it's been AGES...... since i blogged. LOL. haha.

sch has been rather busy for me. esp dance cos there was a performance on fri. so i practically danced on mon-fri. woots. but i like it. haha. another performance coming this thurs but i can't perform becos i have lecture! urgh. oh well. but i will still go dance later to help with the details and the formation cos nana's not gg.

as for sch work, i'm glad to say it's progressing well for me. AED 102 ppt is over. our tutor is glad enough with our work. (: and i'm proud to say that i have finished my AED 102 essay on sunday, which is due this coming fri. i'm so so so thankful that i didn't procrastinate and i started the research quite some time ago. yeah, so now i can totally focus on my aab 101 and 102 revision for exams. hees. happy.....

sch aside, it's been 2 wks plus since jk was enlisted. it's like FINALLY last fri was his book-out day. den we met on sat after the longest time ever. damn. i've nv not seen him for that long ok. but oh well, still have to go thru this. at least we spend some precious moments tgt on sat tt's good enough. den yst afternoon he booked in again. last night he called me and said we might not meet for quite awhile cos he will be booking out late and has less than a day of freedom! but that was what he heard so far, not really sure of it yet. SIGH. if what he told me really is the upcoming schedule for him, i can only see him after 3 wks, which is murderous for me. damn. the record will be once again broken. BOO~~~ i can't wait to see him again...

after talking to one of my fren, he has a somewhat similar situation as i am in. he said that if i really love him, i should be brave for him, i should continue to be there for him. becos that is what my fren will do, for the gal he loves. sigh. i guess looking at what i'm doing now, i'm already prepared to get hurt once again by him. i really duno what the future holds. i just hope everything will turn out fine. now i'm just reminding myself that he doesn't love me, no matter what he does to make me feel otherwise. i shan't be too hopeful once again.

-out of sorts-

(: hi, i have not blogged for quite some time huh? oh well...

i'm so freaking lazy and i don't know why this week seems so .... havoc. JASMINE IS TIRED!!! urgh. was rushing through the aed 105 essay and editing all that stuff. monday i didn't go for dance though it's carol's last session with us for the semester. but i'm kinda glad i didn't turn up because i went to meet him instead. we intended to meet on both mon and wed. but last minute he told me his dad took half day off on wed just to spend time with him. how sweet is that... so we didn't meet up on wed. i wasn't prepared for that at all seriously. we didn't even take photos together on monday. we forgot. damn. i'm so sad. BOO~ but mon was great. it was a great day for me.

things did not change surprisingly. we are still like before. just that, today's his enlistment day. that's why i'm so depressed that i couldn't meet him yesterday! but he did call me and stuff like that. at least it made me feel better. now he's already in tekong. wonder how is he doing now. and what he's doing now. i seriously miss him... i won't see him for 3 weeks!! not used to it at all, but i have no choice. i have never not seen him for so long. the longest is only around a week. damn. i'm now just looking forward to the day when he can finally book out! i bet i'll be so happy and excited. wonder if he will lose weight and become tanner or not. hope he looks the same. like he prefers too. (:

i must admit that recently i have been quite affected by him, the things he said the other time and stuff like that. but deep in my heart, i have already made a decision and i can feel the answer. it shall just go on like this. until then......

now, life w/o him. i have to study real hard. much much less msgs from him. much much less calls from him too. but he said he will call me whenever he's free. much much less meeting up with him also.): i must adapt soon!!!!

-i miss you sooooo much!-

hi! i'm feeling better after the past few days. anyway, i just went out with peiling and i bought lots of stuff. feeling guilty now!

just last night i bought 2 tops online from secretaisle.livejournal.com. it's launched by my frens. but i didn't buy it only becos they're my frens but becos i really like the designs. do show ur support too! (:

just now went to bugis and got a bag, big big one. so tt i can out alot of things. haha. den i bought 3 tees. "miss naughty", "ms whoops" and one that says "i love bad guys p.s. only if you're cute :p". haha. den i bought 3 pairs of earrings, one manchester united handphone strap. (: LOL. quite alot of stuff la.

maybe tt's how i make myself feel better. well, i wana get a com for myself when my pay comes in. LOL. now i'm using my bro's com la. zzz.

shall update again next time!

-i don't know-