 1.30pm on fri . at singapore poly . ya, again . hahas . but i dun get tired of tt place . hahas . i tink it's becos it's big . hahas .

i mit weiliang, wenxiang n zhiquan . hahas . den we walk ard . went to the bazaar which was quite small . den we saw xinjie . hahas . so long din c her . wa wear braces liao huh . hahas . den we went to the library there . they r so funny . i'm not even studying in their school but i ended up bringing them to the library . hahas . so funny . cos wx they all go to the business school n biz sch has a biz lib themselves . tt' s y they dun go to the main library . hahas . den we saw wang quan n guoliang n cliques . hahas . stupid gl dun wana join us n talk la . so anti-social la . wth . but watever .

hmm . den we went to the EEE study corner again . hahas . i bought the wt japanese pizza . wa lau . like wat man . i nearly vomitted wen i eat it la . not nice !!! den htein came also . hahas . but he din join us in the end . hahas . he went n " kick some balls " which means play soccer la . hahas . following tt, the few of us went to the bazaar again then we went to jurong point to shop for awhile . wx din join us as he went for band . hahas . wl v nice la . he buy food 4 mi to eat . treat mi sia . wa .... hahas . 1 black pepper sausage . hahas .

den soon, we left JP and i went home to watch Goong . hahas . it's nice to mit them again . reali miss all of them . i feel tt sec sch frenz r v v impt . they grow up n mature tgt w u . they went thru the darkest times tgt w u . happy moments or not, they r always w u . i reali wana thank them so much .. cheryl, wx, wl, en, zq, gl, kenny, wc, kx, datou, BC, dolly n gang, pf, sf, wanting n yikqi, ks, pasti, almost every1 in 4a, wangquan, bball gang n also 1/5 . and also . all those senior batch in choir . 16 beats - dama, van, lily, maria, afifah, asrinah, MLH, hazel, peiting etc etc . too many ppl to thank . sorry if i forget to list your names here . but u noe how thankful m i ! thank u guys . life cudn't be better w/o any of u ! =))


part of 16beats here .


i'm happy todae . hahas . manchester united won 2-1 yst against sheffield united . yea . thanks to rooney . nice to c him scoring again . hahas . =))

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

yea . singapore poly having bazaar this wk . i was supposed to mit wangquan only on fri . den yst after class damn sian . so mi n val decided to go sp . hahas .

she wanted to look for her fren . so we went to the school of business . wa the sch is big la . we ended up looking at every maps we come across so to get to the place we wanted to . we were wearing sch uniforms . so every1 was staring at us wen we went into sp . hahas . so funny .

oh ya we walked 1 whole big round den finally get to school of business ... lol . den her frenz walked us down to the bazaar . funny la . den i saw wangquan !!! hahas . den we went to the cafe to sit for awhile . den he went to lib to meet some1 . den we wanted to go to the lib too . oh my god la . we jus cant find the lib . finally we gave up . n went back to the cafe . hahas . wangquan was back there . with his fren . xiuling, xueyi n charlotte . hahas . they r nice ppl . val can reali click w them ! n oh ya . wangquan made cookies la !!! wangquan ah wangquan . hahas . not bad not bad . quite nice !!

oh ya i saw htein lin too . hehe . talked 4 awhile den he went 4 his paper . den he sae will walk walk w mi after his paper la . so nice . the sch so big la . hahas . den wangquan they all went to the EEE study corner . mi n val also went there la . damn funny . it seems tt almost every1 there are guys . den they stare at us like they have nv seen ppl be4 la ! hahas . i guess next time i shldnt appear in uniform . hahas .

soon . jingen finished class n came to find mi w her fren . hahas . den talked for awhile .. den she went to do her stuff . den htein lin also finish his paper den he came n find mi . den he bring mi n val around to walk walk . we went to the lib . mi n val were like wth . we were so close to the lib . hahas . but watever . wen we reach there then we saw jasmine ho at lvl 3 . hahas . den we ended up talking for quite long . i told her abt X too . hahas . mus be careful of X .

den 1830hr, we leave the lib to go home !! hahas . val got off at je to go yew tee den htein lin got off at lakeside . finally 19++hr i reach home . den htein lin asked mi abt wat mi n jas ho were talking abt . so i told him the whole story .... hahas . he was like 'wa. he like trying to be a bastard sia' . somethin lydat la . i guess i reali have to beware of X . hahas .

and also . mon trg took neoprint w kahlai, cindy, shiehfang, vivi, shirmaine, xinyu . haha . damn funny . ok . i have trg later . hahas . so tired . ...

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

this stupid thing tt my fren asked mi to do .... ahteo la . aiyo . ok anw .

one. think of 5 true facts abot urself. and they gotta be true.

two. come up with 10 false statements regarding urself,but for fun's sake, keep them in the threshold of believability.

three. jumble them up and list them out in any order.

four. post them on ur blog n let ppl guess which are the 12 false ones.

five. get another 6 ppl to do the same.

okay i choose .. wenxiang, wencong, michelle, peifang, zhenjie and shieh fang . hahas

1. i like being hurt.
2. i was so angry tt i purposely threw my handphone on the floor.
3. i was talent scouted before.
4. i dun like muscle aches.
5. my longest relationship was 2 years.
6. i saw my ex hit my fren wen i was sec 1 but i din not do anythin abt it .
7. i made cookies for someone i like when i was in sec 4 .
8. my first love started when i was sec 3.
9. i waited for my best fren for 3 hours before.
10. i had never been to sentosa with frens until last thurs.
11. i was once in chinese dance and was the lead for the dances since p5.
12. i was once punished, tgt wif 2/3 of my class den- stand on the stage, CIP etc, for leaving my bags in the classroom n went for assembly wen i was p6.
13. i am a diploma holder for piano.
14. i pulled one girl to a corner and beat her up-slap- because she stared at mi.
15. i once had a caucasian boyfren.

yeah ! finally finish it !!! hahas . start guessing . ......

Sunday, November 12, 2006

hahas . holidaes ! weeeeeee ... but it's also a time where we can get reali fat ! wow . today , 0110 i watch man utd play against blackburn . i was damn frustrated during the 1st half la . the stupid ball jus wudnt get in . argh . but finally e 2nd half . a glimpse of hope . hahas . 1-0 final score . 10 wins out of 12 games . so cool . =))

was msging lalala.boy be4 e match . hahas he damn funny n weird 1 . there's some1 who said he was cute . den he die die also wans mi to show him who tt person is .... -.-" . hahas . nice lehs . he watch the match too . but he support no club . hahas .

oh i have bball trg tml . argh damn lazy . he also have la . funny !! hmm .

on thurs i went to sentosa wif beryl, jill, joycelyn, xinying, weejie, marvin n lixin . hahs . the sun wasnt strong wen we wanted to sun bath . but .. we got sunburn . jill n mi . wow . damn painful . but it was nice to go out wif them . while we were playing monkey in the sea, it rained suddenly . so we ran into the small -wat u call tt ? - beach bar ? watever . we had sprite wif tequila . hahas . but none will be drunk cos it's jus like half a cup . hahas .

the weather was playing wif us . funny la . rain den stop . den rain again . argh . damn irritating . hahas . i stil rmb us alight at siloso beach . wen we were supposed to mit at palawan . -.-" so we asked around how to get there . e person asked where are we from . we were like .. wahahaha so funny la . in e end we took a beach tram . it was crawling ............. every station the driver will sae passengers please be seated, 4 ur own safety, the tram is moving . hahas funny la . e guys were there wen we jus reached siloso . wen we reach palawan, we went to the island life shop . shop n shop .... for bikinis ! hahas . e guys waited n waited ...... finally we got there . hahas .

hmmm . tt dae . this guy whom i onced liked, v.close to, hurt mi deeply in e past, wanted to mit mi . let's call him X . recently,X msged mi n asked mi to mit him . hmmm . ok .. but i wasnt free n i was kinda afraid to mit him . cos i am reminded of the hurtful stuff wen i tink of him . fine . so i decided to mit him tt dae . to go home . cos he live near mi . it's weird wen i c him . he got quite close to mi . n . i jus don have tt kinda feeling again . i like him NO MORE . i dono y . maybe becos he hurt mi too deeply.

he sent mi home . den we talked 4 5mins below my hse . he asked mi to mit up wif him more often . hmm . he wans all my free time . he asked if i missed him . i duno wat he wans la . so weird . actually i'm afraid he's here to hurt mi AGAIN . but i dono la . wat i noe is i dun feel anythin 4 him anymore . wen i reach home den he said he wans to mit mi cos he missed mi .... hmmm . dono .

on the following day, i msged him n told him how i felt - no feelings . den he said i think too much - he was jus teasing mi . wth ??? so wat is he reali up to ? can any1 tell mi ..... from thurs till now, i've been thinking abt this over n over again . it's reali vexing . den . he no longer msg mi ... y ? y? y ???????!!!!!!!

Monday, November 06, 2006

hahs . wah . jus now we had OP assessment !! damn scary . my hrt nearly popped out . i was most afraid of the Q&A . but ok la . i think i ansed the # . shew . OP is finally over ! n u noe wat . 2 more days . after handing in I&R, i shall say bye-bye to PW . YEA !!!!!! damn happy . hahas

on fri, 3rd nov, we got back our results . actually we were in the LT listening to the algae speak . ewwww . damn long la . den they sae 100++ ppl retain . lol . den they show some ppl names n those r supposed to stay in the LT n await futher instructions . lol . my name wasnt there so i went back to the class to get my result slip . u noe wat ??!!! wth . i'm promoted. damn sucky . i'm supposed to be happy but i'm not at all happy . my class. 20 ppl, 11 retain . there'll be no more 0611G next yr . how sad is tt . oh my god la.

wen i get my result slip back from mdm yee, she said actually i failed but the school decided to promote mi . i was like . wat?! . i noe i failed terribly lo . shit la . others result slip were like 'promoted to jc2' . den mine ? 'advanced to jc2' hahas how gd is tt la . e sch reali sucks . they actually retain 100++ ppl . n the most saddening thing 4 mi is tt i will no longer be in the same class wif xinying . she's a reali nice fren n i feel reali sad to be in different class wif her nex yr . e remainin 9 of us who promoted will be split up !! er . i dun wan tt ! i cant imagine myself in a foreign class . tt's rather weird n i'm going to hate tt feeling . hais .

tt dae be4 leaving the LT . i saw cheeyang den i asked him abt it . moo was e onli 1 among them 3 who got promoted . den i was like . huh ...... den he said 'nvm . anyway i'm going to leave' . wa lau it's reali sad la . thru the promotion thing, so many ppl r leaving . n Innova is so going to be boring w/o them . beryl is leaving 4 australia, some r withdrawing to poly also . hais . i'll reali miss them alot .

Sunday, October 29, 2006

it's a few days since i blogged. damn sian . last wk quarrel with mdm YKC wa ..... damn funny . the whole class like ... hahas . i wrote a script on it den was passing it around den our ST wanted to c the paper . but he end up going after 2 of my classmates-shiyu, shiehfang- for the paper . den he pinky wif SF tt he will not sae out after reading it . hahas . ok ... den he read the paper . den he said :' be nice" . we were like . hahas SF said :' we are already v.nice" . correct wat . we are alreaady very nice to her 4 goodness sake !

now it seems that almost everyone noes tt our class quarrelled wif her . it's spreading like fire ! hahas . nice . we are not angry abt the quarrel . instead, i feel tt it's so fun to quarrel with her ! hahas funny .

recently kept watching Gong - the princess hours . damn nice . i like the prince . hahas . i finshed watching it yst . around noon . i was watching from fri nite till sat morning 5 plus den i slp . 10 plus i woke up n watch again . by 1plus, i was done watching the whole thing ! v.nice . i guess i will buy the vcd . hahas . i recommend everyone to watch tt !

my living room TV has broken down . damn suck man . i lost my privacy . my parents come into my room to watch TV . n .... hais . it's ok if it's my mum . but my dad also . i'm not close to him . n it's jus ... na . I WANT MY PRIVACY ! hope tt we can get a new TV soon . N becos of tt stupid broken down TV, i cant watch Manchester United play last nite . damn irritating . i duno how to connect my room's TV to the cable . gosh . there r sooooo many wires entangled behind the TV . so . i din get to watch . but nvm . man U won 4-0 !!!! all thx to rooney . c ... i knew he'll be scoring soon . n yea . 3 goals . how nice is tt . hahas .

not much blogging abt strawberry anymore .

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

oh ya oh ya . i 4got ! hahas . on sunday after visiting the gal n my mum's fren, we went down to my mum fren's beauty salon . hahs . damn funny . now there's this new chair tt has electric current . i sat on tt chair . no feeling . but there is electric current running in u . hahas . but other ppl who touches u will get a shock hahas . cool .

most importantly when i was going home wif my mum n her fren on bus 198, i saw Choon !!! i was so happy to c him . hahas he was going home too . jus left the gf's hse . hahas . we talked 4 awhile . he also asked mi abt the dominique thing tt happened during OBS . so funny la . n he live so near mi ! he live at boon lay too . hahas . ya . den he said hiap luh got a new gf - a $5000++ bike . i was like . WOW....... hahas . cool . hahas .
on sunday i went out wif my mum . if u hav read the news, there is this gal who was riding a bike near midnight and got herself knocking into a lorry . she suffered reali bad injuries . she's my mum's fren's daughter . how sad it is .

also . my mum's another fren fainted during work and it's like stroke i think . hmm . so on sunday my mum brought mi to the hospital to visit her and also the bike gal . oh my . the bike gal is still unconscious . hmm . how sad . 3 days of staying in the PICU cost $4000++ . oh my . her injuries r reali reali bad . her spine, the area behind her neck, the bones broke . her left thigh bone broke too . e doc had to take her right thigh bone to fix it at the back of the neck . initially her hrtbeat was around 30++ but on sunday it was 60++ to around 70 .

doc sae tt her brain is still working fine . but i do not think she'll wake up or mayb not so soon . it's reali sad . but . can u imagine wat happens wen she wakes up ? she can hardly do anythin, like disabled . hais . sometimes it's still better to listen to wat ur mum saes . my mum doesnt allow mi to ride a bike on the road or watever unless is those recreational type . she also doesnt allow mi to go out till v late . after this incident, i guess i shld listen to her . hmmm .

i'm reali afraid tt strawberry mite read my blog . or he happen to find it . oh my . wat if he reads my blog. i'll be so dead. argh .

Saturday, October 21, 2006

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IF YOU NEED TO TALK TO ANYONE, JUST
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Thursday, October 19, 2006

wow . i shall jus ignore some of those ppl(if u noe wat i'm talking abt) . now is GP period but i pon . so sian la . she sae i got v.bad attitude lor ... wth . nvm dun go her class lo .

hahas . yst went 4 the OGL interview . damn sian . once they asked mi abt my results, i was like sian already . cant promote cant be OGL lo . wat's most impt is wat was happening after tt . i was at the corridor talking to S n E . E was threatening to sae out who's S's eye candy . den E said out S's eye candy's name. i was like . shit ! OH MY GOD . they asked mi y . i was like . " he's also my eye candy la !". yea it's him . damn sian . but it's crush . shld be .

let's call my eye candy strawberry . hahas . den strawberry, xiao.qiang, val n mi were talking. den they suddenly ended up guessing who's val's n my eye candy . they got val's correct . i was happy tt they din continue to guess mine . but who noes val asked them to guess mine . oh no . den strawberry asked which cca is he in n stuff lydat . den he asked if the name start with a certain alphabet . it's his initial la . i duno he act blur or wat la . but val quickly sae "huh ? i duno anythin" . by then it shld be damn obvious la . den e four of us went down to canteen . i asked them wat if a gal eye candy them . my god . strawberry said "avoid la" . lydat . i was like ..... oh ...

den we went to play bball . he loner . halfway go fitness corner all by himself . hahs but duno la . mi n val played wif other ppl (prab, alex, jodi plus 3 more other ppl tt i duno) . damn funny . prab n alex are in the same team but they dun have team work . hahas . alex is a damn funny guy ! i wana play bball with him again! fun . hahas

around 6, mi n val went bac to the canteen . we tot strawberry n xiao.qiang went home but they were still there . den i went back to my original seat which was jus rite beside strawberry. i didnt mean to purposely sit beside him . it jus happen lydat . den we played the goon-do game . i played it on him cos the rest noe lo . so embarassing sia . i held his hand la . that's to play the game . but he damn goon-do . 175% stupid lehs . hahas . funny . den BY, not B**Y**, came down saw us den she was smiling cheekily to mi . hahas den i asked "u noe who's my eye candy mehs ?" she said "can c can c " . strawberry heard tt too . by then of he still duno, he mus be an idoit . hahas . i was damn embarrassed .

den we finally go home . on the way we got talk abit but abit only . den at the pasar malam there, i was caught in btwn going home n going to eat wif zhiyang they all . if i'm not going home, it means strawberry will be going alone . but i chose to go eat . but den i msg him to sae sori tt i left him to go home alone lor . but weird la . from how late he stays back n stuff, i deduce tt he has no gf . i was rather confident of tt .

den e rest of us (val, BY, moo, zhiyang n mi) went banquet to eat . while queueing up 4 food wif val, i asked "wat if he has a gf?" val said "he has !" den i was like .... hrtbroken . i wasnt quite convinced . u noe . after buying my food i reali had no appetite . i was damn sad . hais . i still cant believe tt he has a gf . oh my . moo n ZY funny . ask mi to eye candy other ppl . but it's not easy lo. they kept saying out other guys names n stuff lydat . funny . but . ya .... hais .

v sad ah . still not convinced, i asked xiao.qiang . "i ask u somethin but promise not to tell any1. is he attached? " den he replied "hahas yup" i was totally sian . i din sleep well tt nite . i woke up @ 12, 1, 3 and 4 . ah . damn tired . till now, i stil cant believe tt . but i noe it's true . hais sian .

saw xiao.qiang jus now . once he c mi he laughed lo !!! "y u laugh at mi?" den he said "i knew it ! i knew it !" . he said it was damn obvious . i tot mayb strawberry stilll duno . but xiao.qiang sae their personality quite similar so he mite already noe it lo . e 2nd time he sae mi, he lughed at mi again . so bad la . argh . hahas but he's a nice guy . he's damn funny too . mi n val enjoy his presence ! hahas

i saw strawberry in the lib jus now . but i was calling 4 xiao.qiang den strawberry said hi to mi . hahas . yea . happy . but sain la . got gf already . i always tot he doesnt have . i was shocked . but nvm . i'll learn to accept it .

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

hmm . recently there's alot of bitching around abt the gorilla B**Y** . she's so .... argh . lots of comments abt her - disgusting, fake, hypocrite, sucker, b****, u name it ! i didnt use to hate her so much . but after wat has happened recently and also the stuff she did tt made val suffer , i hate her like shit . to the core . can u imagine . ewwwww . i'm so so so lucky i'm not in the same class as she is . or else i'll be so dead . val reali has a high tolerance lvl . wow man . if it's mi, world war wud hav started .

wat's the problem wif her man ! i cant accept the fact that she's actually my teammate . ewww. u noe how much do i have to suffer ?! wth . she noes that i dun like her and doesnt talk to her anymore . shucks la . she make it seem like she noes everyone in the world . in fact, she doesnt . told u . she's so fake . she sees my best fren n goes around 'Hiiiiiii .. ' lydat ! how disgusting is that ! or she'll sae 'hellooooo . ' . my fren is so damn disgusted by her . she sucks like hell ! stupid gorilla . anyway, tt's e name given to her by some1 else . hahs .

i haven finished wif that . she's got plenty of eye candies . n usually her taste sucks . fine . if every1 has their own point of view . but it is happening tt one of her eye candies is MY eye candy . wth . luckily . my eye candy doesnt like her too . c ..... it's not only mi n val . there's still lots more of ppl who dislike her like crap . dun believe ? ask around ! she is so irritating . last time wen i was still talking to her, she was always buzzing like a stupid bee . tt explains her name ! she'll be like ' i miss XXX ' . she'll repeat that a hundred thousand million times ! i cant stand it ! it's so disgusting . n tt reali sounded desperate . ewwww .

watever . there are too much incidents to be listed here . some r even hard to be typed out . u have to experience it urself den u'll noe the sufferings that we had to bear with 4 the past few months . argh .

let's tok abt my eye candy . hmm .. recently gotta noe him more . tt dae during the open house on sat, he tried roller blading . hahs . be4 he go, he asked mi not to luff @ him if he falls . ok la . i agreed lo . hahas who noes . later.. he fell !!! hahas his fren(xiao.qiang - hahas) was shouting over to mi ' jasmine did u c tt ? ' i was like ' ya ya ya !' and we luffed like crap . sorri eye candy . hahas but it's reali funny . hahas . i promise not to luff at u again la .. hahas

i was supposed to do ushering but i sneaked out 4 awhile . hahas den i nida go bac there . argh . i asked him to come n find mi @ LT4 n he reali did . hahas . so nice . we talked 4 awhile n he was so tired . his eyes were so red . bloodshot . den he left . den i sneaked out again ! hahas . this time we went to play bball . he was in the same team as mi . so is val . hahas . v nice game. he kept asking us to relax. funny man .

last time wen i didnt reali noe him, i was not tt nervous wen i c him . now tt i noe him more den be4, my heart pounds so fast wen i c him ! oh gosh i'm so afraid tt my face will turn so red . wow but it's reali nice to noe him. =)

becos i was talking to him outside the futsal court, the B**Y** whom i no longer talk to, came over n make fun of mi n my ex-eye candy . she's so irritating . she wans my eye candy to tink tt i have another eye candy . shucks la . tt was in the past . but nvm . after tt i told him abt my ex-eye candy . hahas . nice .

on mon we stayed bac after school to play table tennis . i din play . i jus watched . hahas . but after tt wen we were going home . 4 god noes wat reasons, we started speaking chinese which sounded so weird . hahas . hahas . he caught a flu . but i duno if he's feeling better now . hope he is . =)

i din noe he signed up 4 OGL too . argh but we're not in the same grp . jus adjacent grp . hahas . but better den nothing . @ least B**Y** is somewhere else in other grps . hahas . i'm happy for val tt she is not in the same OGL grp as B**Y** . who noes wat'll happen . hahas .

Friday, October 13, 2006

results week . hais . u noe it's reali bad . 4 summer test, i failed all my H2 . gp i got a S, econs E & chi B. bio chem n math . U U U .. hahas how nice is tt . mid course results. failed my bio reali badly . chem , S, 44 which is 1 mark away from passing . shucks . chi still B . gp, econs haven get bac . back looking at my H2 . u noe i wudn't get promoted unless there's super much moderation . hah

well, even if i manage 2 scrape thru n get promoted, i mite still choose to retain . i don wana end up going no where after A level . mite as well spend 1 > yr to ensure better grades . hopefully i get super high 4 chi compo tt can lift my grades up to an A . n hope tt econs i can get a D ? hah . gp i dono .

some time this week or nex week, i'll have to tell my mum how bad are my results . if not i'm afraid she'll get so agitated on the day wen results are released. i bet it'll be a crying session . i cry v easily . n i'm sure my mum'll be utterly disappointed in mi . i'm e better 1 in studies compared to my 3 bros . of cos my mum will xpect alot from mi . but ... this will definitely be a blow to her . she loves mi alot . n i love her too . i dun wish to hurt her like tt . nut i have no choice .

Monday, October 09, 2006

i'm so so so bored . 14 oct open house . shucks n i'll be doing ushering . in LT4 . wow . haha i'll be freezed to death there . rite there .

i kinda noe tt i did not do well enuff to be promoted . but i'm unwilling to accept tt fact . 4 i'm unwilling to face the tears tt'll roll down my cheeks jus after tt . i m unwilling to c the i'm-so-disappointed faces of my mum . n i reali dun wan to . but wat's done is done . i've to face it somehow . shit . yes shit .

2day is boring n so is tml will be . post exam activities . talks n pw . argh . watever . weds we'll get back the results / let's c how i fare . hopeless shit /

Friday, October 06, 2006

wow . it's all abt pw n pw now ... argh . headache lehx . i wan a obs outing !!! kimo pls organise 1 ! cos e previous 1 tt we said is str8 after e op makeup lect . but now i dun even noe wen will it be held la . cos nex sat is open house lehx . hah . lol .

exams over . but i don feel any sign of relieve or wat shit cos . i tink i'm too slack during the exam period . it feels the same to mi . hmmm hah . yea i think most probably i can go sss on time nex tues . cos mon n tues is pw dae n post exam activities . hahas . most likely can go over . so happy !! =) heard from qing that sec 3 n 4s will be supporting the lower sec . so .. most likely i'll c him !! yea so happy . hahas

i wana play pool . n khai said he'll teach mi . yea . he's good u noe . last fri went pool with kimo n khai but i din play cos i duno how to . wa . khai is good . actually kimo is not bad . but he wasnt lucky tt dae . hahas . i so look 4ward to a pool session again . hahs . nice . =)

Friday, September 29, 2006

yiqing was here.

hey jasmine !
i hope you like your new blogskin.
i spent really long looking for that picture !
anw, you got to study hard okay.
exams coming right, like next week.
just finished your english paper.
hope it went well.
alright,
i just want to thank you for all the msges and morning calls (:
thank you very much !
loves, QING.
OHYEAH, my new blog pw is, 7338
tag me ! long one ! <3

Sunday, September 24, 2006

???

recently rather bz wif studies . tues @ causeway saw lossni - e indian gal who was infront of dominique during kayaking . so i jus said hi lor . den funny . yiqing called mi thru her fren den we ended up msging . hahas . i found out from the MLG tt there'll be friendly matches against them ! netball, badminton, soccer, most imptantly track ! hahas . i wana go n watch every match !!!!!!! hahas .

hmm . duno wat happen la . mi now taking a step back already . as in i'm avoiding afiq somehow ... cos i'm reali sad . stupid guy . he tinks i duno he's avoiding mi too ?! he is ! tis is hard to xplain . n i dun feel like talking to him le . hais . so insensitive . =( wana noe how he avoid mi ? ask him ! n during murderer, i'm always e 1st 1 to be killed by him ! so unfair . i rather we always "quarrel" n not avoid each other .. hais . wth . but watever . i'll try my best to not talk to him unless he talks to mi . stupid sia .

being at home is so bored .... actually it's hard to study at home . so easy to slack sia . hmm mus work hard ! i wana get promoted pls ....... but now it seems like some impossible task to mi . eeeeeeeek !!! sian !

OBS video ! yea we got it le ! hahas . fun . gona burn 4 every1 ... hehe . reali hope exams end super quickly den all e OBS ppl can go out n have fun like crap !!!!!!!

yea .. looking 4ward to 7th oct- end of exams !! n of course 10 0ct- Friendly against SSS!

Monday, September 18, 2006

stArdi !!!

ya amanda . saw ur comments hahas . c u in school too . hahas . todae is rather sian . my CT din come sch . YEA !!!! opps i'm so mean . hahas . hmm todae afiq din come school . mus be still v sick . my god la . almost everyone is getting sick ! hmm .

i feel that life is so boring w/o OBS . i bet obs-ppl will agree . cos every morning we wake up n do the same thing over n over again ...... over n over again .. wake up at 5 .. leave hse at 0555 to take bus .. reach boon lay at 0615 . reach woodlands at 0645 . den walk to sch ...... 0700 . sit n wait 4 obs ppl to come den assembly . den class class n class .... end of lessons .... there goes 1 dae ....... c .. how boring life is .

i tink i'm reali lagging a whole lot hell more den other ppl . seriously this is the 1st time i'm so so so afraid of exams . rmb last time wen u dun study n play all the while, u still an pass wif flying colours . but now ...... no way . i guess i mus be prepared to be retained . argh . it's reali bad . but i'll try my best . c how things go . i cant imagine wat if i reali retain sia . but 1 thing 4 sure i'll cry like some shit cos i feel so guilty 4 letting my mum down ...

damn damn damn put off by the results of the match ! 1-0 . wth . how can manu lose man ..... shucks la . e worse thing is tt chelsea actually won liverpool ! wth la . hais super sian de .. but watever . manu will win this season n so on ..... chelsea eeeeeeeeeek ..... hahas . hmmm

i stil dun get HL milk's reply . hais . mayb he's reali bz ?? chill jasmine chill . hahas . was chatting wif elbert on msn yst . talked abt HL milk . i told him wat happened n ya .. he sae who noes ... u noe . but i said i beta dun carry too much hope . he was like 'look who's being sensitive now' . well, i said somethin tt reali make sense ! i said i'm a pessimistic person . it's gd cos if u r pessimistic, u dun carry too much hope and u wun be tt disappointed in the end . a chi thingie goes something like that 期望越高,失望越大 . hahas .i agree ..

hmmm .. recently got to listen to his song 退后 by jay chou . reali nice . hahas . hmmm . after school going to study at library wif hakim . mayb jason, elbert, khai, marsha n faris too . amanda ? kk i ask later . hahas . hmm . finally got my insurance fee back . so irritating la . 2 months .. so long . can buy new shoes le . finally . i reali hate the shoes i'm wearing now . argh . mayb get contacts too ?? cos i tink my eyesight no longer perfect. nowadays cant c wt's on the screen during lecture . i dont wan specs cos i look so farni in it . hahas . but i dun feel like buying all those . no contacts no specs is e best . comfortable n convenient . hahas .

okie ... end of chinese lesson le . hahas . end here le . =)

Sunday, September 17, 2006

still in OBS mood

OBS n OBS ! i'm stil in OBS mood . hmmm . i'm glad tt we're stil tgt after the course. it's reali nice to c tt ! every morning, mi, hakim, khai, fiq, jason, winston, actually whoever who comes early la . we'll mit at tt ptcular table and chat. sometimes we have lunch tgt and ends up playing murderer ! fun bunch of ppl . i feel happy wenever i'm wif them . hahas .

i duno y mi n afiq kip attacking each other. hahas but he's cute la . he v funny 1 . v nice also . ask him give mi water he aso give. he sick sia .... nose confirm v pain . hahas . funny . i tink he damn sensitive also. i act act angry only den he go home ored den msg mi . ask if i'm angry n sae he'll not sae mi again . so funny sia .. i'm not angry @ all la . chill . hahas

on thurs fiq, khai n mi study at sch library . damn cold .. we study awhile only n den we plus faris n marsha went to kiddy palace to buy elizabeth's belated bdae prezzie . hahas . they r damn funny . khai sae he feel tt a woman is e prettiest wen she's pregnant . hahas . 4 a horny guy to sae tt, i was rather shocked ! but he's rite . hmm . din realise he's such a family person . he said if he was a billionaire, he would quit sch now, quickly settle down n get married n have kids ! he sure love kids man . khai, u changed my impression of u being a horny guy ! hahas . good game . hahs .

it's been almost a wk since i emailed HL milk .... lol . n he hasn't reply @ all . siansation ..... well, choon did reply . hahs. hmmmm ... it's damn sian la . only marsha noes wat exactly happen n well, i tink nothing gd will come out of it since he hasn't replied at all .. well ....... hais nvm .

okok . promos promos ! i havent study . shit i'm so screwed ! errrr .... i promise to study starting todae !!! in school, everything seems so stressful .. hais . it makes mi dread going to school . but well, obs ppl is my motivation to go school . hahs

as 4 my family, i dun feel like going home after sch .. everytime i reach home .. my older younger bro wil always quarrel wif mi n i'm reali tired of tt. sometimes i feel so not loved that i reali dun feel like going back .. sometimes i have proj work till reali late or i reali have some relevant stuff tt i hav to stay in school ... u noe due to the travelling time n stuff .. i reach home usually around 10 . i'm dead tired . wen u're so tired n ur mum actually doesnt believe u at all . u jus feel so ........ argh ! sian .

a few of em, shelly, hakim, khai,evelyn studying at khatib mac now . cant join them cos down wif flu ... n proj work to do ! mayb e flu bug came from afiq . hahas . hmmm lol
have to stop playing n start studying already !! have to do proj work le . hais . next time after promos i'll write much much more . hahas

now i shall study !! n wait 4 HL milk reply . lol . promos mood already ... go jasmine go .. hahas

Monday, September 11, 2006

wRoNg.wRoNg ..

err . opps . tt guy's name is actually Dominique . que but not c . hmmm . cool . hahas . 1st dae of school sians is all tt i can sae . din do all my homework . hahas . =p i found dom. on friendster wanted to add but highly secured so jus sent him a msg . i jus it's been ages since he logged on to friendster . hahas . well ... his school is jus beside mine ! hahas . well, he's younger den mi . like my brother . hahas . funny ppl .

Sunday, September 10, 2006

GaNdHi - E mUsHiEst wAtCh EvEr !

my first entry . let's make it a nice 1 .. :)

OBS camp - most wonderful camp ever . 4th to 8th sep 2006

Gandhi - mushiest watch ever .

1st dae ...

we saw PK, HL and Choon @ punggol jetty .. eh ... was Choon there ? i 4got . opps .. hahas well, i tink HL is rather hot . hahas . beside us was Singapore Sports School (sss) cool . but damn childish bunch of ppl . no offence . hahas .i saw tis sss guy . quite cute . so he's my eye candy la . but things tt happened after tt was funny . We reach OBS camp 1 jetty and did some admin stuff , broke up into 2 watches - Gandhi & Rajaratnam . i was in gandhi watch . in my watch there was jason, dawei, YC, hakim, evelyn, arshad, shelly, winston, faris , dinie, amanda, marsha, patrick kok and me . in rajar watch there was merelda, elizabeth, sofia, elbert, afiq, rochester, yixiang,miaode, zhiheng, chiat siang(hope i din spell wrongly), dwyane, zhonghao, angyun, weixiang, spencer and khairul. hahs . we learnt kia-ora which we r supposed to rub against each other on e nose hahs . damn funny .. k .. we did rock-climbing tt dae . fun . i've nv dared to climb cos i am afraid - ya . of somethin . but eventually did . new experience but gave up halfway due to old injury . we went to kilimanjaro everyday -tt's our learning rm hahas . did some profiling stuff . HL made fun - meant i was gullible . i'm not ok .... hahas .oh ya . we waited outside Medical Centre (MC) for quite some time while we played Truth or Dare . it was damn funny . jason was supposed to do some cheerleading and point his finger up in a sissy way n shout Gandhi . he did & it was reali funny . hahas . i chose truth n they asked who i tink is e hottest among the 30 of us . den i said Khairul . nothin wrong rite ? followed on were some pole-dancing . hahas cool .. finally e nite came . e dorms r damn comforty . haahs . i couldnt slp so i joined hakim, faris, dinie, arshad n talked den eventually went to slp . hahas . MOS attack . damn it !!! some got it on their eyes , ears , lips even . hahas . damn funny ..

2nd dae ...

0555 PT argh .. hahs . did 5 BX and jumping jacks . oh my .. sss got coordination prob . damn funny . hahas e PT was rather long though . den we did kayaking . cool . my buddy was jason n ya it was damn funny again . we capsized 2 times - 1 in e sea , e other in e mangrove which was disgusting . hahas . but it was fun la .jason scared mi wif a lizard which was jus a piece of leaf . again, he said i m gullible . hmm . maybe HL is rite . hahas .den there was high elements- inverted pyramid . i din try . i was too scared . stupid mi . argh . so i jus did belaying . hahs . i 4got wen we had e fire drill well ... sss was on our rite and i accidentally told hakim too loudly which was my eye candy .. den tis indian sss gal heard n she told every1 . OH MY GOD . i was damn embarrassed . argh .. from den on sss ppl gave mi weird looks .. den @ nite was e fun part . Khairul, afiq joined us too . hahas illegal immigrant . hahas . but it was fun and most imptly cosy .. plus amanda etc .. khai slpt on my rite n fiq on my left . hakim was like ... so many ghost story sia .. hahas . but it seems funny due to his funi face . roch was there too (rite ?) . hahs .. fiq scared us wif e pontianak tingie .. n i screamed e loudest . opps . i din mean it . hahas . well ... Dinie snored reali loudly .. we had lame jokes too ! hahas . yea cool .hahas . e gd ting wen we all slpt tgt is tt we have lower chance of being attacked by MOS . n i din get tt ! yea . hahas

3rd dae ...

0555 PT again but by ourselves . hahas . no coordination prob ! ahhh but running . hahas . i realised how long i din run le .. 5 days be4 OBS was e last time i ran . wow . tiring . den we had Indiana Arts fest . hahas we were supposed to act out some stuff . mime . hmm . there comes e funny part . some of them had nipple gripping, fiq had boobs ! damn damn damn funny ! hahas . den we had trekking . hahas .. my team there was dinie, faris, dawei, evelyn, marsha, amanda n mi .jungle experience is quite fun . ya i hate insects but i love e exp .. hahs . den we chose sea-ex leaders . ppl nominated . i was 1 of e nominee so ya we went to 1 side n i taught Choon our Innova ACES dae dance . he dance quite funny . hahas . finally ... i was chosen as 1 of e sea-ex leaders tgt wif elizabeth, dinie and ang yun . hahs . den @ nite we discussed abt e expedition n chose to take e challenge . tt is cross island den round island . we did presentation hahas . ok .... hmm . majority wanted tt . gd . hahs .nite falls again . it was much more comfortable . we laid matt on e floor hahas n tis time still, khai rite, fiq left . ghost stories . we ended tings wif lame jokes so tt we wun be too afraid to slp . hahs. no MOS attack again . cosy ... :)

4th dae ...

sea ex dae ... wow .we did morning circle hahs . cat n mouse . etc cool n fun . i felt tt we r all closely bonded .. i reali love it . things were in a rush ... there begins our sea ex .. we set off around 8 .. thru e journey i could feel tt jason was rather pissed at mi cos i have no strength arghhhh .. so i was rather sad . den HL sae smile dun face black black .. hahas den i rmbed 1 of our objectives - 29 smiles . ok ... cheer up n we continued . in e mangrove we saw sss ppl opps..... n bang i knocked into my eye candy's kayak . hahas embarrassing leh ... e indian gal was infront of her . sss was damn chaotic . out of a sudden they started screaming and shouting . wow havoc ! finally we got thru them .. shew .. -.-". there was once we nida get thru a portage n get our kayaks over . hahs . HL was holding an eaten apple on his hand den i was getting into e kayak . i slipped and nearly wanted to pull his hands . reflex action . shew i din .. if i did . i gess it .could be quite funny .. mayb his apple'll fly away or wat . hahas . 1 of the main highlights was pulau sekudu which we called it the temptation island . i felt tt it was beautiful !! we got there 20mins be4 time . good game ppl !! .it was interesting . i drew a heart on the sand wif my name in the center . HL said i was so girly ... it's ok wat .. i'm a gal .. hahas . he offered to take pic 4 mi .. so nice .. hahas . i took pic wif my hrt . hahs . den i taught HL e ACES dance as well . cool both HL n Choon look cute while dancing . hahas ! den we went to tis part of e island tt seems tt we were standing on water . we took a jump shot there . we all noe tt jump shots r hardly nice especially wen u take only 1 shot . wow .... e shot is damn nice ! hahas . finally we set off again . continuing .. .. current was big .. my kayak was like drifting left all e while . we duno y ..... well .. we finally saw jetty 1 . it was emotional . we rushed and kayak quick as we neared e destination . wen we reached, i screamed .. ya like a madwoman .. hahas . it was an achievement 4 all of us . we made history ! we r e 2nd batch so far tt undetook tis route . hahas . gd game every1 . :) we had reflections . den we happened to shoot smiley face altgt . hahas . only OBS ppl noe who is he . hahas . oh ya .. e hrt tt i drew . some1 drew a broken line there . who izit i do not noe but HL noes . he doesnt wana tell mi ... arghhhh .. well, during e discussion, HL left 4 his medical checkup .. hmm e nite seems diff w/o him .. @ nite we went to kilimanjaro and we did abstract art . hahas . we den smeared paint on each other's face . damn nice . den i took away 2 plates n borrowed markers frm Choon . told him it was some sch stuff tt i wana do . if he reali believed, he's so dumb .. hahas . no la jk .. he's nice .. :) we designed e plate alittle n signed off . tt's our gift 4 em . during dinner patrick kok came n asked mi my full name . i felt rather weird though .. he later den revealed tt sss ppl asked mi my name . oh my god . i so wanted to kill him .. hahas . all e sss ppl called my name n i reali din noe how to react ! they kept calling mi so i'll jus have to smile .. hahas . mi n amanda went into guys toilet to bathe cos not enuff space in gals toilet . hahs . there's guys who came in n i asked who izit but he din wana ans .. haha . nvm .. i came out 1st n waited 4 amanda @ e basin. Elbert came in n his face turned green .. he was damn shocked .. he shouted ' there's a ghost in e guys toilet !!!!' i'm not sure he shouted ghost or gals . but it was reali hilarious .. hahas . farni ppl . tis became a joke... hahas . it was our last nite there .. almost every1 came our to our dorm .. except 1 or 2 . it was damn cosy .. hahas . we played jason's murderer . amanda n shelly went to slp 1st .den merelda . my nose was like blocked thruout .damn uneasy . khai n fiq so nice . went over to their dorms to get tissues 4 me .. khai gave mi altgt 7 packs of tissues . how nice .. :) hahas . den afiq slpt den mi .... not on purpose . hahas . no MOS again ! yeah ..

5th dae ...

0615 PT again but nice 1 . every1 was lazing on their beds and dun wana wake up . haha . HL is not back yet .. we played games . e war games so funny . i was in e cowboy team .. bang bang bang ! hahas . we also learnt left*3 rite*3 bac*3 front*3 scissors paper stone !! haahs . it was a reali nice morning . hahas . after breakfast was jetty jump !mi n amandawent to guys toilet outside MC there cos there was a guy in e gals toilet doing cleaning . n it was urgent so .. ya . hahs . den went to jetty . errrr .. but i din do jetty jump . regret . but .. well i'm sick too . i wanted to try but ya . there was a devil talking to me inside ... we wanted to wait 4 HL @ e jetty but Choon said we had to go pack our stuff . we cleared our dorms , e store ya .. we went to kilimanjaro and looked at our painting . HL is back le . happy . hahas . each of us cut out a piece of the art and made a frame on wrote down inspirations . hahas .we put it outside MC n went 4 lunch . i walked past sss n they called out LAM LAM ! i was like ... shit ! ran away quick . i jus find him cute tt's all . n they made it seem like such a big thing .. lol . went to sovernoir shop and bought same shirts . saw a sss gal who kept calling mi again ........... lol ..fine we went back to kilimanjaro soon n did our own watch reflections . they helped us laminate our picture frames . oh my god la .. they're such nice ppl ! dawei came to mi n said he talked to tis sss gal n told mi tt my eye candy name is dominic . in track .. hmmm well . lol ! funny . but he's cute la i prefer older guys . hahas we continued we e reflections . 1 by 1 .. everyone said super touching things. amanda started crying wen i saw tt i broke down too . evelyn too . marsha aso rite ? hmm .. we r e mushiest watch ever . every1 said i love u . Choon said we r v loving . hahas . we had a crying session . PK's eyes were red too . i guess we said reali mushy stuff . we all hugged each other wow . cool . including Choon said he love all of us ! den innova gathered 4 a slide show . their gift 4 us .. :) it was funny . nice . cool . emotional . greatest gift i ever had . i reali appreciate it . good things always come to an end .. we r leaving .. they sent us to punggol jetty . in e ferry HL gave out e photos . they r reali nice . i take em out every now n then . they r jus beside mi now .. hahas . we got HL n Choon's email . hahs . eric wong talked to us, brought us bac to reality - sch .. arghhhhhh .. hahas . well .. hahs . we reached punggol jetty . arghh i dread tis kinda feeling . sad .. we said bye to HL n Choon den HL was like bye , 再见.. ya lydat . i so wanted to hug them but ya .. hahas .. u noe .. hmm .. soon every1 got off e ferry n they r leaving den some1 said ' arts fest !' oh we rmbed they din tel us e results den they gave us e naninanipoopoo face . so bad . hahas. we bade good bye n took bus 82 to hougang mall . e bus was packed wif us tt it seemed like a sch bus . hahas . went to hougang mall mac to eat . den went home .

it was a reali nice experience . we said tt if we sae each other in sch on mon we have to do kia ora hahas ! as some1 said during e high element tt he wants a revolution in Innova ! cool . hahas .

to all gandhi n rajar watch ppl , including HL & Choon, here it is .


i love u !!!!!!!!

HL n Choon , hope our paths cross again .. we miss u ! :)