yst had lunch at 3 . den i eat w zhenying then we talk n talk n talk till 6 . c . my work is v v slack . she is damn sad man . she told mi about the guy she likes . oh gosh la . she cried the day before becos of the guy ! i think my case is much much more better compared to hers . just hope that she'll be happy again . she is my best friend since primary school .
oh ya . yst went for trg before gg for work . onli 3 . kl, cindy n mi . we did some shooting den JJC guys n our guys came . oh there will be match gg on . so we sat down n watched . hahas . jus then i saw a familiar face - leonard . he is my primary school fren . hahas . oh he's is JJC . i din noe tt . hahs . but he cant play . he did refereeing instead . we both have the same coach hahas . din sae hi or anything cos we're not sure if we get the right person . after leaving the school i msged him n asked if it was him . hahas . yes it was . so we started chatting ... it has been quite long since i seen him . 1yr plus is it ?
how i wish time can stop during primary school. not the childish times but the times i spent with zhenying they all . not much troubles or anything .
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Monday, December 11, 2006
on 7th dec we had bball outing at sentosa .yes, it's sentosa for mi again . but only kahlai,cindy, shiehfang,shirmaine n mi turned up . well, it was still v fun . hahas .i made garlic bread as our snack . hahas .
we played monkey in the sea first . hahas . v funny . we built sandcastle using our feets and hands . hahas . i got everything ready - beachmat, tanning oil etc etc . but .... IT WAS RAINING !!!!! lol . sian . we swam abit . hahas . sf, kl n cindy swam alot . hahas . we threw the ball further n further away n one by one catch it . den we realised there was this lifeguard who was staring at us the whole time . hahas . ok ..... in the end he said ' u r not supposed to play ball in the water itself. only at the shore-line.' ohh . no wonder ... hahas . LOL
we were all tired after tt hahas . den we went to vivo to ben n jerry . hahas . den we walked for awhile n went to The Chicken Rice Shop . hahas . lol . quite nice ! pai tee is nice . mi n sf ordered pepsi . n u noe wat . for a small cup, it costs 2bucks . HA HA HA . lol . after tt we went to candy empire . i jus feel so happy whenever i'm there . hahas . chocolates are my best frens !!
ya . den we went home . hahas . not much to describe but it was reali enjoyable . only the 5 of us understand . hahas .
den today tricked kl into believing we were miting our frens . hahas . instead the rest of us went to bugis to get hers and xy's hotpants . hahas den i went to mit nic(nicholas) for lunch . hahas ........................... den i went home frm there . it was quite stupid cos i duno how to go home frm there . he point to tt hotel there n ask mi to walk to around there den i can find the mrt station . lol but in the end i asked this lady on the streets . hahas . finally . i found the station . lol
hahas .
i'm going to start working tml already . hahas . duno how la . damn sian . shld go n slp now . gd nite ppl .
we played monkey in the sea first . hahas . v funny . we built sandcastle using our feets and hands . hahas . i got everything ready - beachmat, tanning oil etc etc . but .... IT WAS RAINING !!!!! lol . sian . we swam abit . hahas . sf, kl n cindy swam alot . hahas . we threw the ball further n further away n one by one catch it . den we realised there was this lifeguard who was staring at us the whole time . hahas . ok ..... in the end he said ' u r not supposed to play ball in the water itself. only at the shore-line.' ohh . no wonder ... hahas . LOL
we were all tired after tt hahas . den we went to vivo to ben n jerry . hahas . den we walked for awhile n went to The Chicken Rice Shop . hahas . lol . quite nice ! pai tee is nice . mi n sf ordered pepsi . n u noe wat . for a small cup, it costs 2bucks . HA HA HA . lol . after tt we went to candy empire . i jus feel so happy whenever i'm there . hahas . chocolates are my best frens !!
ya . den we went home . hahas . not much to describe but it was reali enjoyable . only the 5 of us understand . hahas .
den today tricked kl into believing we were miting our frens . hahas . instead the rest of us went to bugis to get hers and xy's hotpants . hahas den i went to mit nic(nicholas) for lunch . hahas ........................... den i went home frm there . it was quite stupid cos i duno how to go home frm there . he point to tt hotel there n ask mi to walk to around there den i can find the mrt station . lol but in the end i asked this lady on the streets . hahas . finally . i found the station . lol
hahas .
i'm going to start working tml already . hahas . duno how la . damn sian . shld go n slp now . gd nite ppl .
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
hmm i saw this at my friend's blog . very touching indeed .
read it . =)
("V")
When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer. Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.
Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.
("V")
anyway, i haven really started studying . i guess i shld reali start soon . yea . tml i'm going out with ying after my bball trg to bugis . i can look for zhenying too . hahas . i miss both YINGs alot la . my best frens . hahas . =))
read it . =)
("V")
When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer. Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger.
So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.
Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.
("V")
anyway, i haven really started studying . i guess i shld reali start soon . yea . tml i'm going out with ying after my bball trg to bugis . i can look for zhenying too . hahas . i miss both YINGs alot la . my best frens . hahas . =))
Saturday, December 02, 2006
firstly, happy birthday marvin ! =)) if i'm not wrong . and i don't think i'm wrong . hahas . must slim down ya ?? and take care . sorry amanda didn't wish u yesterday . but anyway, happy belated birthday amanda ! =)
i don't know what to blog . argh. but i will be looking forward to the match later . tomorrow morning 1.10 am . middlesbrough versus manchester united . hahas . manchester united will win . BIG ... hahas . i will watch it definitely . no doubts .
anyway, although i am a girl . i think that soccer reports and stuff should be done by guys n not girls . recently jamie yeo joined in football extra . and seriously i just feel weird listening to a girl/woman discuss about soccer in national TV . is it just me or what ? but anyway, just a comment . hahas maybe one day there will be no guys reporting about soccer ? hahas .
seriously i don't know what to blog about now . shall stop here then . hahas . take care people .
i don't know what to blog . argh. but i will be looking forward to the match later . tomorrow morning 1.10 am . middlesbrough versus manchester united . hahas . manchester united will win . BIG ... hahas . i will watch it definitely . no doubts .
anyway, although i am a girl . i think that soccer reports and stuff should be done by guys n not girls . recently jamie yeo joined in football extra . and seriously i just feel weird listening to a girl/woman discuss about soccer in national TV . is it just me or what ? but anyway, just a comment . hahas maybe one day there will be no guys reporting about soccer ? hahas .
seriously i don't know what to blog about now . shall stop here then . hahas . take care people .
Friday, December 01, 2006
hahas . it's 1 december already . time really flies . 1 more month and school reopens . argh . i'm afraid of my new class . but i'm glad that there are 8 of my 0611g pals together with me - mich, ah joy, kenny, vivi, fang, shiyu, ling n via . let's study hard together ok ? =))
anyway . kahlai they all coming back tomorrow ! yeah . i miss them alot . hahas . wonder what they do there at vietnam . i guess they will be sad to leave there because they spent time with those children over there . after they come back then monday will have training . today i cant go training again cos i'm still sick . now even xinyu is also sick . oh my god la . she better take care ! nowadays the westher really pisses me off . it is always so sunny in the morning and near late afternoon, it will rain heavily . argh . it is so easy to get sick like that .
oh my god . last week i met ms tan to let her see my math file . actually i did it just for the sake of letting her see it . i even came up with a fake plan of what i'm going to do during this holidays to catch up with the work that i missed out during J1 . she believed ! and what worst is that she asked me to go back on 27th to take a full 3-hour math paper . OH MY GOD . and she wants me to aim like B ?? oh please . i have never passed math in J1 . oh shit . and she even ask me to tell fang n vivi about this so that they can take the paper together with me . hais . sian .
i miss my primary school buddies - zhenying, chaohui, siewkhim and huiling. hahas zhenying is my bestest buddies of all . we were supposed to live together when we were primary 5 but for some reasons that we both don't know, she ended up not living with me . chaohui is very cute and funny . hahas . she is also very cheerful and she makes everyone of us smile . siewkhim is more quiet and petite . nice character too . but she transferred school after primary 4 . the good thing is that we still keep in contact . huiling . i have not contacted her for quite long but i know she is still very auntie . hahas . i reali miss all of them and hope that we can go out together soon . =))
alright . shall stop here . i better do my assignments now . 20 assignments in the MLG !!! madness ! hahas .
anyway . kahlai they all coming back tomorrow ! yeah . i miss them alot . hahas . wonder what they do there at vietnam . i guess they will be sad to leave there because they spent time with those children over there . after they come back then monday will have training . today i cant go training again cos i'm still sick . now even xinyu is also sick . oh my god la . she better take care ! nowadays the westher really pisses me off . it is always so sunny in the morning and near late afternoon, it will rain heavily . argh . it is so easy to get sick like that .
oh my god . last week i met ms tan to let her see my math file . actually i did it just for the sake of letting her see it . i even came up with a fake plan of what i'm going to do during this holidays to catch up with the work that i missed out during J1 . she believed ! and what worst is that she asked me to go back on 27th to take a full 3-hour math paper . OH MY GOD . and she wants me to aim like B ?? oh please . i have never passed math in J1 . oh shit . and she even ask me to tell fang n vivi about this so that they can take the paper together with me . hais . sian .
i miss my primary school buddies - zhenying, chaohui, siewkhim and huiling. hahas zhenying is my bestest buddies of all . we were supposed to live together when we were primary 5 but for some reasons that we both don't know, she ended up not living with me . chaohui is very cute and funny . hahas . she is also very cheerful and she makes everyone of us smile . siewkhim is more quiet and petite . nice character too . but she transferred school after primary 4 . the good thing is that we still keep in contact . huiling . i have not contacted her for quite long but i know she is still very auntie . hahas . i reali miss all of them and hope that we can go out together soon . =))
alright . shall stop here . i better do my assignments now . 20 assignments in the MLG !!! madness ! hahas .
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