hey !!!! lol . lots of things to blog abt actually but some are not convenient to say here. i duno if i should look out for guys of my age anymore. i think it's better for mi to look for older guys. more matured and financially stable ones. dun look for too hot ones !! they only give us a feeling of insecurity. haha . LOL

anyway. work has been rather normal these few days. and i'm v tired . haha . cos of gatherings and outings . yst met vinleon (mr ang) and mich ! haha . lots to catch up!! was like talking alot and all... went to billy bombers to have our dinner . and my goodness i spent almost 200bucks yst !!!! hai !

monday i'm gg to meet them again. but hopefully this will be a bigger scale one. (: then on tues, i'm gg to play bball with my officers and colleagues (: . cool. i cant wait to play!!! haha

anyway, valentine's is gg to be a boring day. hai. hopefully something will happen? hmm....

shall update next time . bb !

-give me a sign-

hey. THIS IS MY 100TH POST!!!! lol.

anyway, i duno what to blog abt actually. but well, jus for info, my bro did v badly for his o's la. LOL. hai. L1R4 27. hope that he can get into at least poly?? talking abt tt, i heard tt this batch didnt do reali well la. hmm...

results results results. i'm freaking scared of my a's now. what if i do v badly and cant get into uni? i dun think i can afford to retake now. ): talking abt studies is like reali stressful.

-i'm SCARED-

today is black and white day . everyone of us dressed in black-and-white or black-or-white . what for ? for the fun of it . we're also gg to take pics to remember this special day . LOL ! sad thing is digital lover cant report for work today . cos his grandmother passed away . hai . sad... hope tt he will get over it soon.. now i'm thinking of visiting the funeral wake . duno leh . see how first . and moreover, no one is accompaning mi there . hmm ....

yst met him to pass him the money for the food . quite sad though . jus passed him the money and he passed mi the stuff and there he goes . ): reali sad ... maybe one day he will look for mi again ...

i'm a lone ranger today ! i chose my lunch at 2pm . my goodness . haha . cos if i eat late, den when i get back to work late, i'll only need to work for another 1 hour plus to 2 hours !! haha . lol . but it's all psychological la . funny . anyway i'm feeling much better today . maybe time reali will heal my wound . but i noe for sure, i'll NEVER forget him in anyway . hmm

tml gg to shop with colleagues at bugis . i'm gg to window shop for clothes and get a new pair of heels !! tada . but the plans mite be cancelled cos we mite be visiting the wake tgt tml . hmm .....

tt's it for now i guess ...


-time mite heal everything-

yst was my first full day of singlehood . morning was dreadful . i was like about to die there . ): kept tearing and all ..... but as hours and minutes passed, i felt much better . all thanks to my colleagues . nice and caring colleagues .

i know it's not easy to let go . and i feel bad letting go . i was urging him not to give up so easily but i myself actually gave up before he did .

went to buy clothes with diyong and ziyong and also hidayah who wanted to buy a keyboard for her beloved . so sweet of her . they are really nice ppl and i appreciate their company . went to catch a movie with zy and dy at jp . ONE MISSED CALL . sucks actually . shocking but not scary . the ending is the worst . and it is super similar to this japanese movie i watched few years back . but still, it's their those guys tt made mi let down my hair and cheer up . thanks alot guys !!!

had a chat w him last night . it was depressing and heartbreaking . i am not as strong as some who can afford to make a clean break . i noe if i still meetup with him after the breakup, it'll no longer be the same and we mite feel awkward . i know tt this guy, i will never forget . i hope he reali wun forget me . if only he could say it's the right time and tt he loves mi, i wun have to make this decision .

i will still open the option to him - "you can still look for mi one day, when you feel tt it's the right time" .

-stay happy, my love-

time flies . 5 months have passed . and i'm all alone once again . no one can understand how i feel right now. not even YOU .

all those sweets moments jus flashed back and i noe . i have no choice but to let go . i noe there will be nothing out of this r/s . tt's y . i initiated it . cos i noe . u'll not do it . cos u feel bad towards mi .

i'm totally heartbroken . but . for our sake, it's better this way . goodbye, my love . and i reali do love you .

-it's all over-

BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED .

rarrrrrrr ........ damn damn damn . bored bored bored . LOL . lots of gathering now and then . hmm . lots of ppl getting their last day . first was sophia and janaki . tt one was not much of a strong impression cos at tt time i jus joined the board . well, next was jameson and george and nas . george and nas were perm staff at our board's main branch . both posted to jurong east . i dun reali talk to them, usually only regarding work . jameson, my good friend, i should say . next, zi yong is having his last day on 24th jan . another person gg . so fast . gg to have dinner or lunch with him some day . hahs .

mi and janica are thinking of extending our contract though . thinking of work, a level's suddenly came to my mind . i wonder how i did for a's . i'm afraid i cant get into uni . i wana go to NTU ! lol . haha . biological sciences . hmm . hopefully i do well enough . i heard tt the results will be out in end of feb . jus when i'm ending my contract with the board . rar rar .

about the interjc pageant . lol . i wonder who win . haha .

-bored-

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!! hahaha . i'm at my workplace once again . haha . (:

anyway, i met my long-lost primary school fren a few days ago . haha . we were both gg to work la . haha , he did not change much though . still the same but at least he talks more than before i think . hahaha . (: a nice guy . talk alot . and alot in common . hahaha . funny .

well, darling seems to be neglecting me again . ): why why why ? i dont want history to repeat itself again . hais ! i'm so sian now . it's been a week since i saw him . and quite a few days since we talked on the phone . i miss him ..

work is getting back to normal again . tt's why i have the time to even blog now ! hahaha (: . well, hope those customers will never come again ! SHOO SHOO !!! urgh . haha . i'm getting bored of this job . thanks to all those nasty customers ! urgh . anyway i'm thinking of extending my stay in CPF . hmm . might wana change my agency . higher pay maybe . hahaha . LOL .

attended a wedding dinner tt day . had 3 glasses of red wine and i'm still sober while my cousin is feeling a lil tipsy after 2 glasses . haha . feeling super sleepy after the red wine . haha . but i had a good meal there . nice ! meritus mandarin . haha . i wana go there again !

wana go sketches with him . but no news at the moment . blah . i'm feeling unwell today . duno why . jus feeling DAMN heaty . when i shut my eyes, i can feel the heat . wow . damn . tt's all for now i guess .....

-feeling super unwell!-

it's a long long time since i blogged . work is reali reali busy !!! due to the gst offset closing date . SUPER LONG QUEUE !!!!!!!! damn it . cos some elderly are rather deaf, we have to practically shout from 8 to 5 . wow . madness . and lunch is reduced to half an hour . it was crazy !!!! and some nasty customers made our day worse . lol

luckily things are getting back to normal now (: . but we're all damn shag now . haha . yst was our gathering w jameson cos it was his last day on monday so we wanted to have a meal w him before he goes back to school . but it din turn out well . cos his gf was there . i think there mite be some misunderstanding . i duno why the gf die die also wana come . plus she come and pull a long face liao . w/o saying hi to anyone of us . LOL . whatever . the main thing is tt my mood is spoilt yst . i cant tell him why i'm so pissed off since he can see tt i'm in a bad mood yst . i stil cant tell cos ltr things will be difficult for him .

was buying shades and she was staring at mi . like what the hell la !!! urgh . damn damn damn . next time if there's any form of gathering, i must specify tt it's strictly for CPF members !!! LOL .

i shouldn't feel so pissed anymore . lac lac lac . i hope darling calls mi soon . i miss him so much !!!

-nv put gf infront of frens !-