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exams are really nearing. Really gotta move my lazy ass and start studying! I seriously hate microbiology! GEEZ. luckily i'm stronger at Current Genetics or else I will just die there. Jiayou! I need to study real hard man...

and so, we went for a "field" trip to AVA on fri. it was at lim chu kang there. so ulu! -.- the trip is quite boring cos we went there only to listen to what they say, but not having any kinds of hands-on or what. so ya... Though i seriously hate insects, I still prefer Sungei Buloh. haha. get into some muddy business! :D after which, enxian left from there and took a bus to cck. den I met JK at cwp for dinner. (:

Saturday I met him again. We went to watch Gran Torino. ok, quite draggy. kinda racist and i felt it was rather touching. lol. had dinner at xin yuan ji! the fish noodles soup is so nice! I love the soup there. haha. it was the first time i brought him there. (: went mac again to have his 2nd rond. haha. the kids there are so freaking noisy can. i was so pissed. but we had a kinda like HTHT. lol. *sounds so felicia can!* lol.

anyway, mummy went to KL since sat morning i think and hasn't been back yet. I miss her... hope she comes back soon...

AAB 103 finally ended!!!!! yeah! wahahahaha. I'm happy cos i have to say again i hate the module SOOOOOOO much. damn. anyway, had dance yst too. was rather tiring. but we finished the choreo for mad. haha. i like. kept watching the video over and over again. -.- hahaha. like what i always do la. not only for Mad. lol. ok, no sch today... gonna continue editing my ALS. hope it will be really DONE by today. (:

alright. gtg! (:

Sometimes I just wonder..
why am I doing this?
Is it right to do this?
What is it for?
Isn't it being hard on myself?
Will things turn out what I want it to be?

But what else can I do?
So what if things will eventually turn out fine?
But I might not have to courage to find out the answer at the end.

I suck at this.
And I don't think I will get out of ALL.
Perhaps.
One day I'll run away.
I'll not face the music.
I'll never ever be there anymore.
Perhaps.

Tonight is a gloomy night.
It sucks.
It was raining heavily.
And it just dampens my mood.
It's late and I'm off to bed.
Good night.

If you think it's you I'm referring to, then it must be you. But, if you feel that it's not you, please do not be so paranoid and end up thinking that I'm referring to you. I am pissed off, like always. I mean, I seriously do not like overly-sensitive people. It just gets me on my nerves. SIGH, enough IS enough. I'm sorry I'm straightforward but I JUST DON'T LIKE IT. whatever it is, do not step on my tail.

This week is the havoc week. Havoc as in, assignments-havoc, not outing-havoc. SIGH. shitssss. ALS complete draft to be completed by this fri for peer evaluation, Bio Lab report to be handed in this fri too, Bio test coming thurs.... SIGH how on earth am I going to finish this from now till the stipulated deadlines?! GEEZ. but I must be glad and contented. My AED is almost done, and the good thing is, I have no school tml (: shall CHIIIIOOOONNNNG!

anyway, yst we started dancing again, after resting for a week. seriously I felt healthier. LOL. I love the choreo. It's MAD by Ne-Yo. It's a song I really like! LOL. as some others have agreed, the steps are indeed nice, but definitely not "beginner" enough for our beginner class.But I enjoyed it. Hahs. It's really sad to see only 4 non-comm members turn up yst. ): I know the crew has changed, ALOT, since last time. Only when some people are no longer there, you'll truly realise how good they are, and they are definitely irreplacable.

I've decided to attend open classes during the holidays if there's packages like the one offered by studio Wu last holidays. I need to, and I want to improve myself. Anyway, I really feel like stepping down and I hope people understand why I want to do so. My job is not easy at all. Cos when I hate to be alone in the midst of nowhere, I have to trouble people. And I hate to trouble people. And I trouble people even more when I really hate insects. SIGH. It's a definitely good-bye to this job at the next handover. ):

I was pissed, shan't say why. I just feel that many things said or promised then, were not done. It was just EMPTY promises. SIGH ): Sometimes people say things for the sake of getting what they want at that point of time and when time passes, they infact cannot commit to what they said at the start. I think many are like that? It's just sad. I know, one day everything will change. I'm worried....

And so today I went school earlier to do work, together with enxian and christina. and then attended the lame SE talk. What was most funny was the weird kinda combination of the ppl going for dinner together at cafe at the quarts. Let me try to recall who was there, Krystal, Kelvin, Jerome, Juliana, Jasmine Lim, Michelle, Jun Wei, Chris, Christina, Jocelyn, Felicia, Enxian and I. lol. yup, I think everyone's in. K and K are my OG mates. Juliana is from Bio. Jas Lim, Jun Wei, Michelle are frens of Chris and gang. Jerome is K and K's fren. and of cos, C and C, Joc, Fel and Enxian are my DF mates! LOL. the great discovery about that cafe? THE WESTERN FOOD SUCKS. lol. I mean it's the worst western food I've ever had. BOO~

after dinner, enxian, fel and I went to sch of bio sci and slack there. lol. we danced, took pics, took vids. And it was really really hilarious. haha. especially when we take pics. We were exploring enxian's new phone - Samsung Pixon. LOL. haha the frames, the modes and all are so funny. hahaha. LOL. but it was fun la. haha. it has been awhile since I do funny and "brainless" stuff with my frens. "brainless" as in, it sounds brainless but it was damn fun. haha. (: I enjoyed hanging out with them..

think I should go to bed soon huh? LOL. probably after playing Carnival Tycoon for awhile lor. haha. gd nite!

And so, wednesday i did not go school at all due to my swollen eyes. Dont understand why it keeps itching. DARN.

Thursday was another sian day. cos there was ICT. seriously, i do not like this module due to its content. cos it's just like any other IT courses. -.- but the good thing about this lesson is we get to facebook around. hahaha. :D Before ICT, we had our group meeting at UID and we are more or less done la. (: presentation about 2 weeks from now. Prof Chia started his Genetics lecture on thursday too. like finally. cos i was looking forward to it. content like structure and function of DNA, replication, transciption, translation blah blah blah are my favourite (: his lecture was not bad, infact good.

once again, i had to move my lazy ass to ALS lesson early in the morning on friday. the class size was pathetic. only a few turned up. i wondered if the rest had MC or they jus skipped class. wow, then mrs singh will received tons of MCs if they really do get one. sigh and i realised i have only 1 week left to do a complete draftof my research report. DAMN, time is running out! and i haven studied for bio at all. GEEZ. this sucks, seriously. )): Prof Chia ended lecture one hour before the stipulated time and of cos, everyone was happy about it. hahas. acc-ed DF mates to have dinner and fig and olive and after which i went home to have mine. I usually feel good on friday cos it's friday! lol. but I didn't feel that way. probably becos assignments deadlines are nearing.... very very near.

Yst JK and I had lunch at the famous beef noodles stall. YUMMY :D den we watched Coming Soon. LOL. it's a horror movie. it's scary la. as in scary at the part where the ghost suddenly appear and stuff like tat. well, that's usually what's so scary about a horror movie isn't it? but after awhile, we found the ghost hilarious so we started laughing. haha. i wondered if anyone thought we were crazy or what. HAHA. had dinner at lerk thai! it's like FINALLY!!! we concluded that the one at tanjong pagar is still the best (: much lovess....

today i woke up at like 5am? geez. to close the windows cos it was raining. but eventually i din sleep cos we had to go to Ulu Pandan to the ancestral hall. den went to redhill to have breakfast. when i reached home it was already like 11am, which i know some of my frens are definitely still sleeping. LOL.

anyway, i am really glad that fel and christina found their mr right. and i hope that they will last long.... (:

now i wonder, when am i going to find mine?

today was like a really really boring day for me? boring as in i had to go to school for GESL show and tell. and it really sucks seriously. there were no one anyway. GEEZ. but the only good thing about the GESL thing today is that I saw mr koh! yea :D had a short chat with him and amazingly, but not surprisingly, he finds the show and tell thing pointless too. HAHAHA.

and so, I was at the booth from around 1pm till 4pm. LOL. sian like what can. played games, did my ICT proj stuff and all. total waste of time la. luckily i dont have to man the booth tml. but i will most probably be gg down to watch WAN perform. lol. which consists of chris and jeff. lol. jeff should really take care of his knees. oh well....

there wont be dance for the whole of this wk. it's finally the time for us to rest la. LOL. hahaha. but i'll definitely miss carol cos we'll only get to see her like in may? SIGH. lol.... JDC pics are up, and fb isn't giving me probs alr. i'm glad (:

shall look for things to do online and try to sleep earlier today (:
many loves :D

P.S. I kinda miss Fel. sigh. cos i din see her yst, and only get to see her for awhile today. ):

hey all, JDC is finally over! well, i've got this bittersweet feeling about it. LOL. remembered the times we worked hard for this final lap... while i watch the tv at the backstage when waiting for my turn, I was very touched cos 'especially for you' looks so so so much cleaner... :D was quite sad and disappointed at myself, cos I dont think i did well enough for the jazz part )))): So sorry... SIGH

whatver it is, JDC's over and we finally get to rest before the next performance Happy Hour, and the big event Grand Welcome. I'm still not sure if i wana perform for Happy Hour cos I really do not wana jeopardise my studies due to performances. and i'm really lagging behind. BOO~ )))):

anyhow, sat was a good and bad day. bad becos there was lab session in the morning ): it's total sian-ness to have lessons in saturday ok. damn. after tt, went str8 to meet JK to get Joc's prezzie. We got her a bracelet and earrings. hahs. :D and JK went with me to Joc's bdae party :D hehe. my dance mates finally got to see and know him after hearing so much about him from me. LOL. Fel was initially tricked by us saying tt JK cant go. hahas :p eventually we ate and had cake and stuff and left at around 9.30pm. SIGH no man utd match )): and the worse thing is it's 4-1 and a red card on vidic. SUCKS!!! yes, chris, it must be conspiracy! geez...

well, looking at how Joc celebrated her 21st bdae, i really wonder how will my 21st bdae be like. well, i dont wana invite SOOOOO many to the extent that i cant entertain everyone of them. i guess it will be a small affair with my family and my close frens. :D haha, everythings too early to say. and about a week after my 21st bdae, it's JK's ORD! :D great!

oh ya, yst's JDC is like... -.- seriously, most of them did not have any sense of urgency and things kept dragging and dragging. miscommunication and stuff like tt. sucks, seriously. and worse still... still stroll when it's alr drizzling. damn. well, we really should improve on that. ok... lol. haha. and so, Gion, Fel and I ran and ran and ran. in the end, still drenched. LOL. hahaha. it was the longest run for me, after so long... oh man. seriously. and it was sprinting and sprinting ok... and today my thighs, calves blah blah...infact my whole body is aching.

so we had to squuuuuuueeeeeeeezzzzeeee into a duper small room with a few other clubs while SOME other clubs get one room to themselves. see, nothing is fair. lol... anyhow, we still did our make up and hair, had dinner in that tiny-wheeny room. LOL. we kept camwhoring. there were really alotof pics in my cam la. but i deleted quite alot too, cos it wasn't that nice la. haha.

and so after the whole event, fel and i kept camwhoring in the toilet LOL!!! hahaha. damn funny. we just couldn't stop. -.- so in the end, ling, enxian and I went off first while the rest went to have dinner, or supper perhaps. lol. sooooo shag can... ling was really sleeping soundly in the train. haha. the always-so-kind enxian sent me home so i invited him over for dinner. yeah there was curry fish head and soup. and i think he likes it rite? LOL. soup for sure. hahaha. i'm glad we din join the others la. cos it's so damn late alr and the food in that area wont be cheap. and have to cab back cos there'll def be no trains when they're done with dinner. and so enxian and i talked for quite long la, and he went off around 1plus if i'm not wrong. sooo late. haha.

alright, i'm feeling sleepy again. i should go nap now. LOL! tata :D

yo... i'm blogging while waiting for my qssymm to finish loading lol.. sigh this lappie is soooo slow... ): SIGH and my com is not working. must be some virus... still fixing it now. hopefully it will be fine.

recently, there's just a lot of thoughts running thru my head. I dont know how exactly to say it but yeah, i realised that there are certain things that will definitely piss me off and i cant change the way i feel about it. sometimes i just dont feel like talking. sometimes i just dont want any comments. sometimes i just need a ear. and i hope ppl would understand why i think of something in that certain manner, and why i chose to do things in certain manner, and not comment much. ok, fine, if you dont understand den just listen. I will be glad enough. Infact, i realised that there's some stuff that i cannot accept no matter what. ok, maybe i will be able to bear with it, BUT I JUST CANNOT ACCEPT. cos i am like that.

and so, yst the 3 of us went to Amore to have our full-body massage. LOL. it was damn shiok. haha. it started off with a 15min steam bath, then the full-body massage. lol i really admire their job. it's like. what the... they can massage non-stop for one-hour la. i cannot imagine doing that la. i really feel much better and relaxed after the session. (:

due to yst's biology lecture, i spent the unearthly hours doing my tutorials and the tutorials done were not put ionto good use during the lecture. and due to the unearthly hours spent doing the tutorials, i ended up having a lack of sleep. and due to the lack of sleep that is due to the unearthly hours spent doing tutorials, i ended up having a bad headache this morning when i woke up. and finally, i survived thru my 3hours of ALS and had lunch with enxian and Canteen A and I got home to sleep just now. slept only for 2 hours. well, better than nothing.

tml there's lab and it really sucks. i dont wana see childish ppl in my bio lab session but i know it's inevitable and they ARE childish ppl. cant imagine I would still encounter this in uni. and most imptly, tml is a sat. I really dreadgg to sch on sats, cos it is not supposed to be a school day! damn. will be meeting JK after bio (: den attend joc's bdae party. LOL. i'm not gg to stay too late cos i need to leave and hopefully able to catch man utd match. and also rest well enough for the performance on sunday. good luck to me! and to all my frens involved in JDC too :D HOW I WISH THE SECURITY GUARD WOULD BE THERE TO ON AND OFF THE LIGHTS. wahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!! so damn funny.

back to my com's prob. sigh, i seriously do not know what the fuck is wrong with it. my bro tried using the safe mode to start up and com and do the virus scan, but halfway thru, it auto shut down again, but the problem is, i dont really think its a "shut down" becos the CPU is still working. as in, the fans are still turning. -.- i'm really really sian about this la. my bro said it could be a hardware problem instead of a problem with Windows. )))): so sad. like hey, i bought this com like in october 2008 lo! wtf.

ok, i think i should go. hopefully my qssymm has finished loading... :D

this is my worst bio lesson ever.... SERIOUSLY. it's like what the fuck. -.- damn. She just goes on and on about the tutorial from the moment she steps in. LOL. And she is really CMI in explaining and gg thru the tutorials. and she taught the HW law wrongly. DAMN.

Dance has been really really draining all my energy. SIGH. I am so so so tired. Monday's dance was..... oh my god. it ended at 11pm. As in the dance is really until 11pm. dance had never ended so late before and it was really really tiring. cos carol cleaned up our gal's hiphop with us. when i woke up the next morning i can feel aches almost all over my body. LOL. Yst there was dance too. it ended late too... around 10. but yst's dance was eventful. LOL hahaha. we trained really hard la, i must agree. and carol drilled our steps for the last part - modern jazz. when she saw me for my part, I was really really glad tt she asked me what was my obstacle and I was honest and told her it was the turning part tt i was really unconfident of. then she changed my last part to a easier turn (: HEES. I am happy cos now i am much confident. (: so i have to inject all my feelings - anger.

There was this fucked up security guard that came into the dance room and started shouting while we were doing our last run full-out. HE IS SO FUCKING idiotic can.doesn't he know simple respect?? and while we were dancing, he was trying to switch off the lights but apparently he was so freaking dumb that he didn't know how to and ended up switching on more lights. LOL. stupid and he go around shouting again. I was very very pissed off and angry at his doings tt i managed to portray the correct emotions for my last part. THANK YOU MR SECURITY GUARD (if you sense the sacarsm, it's meant to be like this). finally we're done.

Tuesday i went to ttsh to acc JK for lunch :D happy. haha. den i met fel for dinner LOL. hees. later I will be gg to Amore Spa to have a 15min steambath, 5 min foot soak, and 1hour full body massage. :D happy... good time to have a massage la. make use of our NAF vouchers. LOL. I will be going there with fel and christina. hahs.

Anyway, i bought a new phone! it's LG icer-cream phone. I love it. it's white so i have to take extra care of it. sigh, well, actually i do not want to spend money on phones, but my nokia 6500 slide dropped from the top of the loft bad to the floor and the cover flew off. since then, my phone has been giving me problems. it kept changing my ringtone anyhow and my wallpaper keeps blanking out. LOL. so you know, i have to change it la. I love my new phone. (:

i bought it on mon, and on the day itself, JK's phone got stolen... what are the odds man. DAMN. so I'm helping him to check out for prices of the phone so that he can probably get back the same model again. nokia E51 without camera. does anyone know where i can get this phone at less than $348, without plan?

the bio lect really really sucks. she just jumped thru all the tut qns and well, that's it! shall stop blogging here then. haha.

I am still sooooo addicted to qssymm :D lovely show.

There was dance on fri and we did cleaning up AGAIN. ya, we have to do that everytime until the performance coming sunday. LOL. It's really really boring. GEEZ.

So yst I went swimming at JK's condo for quite awhile before we left for lunch and to cathay for movie... YEAH! we watched He's just not that into you! It's darn nice. :D and i cried a few times during the touching scenes and all. worth watching (: like what fel said, chic flick. hahs

today i stayed at home for the whole day and rot. seriously just rot infront of the com and watched qssymm. LOL. and guess what it's 3plus in the morning and i'm still blogging. I have to get up around 9 plus tml. gonna help out at dancerobics den there'll be bio lect and meeting fel str8 after tt at JP. she's gonna shop for her bling bling. (: and there's dance at 7.30 tml. it's FULL dress. geez. means i have to wear the hot pants again... and learn the change really fast... jiayou!!!

I'm gonna finish watching qssymm epi 25 before gg to sleep...
tata! :D

wow.... i've been missing for sometime huh? haha, just cant find the mood to blog la.. LOL!! Anyhow, let's start from where I last stopped. LOL....

hmm... So, saturday I went out with JK, as usual... Bloody orchard was raining elephants and rhinos. I was sooooo pissed off that day la... While I was walking towards wisma to get an umbrella from Watsons, the crowd was trying to force the way thru, to squeeeeezzzeee in as close to the wall as possible, so to avoid the rain... AND while i was walking, there was this B-I-T-C-H in green that tried to bump into me but didn't manage to. I was so pissed that I purposely bump into her. It's like... WTF... she was in one of the 2 lanes that was walking against the flow, while I was in the one and only lane that leads to wisma. F-bitch. I really hate ppl like tt... and orchard was flooded with rainwater that caused my pants to be wet and soaked in rain water. DAMN.... after getting the umbrella, i quickly went over to Borders to meet JK. the umbrella is so lousy, no wonder it costs only 3.95. Geez... and so, i ended up quite drenched... The first thing JK said when he saw me was "why are you so wet?" LOL.... Den we had a short "high tea" at Sakae, den got to cine. wanted to watch movie but no movie to watch )): so we had dinner at the usual indon place, then went off to our usual place (:

Sunday, we had dance rehearsal (JDC). it starts around 3pm and ends at 8... BOO~ so late. LOL... i was testing out my speed off changing costumes when I actually forgot to take off my socks. I ended up skidding abit when I ran out for my last item. LOL........... so funny... After dance, fel, christina and I went to Benten to have dinner. den chris joined us. He brought Mochi!!!! YEAH. haaha. i guess he knows that i was in a very bad mood that day too... but, i really thank him alot for that (: haha. LOL.

And THAT marks the end of my recess week... And I have not done a single shit during this recess week... dance and dance and dance... Studies is like the last thing on my mind... )):

Monday I went Kbox with A.L.L.L. hehe... our A.L.L. has now expanded. it's good to expand a group, but not a group like ours la... I really hope A.L.L.L will disband one day... (: we sang for damn long.......... from around 3 or 4 i think? we were supposed to end by 7. christina left earlier and then the rest of us continued. we managed to stay in there until 8pm. HAHAHA. fel, yimin and I went pizza hut to have dinner and off we go... HOME (:

Tuesday I had no school... LOL.... And i went for my first ever driving lesson! LOL. I was so nervous, but it was fun. haha. finally tried driving (: hope i can learn and improve faster. hehe... Den went home and rested...

Yst was another dance day.... TIRED... LOL. no sch too... just dance. lol. nothing much. Carol only cleaned up especially for you and kiss... hmm...

And now! i'm here in ICT lesson. LOL!! hahaha. Facebook again. (:

oh ya, recently, i'm watching 情深深雨蒙蒙 again, nice :D ok lar, i shall stop blogging at the moment.. will update again..

i should really do my assignments liao )):