hi ! hees . it was a lovely christmas ! although i did not spend alot of time w darling . i really love our christmas celebration . (:

anyway, this was how it went . firstly we went to jack's place to have our xmas set lunch haha . he had roasted turkey while i had my favourite ribeye's steak ! woots .. i love my medium rare steak . it was rather delicious . haha . and cheap . hmm . the set lunch cost 18.20 each . and then we had this mini chocolate log cake which was v nice ! it's chocolate, u know ! after which, we ordered a side dish, prawn with mango cocktail . it was blehh ... i din quite like it la . lol .

i had a pleasant surprise, a reali pleasant one (: . while eating, darling took out the xmas present for me . hees . i reali din expect it la ! lol . cos he kept insisting tt i shld not buy any present for him . hmm . so after dinner i went home while he went for his family gathering . finally i got to open the present . hahs . was a jigsaw puzzle with a personal message from him ! and also , there was a pixie necklace (: . i reali love it . (:

i am so so so happy !!!!!!!!

anyway i'm at work now . gtg and serve more demanding customers !!!!!!!! bye !

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today's sunday !! and i can finally slack at home . haha . tml is mon, christmas eve . my long awaited gathering w my m'sia frens is nearing !! but only one of them is coming over i guess . tml he'll be coming over w his dad . haha . i reali miss them !!! (:

anyway, tml i have to work full day ! hmm . nvm . for the sake of money ... LOL . tues i'm gg out w darling !!! hees but i reali duno where to go for a wonderful lunch . hmm any suggestions ?? lol .

yst i just went cs hair spa w chris . goodness me . it costs me 45bucks for wash, cut and blow !! at least i like my hair . haha . lol . i MITE be gg there to highlight my hair next time . hmm ... chris wanted to perm her hair but the hair stylist said her hair too short and thick. if permed, will not be nice . so she had her hair done - bob hair . plus highlight . highlight was 90bucks and treatment was 30 . so she spent 120bucks in total ! hmm . but i reali like the service there . v nice and spacious . the design is not bad . the hair-washing skills are good too . they dun use their nails to scratch ur scalp , they use their finger tips . and the massaging was reali good . no shoulder aches or anything after tt . haha . i would reali wana go there again . IF I HAVE THE MONEY . (:

i'm gg to do some house work now ! hahs . tml gg to work again . so fast ! lol . haha . ok gtg . bye ! ((:

-wonderful lunch!-

i'm back from work . tml is finally saturday ! i'm tired . today jus met w one sick customer . he tried to touch my hand !!!! eek ! disgusting sicko . den he kept asking me the same qns OVER and OVER again . so pissed off !!! i used the officer's method : "jus now we have already discussed abt this" .. but he jus cant stop . i said at least ten times of tt phrase . and F ! he started throwing mi qns like "so are you studying or working now?" like DUH ?! i'm working la ! is he talking to air ??!! "waiting for results isit ? what results?" . i was so damn freaked out by tt sicko . and i attended to Janica's customer and ignored him for a moment . after which, i quickly called for the next customer and TA DA ! he finally go away . SICK !!! everywhere i work i meet w this kinda sicko !!

today i still din get to meet him . it's almost 2 wks and i reali miss him . especially after yst . hopefully nothing goes wrong so we can meet tml as planned . shall think over the situation my officer proposed . it mite work . who knows !! ha . i don't know . for me, i follow my heart . and my heart tells mi i stil love him v much and is not at all ready to let him go .

jus hope tt he can accede to my request and tt both of us can reali cherish one another . one last chance, i should say . I REALI CHERISH THAT ONE LAST CHANCE . i hope he cherish tt too .

he is wonderful .

someone tt has left a great impact in my life .
someone so real .
someone so beautiful .
someone i wud never wana let go of.
someone whom i will always be there for.
someone whom i need.
someone that cheers me up.
someone who knows me.
someone so special.
someone whom i love most thruout my life .
someone whom i really love.

you are my everything .

-"i really like you alot"-

it's been one week since i blogged . hmm . well, lots of things happened i guess . hais . it's reali sad . ):

it's reali hard to let go . and i dun wan to let go . cos the feelings are real . my heart is bleeding . and i reali din noe what to do . cud it be my fault ? cud it be tt i'm the one who not understanding enough ? i reali don't know . all those things tt he said made mi cried so much . not becos it's hurting . it's becos it's deep from his heart . i was touched . at tt moment, i realised, i'm not at all ready to let go . ):

i hope we can give each other one more chance . i hope things will turn out fine (: and i'm sure it will .

i love him so much .

-dun wana let u go-

firstly, i'm here to say i'm reali sorry . mind or flesh ? which is worse ? i think flesh is worse but mind is bad enuff .

jus an eye candy . although he's reali hot and nice . and decent, i reali do still love my bf . so . no . i'll still stick w darling and not let him down again . he doesnt noe but i jus feel guilty tt he's psychologically betrayed by mi . jus hope tt he will treat mi better (: hah .

tml's last day of work for the week (: cheers . but darling cant acc mi for lunch ): . next time . next time . .... i reali miss you ! (:

- a man is not who he is.
a man is who he is not. -

hey ! i'm back (: after a few days . haha . i'm rather bz w work nowadays . lol . tiring i should say . meeting w all sorts of customers and all . URGH . but for the sake of my salary, i shall bear w it ! (: hahaha . sad thing is none of my frens are working w mi there . if not, it'll be better ! haha . but my colleagues are all v nice and some hot and cute ones . haha . reali nice knowing them . well, my contract ends on 29 feb . hope i get used to it and the CSO is happy w my performance so much tt i can extend my contract . hahah .

something dreadful happened today which i would most probably not talk abt it here . it's jus so bad u see . and confidential somehow . hais . but i'll jus have to say tt i'm reali sorry and i feel really bad abt it . ):

anyway, regarding me and him . sometimes i wonder this and wonder tt . and i tot . m i thinking too much ? well, gals are like tt i guess . had a quarrel tt day . sigh . things are rather ok now . had a talk w my colleague . and realised tt my relationship w him doesnt seem fruitful . m i really thinking too much - tt's the prob . how long have tt been ? ... since he told me that few words ...

whatever ! i shall jus let nature takes its course . if reali things cant work out, then i'll jus have to go tt way . i still hope tt things can turn out well . and i reali wish tt i'll be the one seeing him thru his NS days and be there for him always . let's see how things go . well, i still have my frens who can always lend mi their shoulders if things reali turn out bad ! haha ((:

alright . i gtg . (: till then !

- the future is bleak -

today is like . hmm . tired . i guess it has been so long since i woke up so early . i meant yst waking up early la . cos of work . so i'm feeling rather tired today . gosh . lots of things to do . and buy . and i'm goin to be so broke . urgh . yeah . gg out w darling on sunday . (: i guess i'll jus buy another set of office wear and a pair of heels . but i've only got $56 left for next week . damn it . why am i so poor ! *#@&%#*&! i'll see how it goes . hai . maybe have to borrow . i dun like tt . urgh .

today is MUGGING day ! haha . i'll try to memorise all those package stuff . lol ! dun reali understand why am i deployed to the main branch . hmm . but still, at least it's not inaccessible . jus tt i have to wake up earlier and walk a longer distance . and squeeeeeezzzzeee with all those ppl in the extremely crowded train . it's the peak hours . oh man . i hate crowded places . and during lunchtime i have to walk to the nearest hawker centre . and similarly, lunch hours, CROWDED ! lol . hahaha .

ok gonna go do some housework and finally MUG ! haha . (: bye !

- set . i'm sticking with you ! ((: -