duno what the hell is wrong with the damn tagboard but i'm going to change it when i have the time. hmm..

today is a busy day at work. i'm freaking tired!!!!! i miss emo guy. haha. this week i have not met up with him yet. poor him, had night shift last night till this morning than he is freaking tired now. he must be SLEEPING SOUNDLY. too tired. haha.

watched soccer that day (carling cup finals spurs v chelsea) with emo guy, but mi at my house, he at his. den, spurs finally win a trophy!!! i'm suuuuuupppppeeeerrrr happy!!!! haha. maybe becos of him! but i noe spurs put up a good fight and chelsea sucks, totally. full stop.

he called mi around 2am and he was so elated!! haha. i can hear from his voice. i'm excited too. haha. excited abt the carling cup as well as abt him calling mi. haha. well, the way things are now is rather good. close, but no commitments (:

extending my contract to 10th april i guess. wondering who will be doing singpass when adiba and diyong is gone. but it's highly doubtful it's mi!! haha. hopefully it's not me la. (:

-i miss you! haha :p-

let mi update on last night. haha. LOL. before that i wana say that my ex actually called mi on thurs night asking mi out for some talks regarding this private institution thing. well, i will be tired after work, and i reali am. but the main point is that, i dun think i wud wana go with him. i mean the feeling will be different and awkward somehow. when we were tgt, i nv rejected any request from him when it comes to gg out. but ever since we broke up, i'm not at all keen to meet up with him. it just brings back some sad memories. he seemed pissed cos despite him urging mi to go for umpteen times, i decided not to go.

ok.. last night i went out with emo-guy cos he need not report to camp yst! he's gg for reservist anyway. i miss him at work la. well, we met at city hall and went to marina square. went to swensen's!! had my favourite pasta and walnut rocky road. DELICIOUS!!! haha. (: after that, we went drinking at this german bar at millenia walk. had a great time there as that was a good place to chill out. sat there and chatted, listened to the band sing, the crowd and stuff like tt, it's a nice place. den walked around window shopping den headed home! again, he sent mi home to my house downstairs. so nice of him (:

ltr i'm gg for this talk at suntec city. hmm. for this one hour talk. then gg shopping again!!!!!!!! haha. hopefully i dun spend ! goodness mi. haha.

-baby, where's the hug?-

his answers were all rather contradicting. i confronted him last night and asked what he meant when he said he liked mi as a fren and later he said he like mi. he thought that "isn't it the same?" i was like... hai. i reali duno la. he said he didnt want to lead mi on. but he is leading mi on!! and he says he knows that he is leading mi on. and so. WHY is he leading mi on?! CONTRADICTING...

he looks at mi as a fren as well as a possible partner. ok... as in the rationale behind why he said those things.. i duno. ): there's totally no need for him to say all those things and we can date as usual. but now that he has said all this, i duno if i can stil do it. he still wants it this way, like i want to. but i duno if it will stil be the same. i told him that i mite be fixing my last day back to 29feb and i wun get to see him again. i duno if i can still face him like the way i usually will do.

-contradicting-

freaking longggggg since i blogged right?? events took place one after another...

got to know xxx much better and have been msging each other since then. i should say i get the sign from him but i still have to be cautious about it. i actually went out with xxx on valentine's day. went to PS for a movie then to the glass house fish & co for the super late dinner. we were the last to leave the restaurant. very nice of him to send mi home in a cab and even acc mi to the lift. he paid for everything that day, and i feel bad.. i wana treat him back to something- food or drinks.

i should admit that i feel very happy when i'm with him and even though he is 11 yrs elder than i, i feel that we can click well. (: but still, i'm not very sure of his feelings towards me.

last night while msging, he said something like he hope tt i dun get the wrong idea and tt he treat mi like a fren. i mean, i feel that i have a right to feel angry cos whatever that he was doing is like leading mi on. i jus said bye and din noe what to sms anymore. den he called but i din ans. he explained things to mi thru msging and called but still, i din ans. i jus said that he dun have to mind about how i feel. he then msged mi and said that he like mi. i mean, i'm reali confused as to how is he really feeling towards me. for a moment he say he like mi as a fren, and the next moment, he said he like mi.

now i'm thinking if i should bring back my last day to 29 feb. if i do, i wun get to see him again. maybe that's a way to end things. but i still wana stay like this with him cos i really feel happy with him. as what he have said, i think we should just continue exploring each other's personality and see if we could build up a r/s from there.

meeting my ex tml after work. he said he has got something to give me and i got to get back something from him too.. hmm. duno leh. hai.

-i'm freaking confused now-

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yst wanted to treat emo guy to coffee bean but in the end 'technology' ended up treating us. goodness. haha. so i'm gg to treat him again today! (:

he's so nice. bought a cough medicine for mi ((: . hees. still got a spoon for mi . so nice!! den yst after coffee bean, we went taka to help 'tech' get a gift for his gf. haha . then after tt 'tech' left for his reunion dinner, leaving only emo guy and i. so we went home! lol .......

finally, after many many years, i'm gg to m'sia again ! i reali miss them!! lol . i'm gg there tml, after getting my new biometric passport. (:

highlighted my hair, and i'm happy with it (: .

-he knows it all-

damn! i'm sick .. bleh. coughing and coughing. i'm gg to die. hai...

anyway, new updates!! my ex called mi a week ago, asking mi out to join him for shopping for his clothes and stuff, and even to m'sia. i know it's not possible, so i rejected. hai. i mean. it's too late. why dun he give me more attention while we were still tgt? really, too late. maybe the saying "one cherishes only when the person is gone" is true..

well, things on my side is gg well (: . played bball w the CSOs on tues till v late. haha. it was fun man. i wana play again!!! wed i went bugis w hid, thurs went for reunion dinner w colleagues and officers at lau pa sat. it was a very interesting outing with them.

went out with emo guy on sat. ((: very happy.. went to marina square "spageddies" then shop around. wahaha. he's got quite a good taste too. reali had fun gg out with him... den we quickly rush home for soccer. damn. i almost died watching the match. spurs led 1-0! and at the last last second, man utd finally scored to equalise ! at least they get back one point. shew... it was damn close. and emo guy was like "bloody shit! not again?!" ...

considering still....

-i'm bored-