came across this song. love it so much.

sung by these 2 beautiful ladies. they are twins!

nice voice too. enjoy. =)

[Verse One]

All I hear is raindrops

Falling on the rooftop

Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go

Cause this pain I feel

It wont go away

And today I’m officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache

I could escape

But I fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today

I’m officially missing you

[Chorus]

Oh can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do

Hey baby say it stays on my mind

And I, I’m officially

[Verse Two]

All I do is lay around

Two ears full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all

I don’t know you at all

Well I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say

That I’m officially missing you

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

Well I thought I could just get over you baby

But I see that’s something I just can’t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can’t find a way

To let go of you

[Chorus]

It official

You know that I’m missing you

Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops

And I’m officially missing you

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tonnes of work coming up...

Loads of things to do.

need to know how to manage my time well. =/

today is a special day...

happy 4th month anniversary...

I miss you so much...

le plus cher, que vous veux-je dire?

"Mais croyez-moi s'il vous plaît, Je vous aime"...

Oui, je veux croire. Donnez-moi espèrent et me persuadent de nouveau.. Montrez-moi vous vous souciez, et dites-moi que vous m'aimez de nouveau...Je sais que je ne devrais pas vous harceler de mes pensées... c'est pour pourquoi je tape le français, en espérant que vous ne comprendrez pas que je veux dire... je ne peux pas supporter pour ne vous déranger plus... je ne peux pas supporter pour vous voir dans l'angoisse... :(((((

Cher, Je vous aime ainsi... Juste quand j'ai cru que je ne pouvais pas trouver quelqu'un qui me fait avoir l'impression d'être comment JK a fait, vous avez apparu... :)

malgré tous les incidents malheureux qui sont arrivés entre nous, je vous aime toujours profondément... et j'estime honnêtement que vous êtes les justes pour moi, mon et seulement... J'espère juste que nous serons ensemble de nouveau un jour.. parce que je vous aime, plus qu'autre chose...

croyez-moi s'il vous plaît...

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incase you guys are wondering, that's french. didn't know that i knew french eh? haha. :D anyway, a nice song, really meaningful.. so feel like sharing... here's how it goes...

If You Leave

You think i`m so full of it, full of it

But i think i`m just fed up, baby

You think i can be so arrogant, arrogant

But i`m just tryna keep my head up, baby

You think i procrastinate baby

But i think i`m taking my time

You think you need to leave

But i think i disagree but

If you believe you`ll do best without me

I`ll let it go girl, it`s over

But before we say goodbye

Let`s give it a try

If you leave, then baby i`ll leave

I`ll let it go girl, it`s over

But i have no doubt

We can work it out yeah

I think you're so full of it, full of it

You just don`t know when to let up baby

I think you`re so arrogant, arrogant

But you think you`re so much better baby

That i think it aint dealt before me to judge you by your flaws and that`s why

No i could criticize, but i put that aside

To focus on you and i

But if you believe you`ll do best without me

Then i`ll let it go boy, it`s over

But before we say goodbye

Let`s give it a try

If you leave, then baby i`ll leave

I`ll let it go boy, it`s over

But i have no doubt

We can work it out yeah

Now if you wanna go, baby

Then i`ll let you go

And even though i`m tryna hold on

I can`t if you don't

No, now if you leave me, you`re gonna miss me

And i`m not saying that i`ll be here waiting

Since we here right now (instead of just walking out)

Let`s work to reach the point that i know we can be...

But if you believe, you`ll do best without me

Then i`ll let it go

It`s over (it`s over)

But before we say goodbye

Let`s give it a try

If you leave, then baby i`ll leave

I`ll let it go girl, it`s over

I have no doubt that we can work it out

If you believe, you`ll do best without me

I`ll let it go girl, it`s over

Before we say goodbye

Let`s give it a try

If you leave, then baby i`ll leave...

It's nearing... But seriously I'm not excited at all. Sometimes you just feel that you're all alone in this world. Nobody understands you. Yes, nobody but only you. As much as you wana convey your feelings and thoughts to the other party, there is still a certain level of difficulty to fully explain the situation and get the person to understand what you're going through. I've seen this through. Yes, no one can fully understand. What I fear most is not not having someone there to listen to me pour my sorrows, but one that cannot understand what you are feeling. more often, there's this kinda ridiculous kinda thing that you might wana talk to the other party about. yes, it may sound ridiculous to the other party and we may feel that the person will find it ridiculous. we may tell the person how ridiculous you think yourself are. but deep down, deep inside, you know. only you understand yourself that it is not ridiculous at all. It's just that there is only this much you can say, and only this much the other party can understand.

this is the most fucked-up moment I've ever had. like what my bro names them - airborne commando cockroaches. WHY THE FUCK must these disgusting insects exist? I was happily changing newspapers for JJ when suddenly some disgusting brownish thing just flew above my head. my reaction? drop everything and run! I peeped into the kitchen and saw that it was a cockroach! knnccb! it's like tmd-fucking HUMONGOUS. I asked my mum to kill it, cos she's the only one in the family that's not afraid of it. BUT she refused! can you imagine how fucking pissed i am? I just reached home not long ago (12plus) cos i acc-ed her for supper downstairs. I have not yet bathed, have not yet peed, have not yet washed my face. I quickly ran into my room, fearing that it will fly right into my face. I called my mum on the phone and she still refused to kill it. i get even more pissed off when she decided not to.

and here i am, now 4.27am, sitting right infront of the com, smelly and oily. I still have not bathed, washed my face or peed. i have to hold my pee and this really really sucks. she knows i'm not feeling well and i have not done all these. and she still do not wana help me. she even switched off her phone, good game. now i just wish that i faint and die right here. den she'll definitely regret not killing the cockroach, and for switching off her phone. but seriously i think i have a high chance of fainting. i tried sleeping but i can't cos i feel very "dirty" to sleep. and i kept coughing like fuck but i don't dare to drink water cos i'm afraid it will make me feel like peeing even more. and now, my head is spinning. but i can't sleep. seriously this sucks. i dont even feel like gg for the OG outing tml anymore. cos i know that stupid disgusting thing will still be there. seriously now i'm more pissed at my mum than that fucking cockroach. I'm so gg to ignore her tml, FOR SURE. i can't imagine i cried becos i feel so helpless.

if you're gg to say "come on, it's only a cockroach", den please shut up unless you're gg to help me get rid of it. CHRIS, i seriously miss and need you ): (not that way obviously) I think after today, my kidneys, bladder, lungs, brain, skin are going to be so damaged. and for sure, i'm not gg to recover well. ): guess i'll be a sick birthday girl when the day comes. this sucks but seriously i'm not excited about it. =/ but still wana thanks my youngest bro's ex for giving me a present in advance. it's really sweet of her seriously. it totally took me off guard and i'm touched but her actions.

ok now, let's pray that i faint and die here as soon as possible. i can't stand this! i'm so "sticky" and my bladder is bursting! KNNCBB! this is my worst day EVER. NB!

Got loads of thoughts running thru my mind la~ haha. many many has happened.
wow, someone became good friends with someone after someone hecks someone and someone didn't know that someone was just kidding and that someone din know that someone became good friends with someone. so that's how someone seek solace when someone ignores someone and this is how someone treats someone behind someone.l so much for someone being nice to someone.
moral of the story? cannot be trusted. fuck you!

what does betrayal and backstabbing really means? i dont think this means that, but this is sufficient to tell me things. whatever! afterall, i don't give a fuck.

As I was walking home from the market just now, I passed by the usual few fruit stalls. There were mangoes, apples, oranges, pears, jackfruits, strawberries, grapes etc etc. My favourite ones are apples, strawberries and grapes. Firstly, they look more appealing, which is true. Better looks attracts more attention. haha. Secondly, in contrast, jackfruits, pears and mangoes look quite ugly, cos of their colour, green, yellow blah blah blah, which doesn't tell of a good fruit. So you're right again. C-M-I looks turns ppl off. But we must know that everyone is treated fairly. Better-looking fruits might not be as tasty as the uglier ones. for example, you can smell jackfruit from a distance away, while the others you can't. there are plus and minus points for everything, it's just a matter of how you overcome ur psychological barrier of the minus points and attenuate on the plus points. (:

enough of crap. LOL. gees. played mj with enxian, joc and fel. enxian's got the techniques, the skills, but he dont have the luck, so he lost quite abit la. joc actually can play lo, just that she anyhow throw tiles and take new tiles. -.- if not, she could have won more and lost less. fel doesn't have the techniques and skills, but she is damn lucky can. well, it's always better to have the techniques and skills la, afterall, luck comes and goes. LOL. gonna teach joc some day. haha. just teach her the combi will do ba. since she can guard. LOL. seriously she's not bad, and she not very slow too. haha. shall arrange for more mj sessions.

*yea la yea la. deep down deep down, go underwater world la... pls stop it.*

i'm so sleepy la. gonna nap awhile man. need to restore energy for Man Utd's match later! and dance tml too... BOO~

fuck you

The weather was always so fine. Warm and stuffy we may complain.
However, the weather changes. The storm comes. Rainy days and humid environment. More annoyingly, the appearance of cockroaches. That is the thing I dread most.
I seriously love fine weather. I HATE rainy days. Knowing that it rains, I brought my umbrella. It really pisses me off the rain gets soooo heavy that my umbrella cannot shelter me from it. I guess I shouldn't even go out in the first place. Then I wont get caught in the rain. But the problem is HELLO, i brought my umbrella! What the fuck. well, I will still bring my umbrella la. But if I still get caught in the rain, I will NOT go out when it rains. GEES.

What annoys me is that, if it's going to rain and make people wet from the rain, why should the weather be fine in the first place? It makes people happy during the fine weather cos there is no rain and NO COCKROACHES. wouldn't it be better if there wasn't any fine weather so that people won't feel down during rainy days? LOL. so, pls stop it la... LOL. haha, so funny. sounds like I've just blogged some crap la.

Had dance yst and of cos it was tiring. LOL. cleaned up joc's choreo. and yimin did her choreo. I finally got to dance la~ exams is such a wet blanket. Gees. no dance during exam period. but i'm so glad that it's over.

similarly there was dance today. so today we did the formation and stuff like tt... once again, there was cleaning up. ALOT of cleaning up needs to be done. i hope they dont grumble, unless they think they can do it so perfectly. LOL. waiting for Joc to be back to standardise some steps and stuff... Hope I will be well enough to dance tml. (:

had lunch with enxian today at NIE canteen. talked quite alot la. Well, as usual la. we always have a lot of crap to talk about. I realised that some things are beyond control. And it might be better to fuck care. Of the many many talks I had with enxian, I also realised that nice people will remain as nice people, ****s will remain as ****s, and ****s will remain as ****s too. A leopard never changes its spots. As easy as that.

Maybe I'll still be able to talk to her when I meet her again. I may still be able to ask her over for a mahjong session. but one thing remains: she is still a ****. LOL. wonder how the jepalang mahjong-ing session will turn out to be like. hopefully they can make it. shall ask mich soon too... :D

YO! I watched Star Awards just now. haha. well, I think the awards were given rather fairly. haha. I guessed correctly most of the awards, except the best actor. I dont like Chen Han Wei, and I dont like his acting. I just felt that there are others who acted better. Qi Yu Wu is another one that I dont really like, cos he's not good-looking and his acting is only so-so. Mediacorp just kept pushing him to fame. Dont understand why. It's like hello... there are better actors who look much better den him.

If you know me well, you should know that I really do not like Joanne Peh. But I guessed it that she will win cos I really felt that she acted well in Little Nonya. Jeanette Aw is like what la... I dont like her too. Cos she can't act well. very rigid kinda acting. It's like she looks and acts the same in every show. -.- I was hoping she wont get top 10, but I know it's not that possible la. LOL. I mean if she dont even got top 10, den she's really a disgrace la. Cos so much has been done for her.

I like Ng Hui. she acted really well in TLN. xiang yun ok la... haha. not bad la. LOL. the next big drama coming up is The Ultimum. I think I saw cheryl. lol. should be her la. shall ask her about it. haha. As for Dai Yang Tian, I like him! he's so good-looking. But i dont understand why he got the Newcomer award. He didn't act that much in TLN, and acting was so-so only la. I think the other newcomers acted better than he did. LOL.

Top 10 were all quite expected. It's like out of 10, 8 is like CONFIRMED will get it one. as for males, i think Hui-ge is the one that ppl din expect. haha. I admired Zheng Ge Ping's acting too. And I like Lin Xiang Ping. haha the best actor and actress last yr. I love Jessica Liu too. haha.

Just a side note, I seriously dislike Dawn ___ (duno) haha. one of the 7 princesses. like LOL. she can't act. and look at her costume for last yr's star awards. -.- COS-tume. as in, she was wrapped in some lollita. something to do with hello kitty or what fuck one la. Just damn kiddish and disgusting. It's totally like not showing enough respect to the event, or it's just plain dumb and childish. -.-

OK tt's all! haha gg to wash up and sleep and gg to sch for dance tml! meeting enxian and fel for breakfast. and gg K with Fel after dance! YEAH!

Once again, I have to repeat, FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. lol. well, this is really the first time i tried studying till early morning like 5plus am? LOL. I mean for exams. usually the day before exams, you'll see me sleeping soundly by around 10pm. It really tells us that in Uni, everything is different. No one will care if you listen during lectures, if you revise your work constantly. It all boils down to one thing: SELF-DISCIPLINE. it is not difficult to see that I've a lack of that. -.-

BUT the good thing is, the nightmare is OVER. today i had my last paper of the semester. :D I am soooooo freaking happy can! happy as in, glad that it's over. ironically, i do not feel any signs of relief as to tell myself that exams are over and i can enjoy. I totally could not feel that. Indeed, I enjoyed myself after exams just now. with a couple of friends. (: shall update a few days later what I did today (: The point is, i'm not 'out' of the exam mood yet. I still feel very serious and shag due to late nights and stuff like that. Probably i need sleep, i need to sleep like a pig to regain my liveliness back. LOL.

oh well, today's paper was quite ok. I hope i can get A or higher? i HOPE, ok... -.- hopefully moderation wont pull my grades down.hope test results can help pull up the exam marks too. I just hope that the good will happen. but i must always be prepared to get a B or C. incase... lol

What is love? I don't know.
But I know one thing: Do not love for the sake of loving. Love him, for who he is. Treasure this, cherish it. One day you will understand. This is what love is all about.

I AM SO TIRED. i wanted to watch liverpool v arsenal but now i'm too tired to do so. gonna sleep! nitess.... (:

As I was browsing through my stuff 2 days ago, I saw a letter. So familiar...

On the envelope it says "XXX to Jasmine"...

I rmbed 2 years ago when I received this letter just the day before my bdae. But I managed to see it only on my bdae. And this is how it goes:

Happy Birthday!! I have known you for quite a few months and I am really glad to know you. You are certainly a understanding and cheerful girl.. hehe .. I like. Hmm... A-levels are coming and this is going to be a crucial period. We must both focus and work no matter wat. Do not ever feel like giving up. Lastly, ar ... ar ... I want to say I really love you and hope we still can be together after A-level. Would you be willing to be my girlfriend? I will wait for your answer after A-level and any answers is acceptable to me becos I just want you to be happy. =p

XXX
Always stay happy

I must say that my ex is a nice guy, but apparently things din work out between us due to our differences in thinking and also religion. well, indeed he popped that question, which is the question many gals expect to hear before getting into a r/s with the guy. But after getting into my current r/s, I realised that actually, this question isn't really THAT important at all... What's most important is that I'm really happy now that I have him. I'm not comparing at all... cos I know everyone is different. But I just want to say, some stuff that seem so important,might not need to be that important after all... Whatever it is, what matters the most in a r/s is whether you are happy or not. ((:

Came across this phrase a few days ago - Love waits for one thing, The right moment. I totally agree with that. why do I say so? then again, another story to tell... there was this guy I used to like fore pretty long... he is 3 yrs older. and we are really really close friends. we know each other very well. too well, in fact. one day, i wrote him a letter revealing all my feelings towards him and expected a reply from him. However, there wasn't any reply despite waiting and waiting. I was sad and heartbroken.

I eventually let it go and continued being close frens with him. years later, while he was studying at somewhere away from home, he often drop me some sweet goodnite msgs and so on.. there was a nite where we started chatting and talked about the letter i wrote him years ago. he admitted that he liked me too but din reply as he was afraid it would affect my studies. and whenever he felt lonely there, I'm the first person he would think of. He revealed that he still like me (then), when i asked him if he did. well, love really waits for the right moment. and for this, too bad. everything is long past. just bringing it up to share some of my interesting stories. :D

the bottom line is: I am happy, and this is the right moment :D and I hope he feels this way too (:

anyway, after blogging so much about relationships, I shall now talk about some stuff in school. I dont exactly know how to start. oh well, okay, I just dread hearing and seeing her seriously. I CAN'T TAKE IT for goodness sake!!!!!! sigh, stop AC-ing and AA-ing pls. but that is not the main point... I know, it may seem petty and childish being mad at her just becos she ACs and ASs, but the point is it really isn't because of that ALONE. to be honest, I am one that cannot even stand a person who is just plain AC and AS.

When I first met her, I din even liked her a tweeny wheeny bit. but what angers me most is her petty, senseless and extremely tactless self, that offended many people including myself. geez. different thinking, can't even reason things out with her. I gave up talking to her seriously. DAMN. if you think i'm referring to you, den it's you. if you think i'm not, den it's not you. FYI, she's just one of my classmates in one of my module. no more questions will be entertained. thank you. (:

and so, today JK and I went out on our first date as official bgfs. lol.. haha sounds funny. well, it feels the same, just SLIGHTLY different. I guess it's becos i'm happier? ((: went to HK cafe after not gg there for quite some time. we actually stayed there for quite some time before moving our lazy asses. haha. we watched "shinjuku incident" at the grand cathay. haha, well quite ok la. but I felt that it was quite draggy cos I was kinda like waiting for it to end... -.- JK said it didn't link that well but the ending is quite dramatic... quite true. LOL. but i think overall it's ok la. ((: had dinner at xin yuan ji again! haha. suddenly miss amoy's street fish beehoon again. We must go back there to eat one day (: went esplanade and tt calls for the day! woots... :D

ahhh, feels better thrashing out stuff here :D eeyur... fel can't be online today ))): hope tml she can come online! den we can chat hehe.. alright, it has been a long day, and definitely a super long post too! hahaha. off to bed. tata! :D

yo... i'm blogging while waiting for my qssymm to finish loading lol.. sigh this lappie is soooo slow... ): SIGH and my com is not working. must be some virus... still fixing it now. hopefully it will be fine.

recently, there's just a lot of thoughts running thru my head. I dont know how exactly to say it but yeah, i realised that there are certain things that will definitely piss me off and i cant change the way i feel about it. sometimes i just dont feel like talking. sometimes i just dont want any comments. sometimes i just need a ear. and i hope ppl would understand why i think of something in that certain manner, and why i chose to do things in certain manner, and not comment much. ok, fine, if you dont understand den just listen. I will be glad enough. Infact, i realised that there's some stuff that i cannot accept no matter what. ok, maybe i will be able to bear with it, BUT I JUST CANNOT ACCEPT. cos i am like that.

and so, yst the 3 of us went to Amore to have our full-body massage. LOL. it was damn shiok. haha. it started off with a 15min steam bath, then the full-body massage. lol i really admire their job. it's like. what the... they can massage non-stop for one-hour la. i cannot imagine doing that la. i really feel much better and relaxed after the session. (:

due to yst's biology lecture, i spent the unearthly hours doing my tutorials and the tutorials done were not put ionto good use during the lecture. and due to the unearthly hours spent doing the tutorials, i ended up having a lack of sleep. and due to the lack of sleep that is due to the unearthly hours spent doing tutorials, i ended up having a bad headache this morning when i woke up. and finally, i survived thru my 3hours of ALS and had lunch with enxian and Canteen A and I got home to sleep just now. slept only for 2 hours. well, better than nothing.

tml there's lab and it really sucks. i dont wana see childish ppl in my bio lab session but i know it's inevitable and they ARE childish ppl. cant imagine I would still encounter this in uni. and most imptly, tml is a sat. I really dreadgg to sch on sats, cos it is not supposed to be a school day! damn. will be meeting JK after bio (: den attend joc's bdae party. LOL. i'm not gg to stay too late cos i need to leave and hopefully able to catch man utd match. and also rest well enough for the performance on sunday. good luck to me! and to all my frens involved in JDC too :D HOW I WISH THE SECURITY GUARD WOULD BE THERE TO ON AND OFF THE LIGHTS. wahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!! so damn funny.

back to my com's prob. sigh, i seriously do not know what the fuck is wrong with it. my bro tried using the safe mode to start up and com and do the virus scan, but halfway thru, it auto shut down again, but the problem is, i dont really think its a "shut down" becos the CPU is still working. as in, the fans are still turning. -.- i'm really really sian about this la. my bro said it could be a hardware problem instead of a problem with Windows. )))): so sad. like hey, i bought this com like in october 2008 lo! wtf.

ok, i think i should go. hopefully my qssymm has finished loading... :D