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-If only time could turn back...-

Time passes fast. My pay is out. I actually have a 1-month bonus. LOL
Anyway, today, as usual, I went to school for dance. I don't know why
I think I hurt myself during dance on weds. I couldn't lift up my right
leg properly. And when I do so, it hurts.

But I have to go dance early today so I can teach Joyce and MF the
steps. Then, today Yimin taught us the new choreo, which is actually
alot of house moves. We finished quite a few eights. (: I know I'm gonna
ache tml, FOR SURE. haha. But then again, I love muscle aches. blah.

My appointment at the TB unit is scheduled next thurs early in the morning.
Seriously I have no idea how to get there. And I don't know where the hell
is Clinic K at. It's probably part of TTSH? I kinda afraid of the blood test.
I've mentioned before about being a freshie for blood test. Well, I guess I
have no choice. ): But JK will be acc-ing me there. Hopefully, with him
around, I won't get lost.

I don't know why but today I did alot of thinking while I'm on the way
home from dance. Perhaps I was too engrossed in the drama I watched
online, which I just finished watching this morning. It's One Litre of Tears.
Though some of the characters are fictional, there is this part where the
girl decided that she should give up on something really important to her,
which is the guy that she liked.

I think I'm crazy but, if she can let go of something that is so important to
her, why can't I? Moreover, the guy liked her too. But in my case, I really
don't know. I will just continue to see what happens. I gave myself 9 weeks.
After 9 weeks, it'll be Valentine's day. I guess after that day, I can make a
decision. If he really do like me, I'm sure he will ask me out. If not, then I'll
know what to do.

I hope by then if that really happens, I will have to courage to let go. Please.
Pray for me. And wish me well.

-Random thoughts-

hey, today is a shag day, though I chose not to go for dance later.

yst my 9 of my DF mates and I went to Timber - the substation.
I tried their steak and I feel that it's quite nice and affordable.
Kings and I kinda shared one Tandoori Chicken Pizza. Their thin
crust pizza is nice. (:

In total, I drank more than 1 litre of Erdinger White, one Sex on
beach and one Sweet lady. Sex on the beach is nice and it's sweet.
On the other hand, I dread Sweet lady. Totally contrary to its name.
I guess I had abit too much, was feeling tipsy after Sweet lady. I guess
it's due to cointreau and stuff in it, which makes it feel rather high
in alcohol content.

I was surprised I could still walk straight. haha. Oh well... I was
trying hard to do that when mf, joyce and I am walking back to
the MRT station. Joyce puked on the way walking back. LOL.
The rest stayed in TImbre till near 12am I guess.

Damn when I reached home and bathed, I just went straight to
my bed and PAH... dead. LOL. Then, Jk called. We chatted for
half an hour before I went straight into deep sleep, NOT. I was
getting rather restless around 4-5am. I just couldn't get to sleep.
Tossing around and stuff. And my head was spinning.

Finally, I decided to just wake up and sit in the living room. And
since I can't get to sleep, I might as well just go to the polyclinic
to see the doctor for a checkup. And so I went. Took an X-ray,
then she will be referring me to the TB unit probably at CDC.
She added that there is no problems or signs of TB shown by
looking at the X-ray. However, just for confirmation, I should just
go to the TB unit to do the blood test and stuff.

She also prescibed medicine for me. URGH. 2 BIG bottles of
disgusting drowsiness-causing cough medicine. And 1 BIG pack of
antibiotics. DAMN, I hate medicine. But I guess I will just take it and
see if things get better. Since I really need sleep now, I shall take it
now and go to sleep! Since it causes drowsiness. Haha.

Therefore, I'm so not going for dance today. Tml I will go most
probably. Because I need to teach Joyce, MF and YL the steps. Then,
sat I'll be out with JK again. Monday I will be going to his neighbourhood
to get some dance pants. According to yimin, it's there. So ya...

Then probably thurs we'll head to CPF for a surprise visit! LOL. And
of course to head to Amoy for our favourite food. YEAH! (:

Ok, off I go for my medicine and nap! :D

-Hangover-

Hi,

Today i went for Locking but not Popping. I don't know why but I really dislike popping. LOL. Then Yimin, who was very shag, and I went to Raffles City SC to get bubble tea. Then met Queenie and Jacqueline and friend then went back to Studio Wu for Gal's Hip-hop (:

Today Carol's not here and Choon Hui took over. It's really fun 'cos I love Gal's Hip-hop (:
We danced to Jeannie Ortega's Bling for 7 and 1/2 Eights. I love it. It's the longest choreo we've learnt in Studio Wu so far during the short one hour that includes warm-up. After that I just went home straight 'cos Mummy prepared dinner.

Tml we have dance in school at 11am to 1pm. After that I'll be going home to sleep like a pig then prepare to go out again to Timbre for a drink with DF members (: going for the Happy hours 'cos I do not wana come home too late. Then, I will try to sleep early and go to the polyclinic in the morning on the next day.

Tml's also JK's POP. Well, he must be feeling very happy about it. LOL. Anyway, talking about him... Saturday when we went out, we saw 2 of his friends while we were at City Link Mall and the surprising thing is that he didn't let go of my hands. Then when he booked in yst, another of his bunk mate told him LOUDLY that "I saw you and your gf yst at Cine". That is what he told me. You may think I feel happy about it as he didn't comment anything about it. Maybe he kinda already treated me as his gf. But that's not what I think. I feel that it's because these are his bunk mates (BMT), and they spend 2 months tgt.

Moreover tml's POP, as they are not his close friends, he will think that there isn't a need to explain things to them, like telling them I'm actually not his gf. But he really does things that makes everyone in camp thinks that I'm his gf. He puts our photo in his cupboard on the mirror. Even his sergeant saw it while checking their cupboards. Whatever it is, let him be. No matter what he does to make it seem that things are not as bad as I think, I will never think as optimistically as before already. I believe everyone knows what's "Once bitten, Twice shy". Enough about him.

Looking forward to tml's drinking session (:

-dance-

I've changed my blogskin. Hahs. well, I'm kinda bored of my old one.
I think this current one is nice because it's rather simple.
most importantly, the black background. My friends will know black is my favourite
colour. besides that, it incorporated different colours like blue, pink etc etc. it's nice
as it's not like some skins that uses only black and one type of colour say red, purple or green.

anyway, yst i finished watching HOT SHOT online. I think it's rather nice to catch. However the ending wasn't as good as i expected. It ended rather "stupidly". haha. But i still love the show. Because i still love basketball, just that i dont have to chance to play it frequently now.

tml morning i will be going to the polyclinic to consult the doctor. i guess i'll porbably do the blood test incase there's any problems with me. I have been coughing for around 3 weeks or so already. It's time to see the doctor. Moreover, I have a 85% subsidy at polyclinics. So, why not? haha. after that i hope i have enought time to come home and sleep then i can conserve enough energy to dance after that. i will be dancing from 4.30 to 7.30 tml. after that i will be meeting my primary school besties. (:

Can't wait for tml, But I'm kinda afraid of the blood test cos i have not tried a needle poking into my elbow region. i dont know how exactly you name that region but yea. I've only experienced injection on my arm, near the bicep. that is not painful. How i wish they dont have to inject to
take my blood. URGH.

-true frens are always with you (:-

On the surface
It seemed so real
But deep inside
We know
That's not the case

How long has it been
Since we first met
I couldn't imagine
This is how we would be

Those moment or two
It all seemed so blissful
Just within a few words
They're all scattered

So much for "you cared"
So much for feeling the obvious
So much for being there for you
So much for giving you time

You make me realised
I'm such a fool for believing you
I'm too naive
To believe everything is true

I wanted but couldn't bear to
Just walk away and never look back
There I go
Foolishly falling back into this trap again

Here I am
Dare not speak of my feelings again
Dare not ask of your feelings again
Because I know
Sooner or later
I Know

It'll be the end

-Emo/ness again-

hey, guess what? tuesday i was too lazy and shag to go for dance. LOL! i was aching everywhere, goodness. how i love muscle aches (: hahaha. wednesday went for dance in school, willy was there to teach us our new choreo for our upcoming performance. i love it, it's so nice! now i know why "cos with willy, it's never silly!". haha.

thursday went to studio wu for MTV and hip-hop. adrian is our MTV instructor. while choon hui is the hip-hop one. adrian is cute! haha. even my male dance mates say so too. i love ripples and adrian incorporated a few of that into the choreo. most importantly, i LOVE his warm-ups. it's not really tedious but it made all of us sweat like crap. my whole head was dripping sweat ok. i love that kinda feeling. not too tedious and yet sweat alot. haha. NICE! lol. choon hui's one is not bad but i dont really fancy that as much. however, choon hui is also cute (according to my dance mates-again) haha. and it's really enjoyable to be in her class. overall: i really enjoyed myself. (:

fri morning i brought JJ to the vet for a recheck. the vet says that i'm doing a good job in cleansing his wound and such. i will still put on the buster for him incase he goes pawing his scab again. hope he recovers fast!! then i went for dance in school again. this time, willy taught us the 2nd set of the choreo which is fantastic. the whole thing realy looks nice. goodness. i cant wait to dance that. (:

yst, went out with jk. it's his final bookout from tekong! yeah. his POP is in 3 days (: duno where will he be posted to after BMT. oh well... hahs. cant wait for his POP to end. yeah, i wana go amoy and have their fish beehoon and wan ton mee again. i miss it, since my working days there.... ohh... anyway, yst we went to orchard cine to eat the indon food again. i love it, seriously. the chilli is hot, the soup is sweet and the chicken the well-fried. YUM (: den jk had his hair cut EVENLY at fareast. after which we had desserts at cine again. den we went for a movie -quarantine.

the movie is gore. but i dont think it's THAT gore. the beginning is rather draggy which makes me quite sian. den the worst part came. they went into this condo? i think. yeah and the rest of the settings is set there and then. it makes you feel rather suffocated cos it's so dark. i felt like vomiting during the show, but i dont think it's because of the gore, it's becos of the food i ate. i think it's the dessert la. damn. jk thought tt i was referring to the kinda nausea due to the movie. i just couldn't wait for the movie to end so that i can rush to the toilet to throw up. finally, i was a merlion for 4 consecutive times in the toilet. damn. i swear i'm not gona eat that desserts again.

after the longest time ever, we finally decided to walk from orchard back to city hall, like what we always DID. lol. we were rather lazy recently. haha. den we went for our dinner at xin wang. i was perfectly fine after having their pork chop cheese baked spaghetti (: hahs i duno if it's how they call it. (:

tada... tt ends my events for the week.

-geez-

hey, today is a shag day for me. i have not been dancing for maybe 2wks or so? thanks to my cough and core throat. urgh. but today i finally got out of the house and started grooving again. i'm still coughing very badly but it's really bored at home. so went down and signed up for the package and started on the spot.

today we went for 2 classes. hip-hop and j/k pop. hip-hop's stretching was fantastic. i know i'm definitely gonna have muscle aches tml since i have not danced for so long... we did 5 sets of eights for hip-hop. den split into 3 groups. after which, we continued on to j/k pop where we danced to Rain's song which is in yr 2006. it is quite fast but fun cos there was the "oh yeah" and "baby" in it where our instructor says we have to put in the "feel". hahaha. it was enjoyable but i was dying due to my cough. LOL

tml i'm maybe just gg for gal's hip-hop though i aslo signed up for locking. i know locking and popping should be taken together but the 2 hours are right before gal's hip-hop so i dont think i can manage 3 straight hours considering my cough... maybe i'll just give locking a miss this week. then next wk, i shall take up all 3 popping, locking and gal's hip-hop. hees.

-shagged-

Yo, can't imagine how pissed off i sounded in my last post until i read it again. oh well... sudden burst of anger tt's why.

anyway, jk's back in camp again. i'm bored once again. during exams, i was always looking forward to the holidays and yet i dread it now. I am so bored that i'm rotting at home. i'm lazy to go out especially when go out=spending $$... however, gg out on saturdays is never a boredom. (:

this week is a little different cos we manage to go out on both fridays and saturdays. he finally booked out early! Fri we went orchard after a long time not being there. both of us had the crave for that indonesian food and so we went ahead to cine. after which, we just walked around and had a chill-out session at starbucks. Then, we went to esplanade for a little while before gg back.

as for yst, we had carl's jr for lunch. and we are amazed by the little appetite i have rite now. i really dont know what is wrong with me. i have no appetite at all. i can just forget about eating considering how bored i feel at home, tt's bad. even if i eat, i eat very little. for dinner, i will just have half a bowl of rice, which is totally contrary to what i usually eat. oh well, in the end i only ate half a burger and less than half of the chips i guess? the rest i gave him. he felt soooo bloated after that. one and a half carl's jr meal (large), how about that? haha. walked around still den had coffee at starbucks again. both of us are recently feeling shag to walk around, like we used to. we used to walk from chall to orchard and back if needed. recently, we're usually stagnant at one location and if we want to travel to orchard or cathay, we'll head for the train. i am so lazy now! after coffee, we went for kenny rogers and we shared a quarters meal. cos he was still bloated and i'm still not gaining my appetite. LOL. den off we go to esplanade and then raffles city sc. then. home sweet home...

i am still coughing coughing and coughing. damn. it's very irritating... mummy made some tonic drink for me just now, hopefully to cure my cough. maybe it's the cough that makes me not feel like eating cos there is just so limited stuff that i can eat. damn. initially i thought not eating much can be a blessing in disguise but then again, it's not healthy. but the problem is, i really don't know what I can eat and what i should eat! urgh. crap.

now, i'm just avoiding those unhealthy food so that my cough can get better. i can't touch my favourite chocolates! peiling bought some for me when she was in korea. mummy bought some cadbury ones for me when she was in m'sia. they're delicious and i can't touch them. and yst i saw some liquer chocolates at robinsons! i'm so gonna get them. they're those with whole cheery in it. damn. i just can't wait to get them. PLS! RECOVER!

anyway, here's some pictures we took yst (:




-praysss-

I'm just so fucking pissed, AGAIN! previously i did not mentioned anything about my childhood frens staying in my house i guess. now i shall talk about it, cos i'm really so pissed off. they're a family of 6, all the 4 kids are boys. the eldest older than me by 3, the 2nd as old as i am, the 3rd younger by 1, the youngest younger by 6. a few yrs ago the eldest one came to look for a job in singapore and he did. he was wise and move out to stay with his frens in a rented apartment after staying a few days at our house. things were good back then.

then, the 2nd one came. this time he stayed in our house thru'out his working period. early this year i think, but it was for a short while. he was here tgt with his fren whom i felt is okay to get along. then he went back after a month or 2. near the mid of the yr, he came again, this time alone, to look for a job again. he is still staying here, till january next yr. initially i thought he's fine since we went to their house and stayed there for a month or so before. but now i understand why even couples don't get along when they start to live tgt. moreover, he is just a childhood fren.

we save food for him so that he can have it when he returns from work. he comes home around 12 midnight and eats. but he doesn't bother to wash the dishes or even to simply put those meat back into the fridge so that we can still eat it on the next day. he just left it there to turn bad. i really dun understand what's so difficult for him just to do those simple chores. and i'm pissed off cos i'm usually the one clearing the turned-bad dishes. sometimes my mum does it, which makes me more pissed off. i don't even ask my mum yo wash my dishes. just who are you to cause my mum to do that?! at night, he watches the tv up till 3 plus or 4, increasing the vol to sky-high, not considering the fact tt my parents and us needs to sleep. sometimes when there is no dinner, he cooks instant noodles and doesn't bother to wash the wok and bowls he used. i'm really mad about it cos he stays here for free and you should at least do something to show your gratitude. i really dont understand why are there such thick-skinnned ppl ard!

then recently, the 3rd one came. i was too nice to him. i brought him out for kbox, buffet, lunch, dinner whatever shit. i paid. i lend him my psp to play sometimes, or most of the time actually. one day, he asked if he could bring his fren to stay for 1 night so tt the next morning his fren can move to a rented apartment with his another fren. my mum is fine w it and so he stayed. the next morning, his fren and him didn't wake up in time to move to the apartment as his another fren went out for work already. my mum was dumb enough to offer him to stay here. when i heard about it, i was fucking shocked and unhappy cos i dont like him at all! i dont want a stranger to stay in my house. we dont know him and we wun know what the hell he will do when we are all not at all. not that i wana suspect him, but we definitely have to be prepared for all this shit. and i dont feel comfortable at all when he's ard! he's such a braggart. and it is ridiculous cos he and my fren had to sleep in the living room. when he's not around, my fren joins my bros in their room. it's just so inconvenient to see a stranger in the living room when i go to the toilet in the middle of the night.

my fren pissed me off totally when my parents and youngest bro went to m'sia (his house). younger bro had to work, elder bro went out to celebrate his fren's bdae and i went out w jk. left with him and his fren at home. at tt time i do not have internet, just tt there is MSN. he tried signing in several times before and it failed. and he asked me on tt particular day if he could use my com. i replied him saying tt my com has no internet and there is no point using my com cos he cant sign into MSN anyway. and he used despite me telling him not to use it! i found out only when i reached home seeing that my com has restarted and was at the welcome screen asking for password. i was fucking pissed tt day seriously. my com is v prone to hanging tt's y i told him not to use too. and when he restarted the com, and he doesn't know my password, he should just turn off the com to save energy rite? no, he just left it there. like WTF! i told him off tt very night. and he dare not ask me if he can use it again. eventually, his parents got to know of his fren staying here and screwed him upside down cos they dont approve of him being frens with this guy. soon after, his fren moved out. at last!

2 days ago, the utility bill came. it was fucking shocking! usually it's around 300, the most 320bucks. this time, it's 493 excluding utilities save rebates. after the utilities save rebates, it's 433. fucking expensive. my dad asked me about it. i duno what to say. oh well... i was unhappy and told my fren yst tt they should stop watching tv till late at night. they do that everynight ok. goodness, and they on both lights in the living room duno for what fuck. and when i told my fren about the utility bill thing, he started telling me about my own family, teaching me how we should save elec. he says that we waste elec in whatever fuck ways. i was so freaking pissed off and told him str8 in the face that my family has been doing this ALL ALONG. he should get the message that i'm implying that his bro and him are the ones contributing to the 100+ ~ 200 increase in bill. the thing is that, they are staying here for free, and we are not asking them to pay the bills or whatsoever. i feel that there is a real need to tell them about it so that they can stop doing things tt wastes elec! they should be more automatic la. damn.

what's worse is tt, today the 3rd one went to meet his frens. just now when he was out, he called my mum and asked if his fren could stay here for a few days. and it's a gal. i was like WTF! one lesson learnt is not enough. his dad told him a hundred and one times not to bring any fren to stay in our house. apparently, something is really wrong with his ears. it's like hello, i have 3 bros. my parents and youngest bro squeeze in a room, my younger bro and the 2 of them in a room, my elder bro a room, and myself a room. if his fren comes, where the fuck will she be sleeping at? ppl with the right mind will know it must be my room. but no way man, really. he is out of his mind. what if she really stays here? where will she hang her undergarments? my room? your crazy. so what if she's gal? how the hell will you know if she's someone of good character? still, we have to be on guard against her.

the cycle goes again. and eventually my mum told him NO. even if my mum says yes, i will not agree. if i dont agree, no one can allow her to stay in my room, cos it's MY ROOM. my mum told my dad abt it, and my dad is damn pissed off. he is already pissed off by the utility bill thing and the 1st fren he brought here to stay. now this shit again. my dad was like :" just tell him to mind his own business first". he said it in a harsh tone. this is the first time i hear dad talked about our childhood frens in sucha harsh tone. i'm just pissed off and irritated tt he just cant think. i really duno where the fuck is his fucking brain. URGH. my mum den called him and told him again she disallows it. and say he's bo liao. LOL. i really think he is.

i feel so much better after blogging all this shit. this is a really long post. my long list of rants. damn. i'm thinking of ways to reject him when he asks for my psp. and of cos my com. he knows i'm pissed just by the look on my face. i hope he gets the message and stay away. tt's it.

-freaking pissed-

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dear all, i'm so freaking bored at home la.... grghhhh. can't find things to do actually. i think my cough and all came about due to insufficient sleep cos of late nights and stuff. and in the morning i just cant go to sleep any longer. therefore -> insufficient sleep, worsen the cough and sore throat. HOWEVER, i just took a nap from around 3 to 6plus. i felt refreshed after tt! and my cough has reduced by ALOT... previously i was coughing my lungs out. but now it's just once in awhile some sudden bolts of cough - i sound just like jk. LOL.

anyway, i brought JJ to the vet on tues. he is got ingrown nail and the nail grew straight into his flesh and it swelled. goodness me. i was so bad that he was standing on 3 feet. brought him to sunset way (mount pleasant) and the vet cut his nails and also cleansed the wound in his face due to the previous tooth extraction. it was so painful that both his eyes turned red from crying. and he was angry and bit the vet and the nurse. i do not dare to cut his nails cos i did it before and it bled. dont dare to do it again... i bought a cone thingie and secured around his neck so that he can't scratch his face and lick his foot pad on the affected areas, if not, it will not recover. and i'm glad i did so, cos it looks much better. (:

i am supposed to bring him back to check up again next friday so to ensure everything is fine. i hope and i think everything will be fine (:
anyway, thanks to mich, if not, i wouldn't be able to bring JJ to the vet. (:

-cough cough cough-

hey! the wireless connection is finally set up. oh well...... but i still do not have much to do at home. luckily jk is booking out early tml so we'll be gg out tml and sat as well. (:

anyway, i passed my BTT, which is the very first step to getting my license. gotten my PDL so now i'm licensed to learn driving. need to look for instructors to teach. hope i get one real soon. hope the rates are cheap as well. i just hope that things will go smoothly. booked my FTT on the 14th of January 2009. hees.

have been coughing like crap for the past 2 wks. damn, it really sucks. i just hope to recover soon. i even chose to stay at home today when there''s actually dance practice in school. thanks to my cough and sore throat. ... ...

-RECOVER pls!!!-

i've been gone for a long long time. haha, finally i'm back. i'll be online more frequent from now onwards i guess.

anyway, exam's over!! and i'm so freaking happy. LOL. i think i did well enough to pass AAB 102 however, 101 sucks. it's like crap. my goodness. i was cursing and swearing at the questions. nevertheless, everything's over! i just hope i can pass 101 and so i dont have to retake next time. shew... let's pray hard!

i'm signing up for a dance package in december at studio wu. it's unlimited! meaning i can attend the classes held there any day and any time i like. i can even go for all the classes they hold in a day as long as i have the stamina. hees. a good investment huh? haha.

baked cookies last fri - alot, and it was finished within 2 days. damn. i was craving for it when i opened the box and saw nothing left. oh well..... tt's the problem with brothers. geez. after being away for a long long time, i dont even know what to blog about. argh.

just some random thoughts. hmm. you know i thought i found a really close and good fren in secondary school during my last 2 yrs there. initially when we went separate ways to our pre-U, we still kept in contact and stuff like tat. after which, i tried keeping in contact with her but to no avail. i msged her but she didnt reply. i even wish her happy birthday when it's her birthday. it's really saddening because i really cherish her as a fren and i hope we can still be good friends after sec sch. i duno why didnt she reply me or even not take the effort to keep in contact with me. but till now, i still hope to meet her and catch up what we have done for this past 3 yrs since we left the sch. sigh.

on the other hand, my pri sch besties and i are still as good as before. just that we hardly get to meet up as we're all busy with our own stuff, studying or working. but whenever we meet, it's just like before, no change, the way we talk to one another is the same as well. and that really makes me happy. i just hope this will go on forever..... (:

as for love matters, i no longer want to give a damn as it's really really tiring and draining. sometimes i just hope we never knew, not that i regret knowing him, but it would really save alot of heartaches. i duno what will happen in the future and i really is afraid to face it. i duno if it will help when i stay by his side thoruout his two yrs. i really dont know. urgh. i just hope the ending will be something i can accept.

it's near the end for my A'lvl friends or some have already ended. good job guys!!! it has been a long way (:

-speechless-

it's been AGES...... since i blogged. LOL. haha.

sch has been rather busy for me. esp dance cos there was a performance on fri. so i practically danced on mon-fri. woots. but i like it. haha. another performance coming this thurs but i can't perform becos i have lecture! urgh. oh well. but i will still go dance later to help with the details and the formation cos nana's not gg.

as for sch work, i'm glad to say it's progressing well for me. AED 102 ppt is over. our tutor is glad enough with our work. (: and i'm proud to say that i have finished my AED 102 essay on sunday, which is due this coming fri. i'm so so so thankful that i didn't procrastinate and i started the research quite some time ago. yeah, so now i can totally focus on my aab 101 and 102 revision for exams. hees. happy.....

sch aside, it's been 2 wks plus since jk was enlisted. it's like FINALLY last fri was his book-out day. den we met on sat after the longest time ever. damn. i've nv not seen him for that long ok. but oh well, still have to go thru this. at least we spend some precious moments tgt on sat tt's good enough. den yst afternoon he booked in again. last night he called me and said we might not meet for quite awhile cos he will be booking out late and has less than a day of freedom! but that was what he heard so far, not really sure of it yet. SIGH. if what he told me really is the upcoming schedule for him, i can only see him after 3 wks, which is murderous for me. damn. the record will be once again broken. BOO~~~ i can't wait to see him again...

after talking to one of my fren, he has a somewhat similar situation as i am in. he said that if i really love him, i should be brave for him, i should continue to be there for him. becos that is what my fren will do, for the gal he loves. sigh. i guess looking at what i'm doing now, i'm already prepared to get hurt once again by him. i really duno what the future holds. i just hope everything will turn out fine. now i'm just reminding myself that he doesn't love me, no matter what he does to make me feel otherwise. i shan't be too hopeful once again.

-out of sorts-

(: hi, i have not blogged for quite some time huh? oh well...

i'm so freaking lazy and i don't know why this week seems so .... havoc. JASMINE IS TIRED!!! urgh. was rushing through the aed 105 essay and editing all that stuff. monday i didn't go for dance though it's carol's last session with us for the semester. but i'm kinda glad i didn't turn up because i went to meet him instead. we intended to meet on both mon and wed. but last minute he told me his dad took half day off on wed just to spend time with him. how sweet is that... so we didn't meet up on wed. i wasn't prepared for that at all seriously. we didn't even take photos together on monday. we forgot. damn. i'm so sad. BOO~ but mon was great. it was a great day for me.

things did not change surprisingly. we are still like before. just that, today's his enlistment day. that's why i'm so depressed that i couldn't meet him yesterday! but he did call me and stuff like that. at least it made me feel better. now he's already in tekong. wonder how is he doing now. and what he's doing now. i seriously miss him... i won't see him for 3 weeks!! not used to it at all, but i have no choice. i have never not seen him for so long. the longest is only around a week. damn. i'm now just looking forward to the day when he can finally book out! i bet i'll be so happy and excited. wonder if he will lose weight and become tanner or not. hope he looks the same. like he prefers too. (:

i must admit that recently i have been quite affected by him, the things he said the other time and stuff like that. but deep in my heart, i have already made a decision and i can feel the answer. it shall just go on like this. until then......

now, life w/o him. i have to study real hard. much much less msgs from him. much much less calls from him too. but he said he will call me whenever he's free. much much less meeting up with him also.): i must adapt soon!!!!

-i miss you sooooo much!-

hi! i'm feeling better after the past few days. anyway, i just went out with peiling and i bought lots of stuff. feeling guilty now!

just last night i bought 2 tops online from secretaisle.livejournal.com. it's launched by my frens. but i didn't buy it only becos they're my frens but becos i really like the designs. do show ur support too! (:

just now went to bugis and got a bag, big big one. so tt i can out alot of things. haha. den i bought 3 tees. "miss naughty", "ms whoops" and one that says "i love bad guys p.s. only if you're cute :p". haha. den i bought 3 pairs of earrings, one manchester united handphone strap. (: LOL. quite alot of stuff la.

maybe tt's how i make myself feel better. well, i wana get a com for myself when my pay comes in. LOL. now i'm using my bro's com la. zzz.

shall update again next time!

-i don't know-

i don't know why it hurts so badly this time. i guess i expected too much out of it. high hopes brings big disappointment. and here i am now, lost in the midst of nowhere. i can't blame him totally, cos we're both at fault. this is a nightmare and i wished i could wake up and forget about it totally.

i shall believe what he said and treasure this friendship. never in my life have i found someone like him. too close, too comfortable. tried letting go and even not being friends. but i just can't do it. i don't wana lose him too. and i really treasure him a lot too. no one can ever replace him in my heart. memories - no one can steal.

we'll try our best to make everything work out normal, like before, but tt'll def take time. at least i need time. i'll try my best to forget. and maybe 10 years down the road, i will be able to find someone who truly loves me for who i am.

now i really can't imagine life without you.

-you're irreplaceable-

what i feared most has happened. and i really can't take it. if only what had happened is a nightmare. at least, it's not true. i just want to hide forever. if i can choose not to meet anyone. not to face anyone. not to speak to anyone. i will gladly do so.

i guess. i'm just noe good enough. and i don't deserve happiness.

goodbye.

no matter what i do, it's never sufficient. maybe it's over-sufficient. i seemed too concerned, overly concerned. i can't feel enough reciprocal. maybe i'm expecting too much. maybe i should tell myself- tt's enough. i should practise saying good-bye, until the day comes...

still in a bad mood. Boo... ):

-i wana cry-

was supposed to go for medical check up today. but i slept super late last night and couldn't wake up early enough today. oh well, have decided to go tomorrow instead. and i feel rather disappointed that he can't accompany me there. sigh. but i can't blame him, he's not feeling well. i'm just feeling disappointed. and i kinda feel that he feel bad because he promised me he will accompany me there. just feel that, maybe afterall, he didn't even really want to go in the first place. i know i'm not being fair to him to say these. but i'm just saying how i feel. ):

thursday there will be educational psychology meeting at the national library. zzzz. bored to the core. i just don't like project work. you know?!?!?! damn. but anyway, at least my group members are all nice to get along with.

having thinking alot recently. maybe i should learnt to take things as it is, and not to be too serious at certain stuff, but get really serious when it comes to studies.

initially, i was rather confident that you actually like me. but as time passes, i realised that it might not be the case. maybe it's just reliance on your part. maybe you really do not have any feelings for me. or you thought you have. every single msg that you sent, i never ever deleted any of them. when i look thru them, i recall the journey, the events that happened.

i remembered you saying around a month or so, that you really don't know if you have feelings for me. i am very very disappointed and heartbroken. you mean, after all that has happened, you can't even figure out how you feel about me? maybe i'm just taken for granted, ya, again. i am always taken for granted. maybe i just don't deserve anyone's love. ):

if you could tell me str8 that you don't like me, i will gladly let go and walk away. it is unfair to me that we are so close and yet you refuse to say anything about it. you say you do think we look like an item. then? so? what are you going to do? nothing. so do you mean you like me? no, you didn't tell me anything. if you feel that being friends, and really plain friends is better, alright, we better not stay so close. we better keep a distance. but you asked me to not treat you differently, cos you're already used to me. does it mean again that you like me? or is it once again, over-reliance?

you said you feel that you care more now. what does it exactly mean? what if i take it as you do like me, and in the end, if that's not the case, then what am i going to do? i dare not ask you again if you have feelings for me. i'm afraid of the answer and i'm afraid you will give me ambiguous answers that will lead me to think of different possibilities again.

right now, i'm just treasuring the times i have with you. i will give you some time, secretly. in the midst of that, i'm already planning to leave. if by then you still can't do anything or give me an answer, i'm sorry, i'm leaving. you said you can't imagine life w/o me. i can tell you that, that applies to me as well. i really can't imagine how i will be like when i leave you. i will not be happy for sure... but i guess you will be fine. cos i'm just any other friend of urs. i'm nobody.

-the future is bleak-

i'm having mixed feelings yet again.

give me a sign, no, more signs. i don't know what the future holds.

am i taken for granted? or am i really needed? i don't know.

i just wana be there for as long as i could.

and maybe i should just leave one day.

uncertainty - yet again. feelings all too familiar.

maybe, to you, i'm just nobody. i don't know.

i don't know how to manage if one day ________ .

maybe i will grow stronger.

i don't know.

-emo-emo-emo-

hello! today is thurs - which is dance day! lol. today we'll be doing lyrical jazz. hees. mon's session was held by carol. it was freaking fun. and i can say that is my fav session of all. we did gals hiphop. fun. quite a number of guys joined us too. haha. we had to shake and butts and do krumping. and had to do alot of rolling of the bods. it was a pleasure to see the guys doing it too. they were to "emit the manly kinda sexiness" as said by carol. haha. did some combi then was showcasing time. carol took videos of it. wonder if we could get hold of it. lol

gg for sakae later! w yimin (confirmed). the rest maybe: felicia. chris. etc. don't know. haha. and tml is pay day! *grins (: gg to put my new debit card into good use. lol. they actually sent me a chq book. well, i don't see that i need it in anyway. lol.

now i'm hooked to this song by elva hsiao - chong dong. feel that it's v nice. and it kinda reflects my situation i guess? or my scenario is much more than what is meant in the song. lol. think this song is quite "old" already. hmm.

hope that i can save enough to get a new pc next month when i get my pay. hees. happy. then need to get new modem and printer! lol. nvm, can claim. haha. think i'll claim for the modem lo. since it will be more exp. gotta buy TBs also. for ed psy and bio. lol. haha. EXPENSIVE la. esp the bio one. geesh.

alright. today i'm gg to have my first test man. biodiversity - evo, classification, monera and protista. bleah. studied last night n made notes. duno how will i fare in the test la. think i might screw it up man. good luck to me!

- Chong dong- "bu que ding ni shu yu wo hui you dian ji mo"-

hi, one wk has passed so quickly! lol

have been busy with projs and stuff like that. tues we had our first proj done and over with!! and we've got an 'A+' for it!!!! yeah, i'm so freaking happy! haha. at least it's a big load off my mind now. lol. (:

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on the darker side...

sometimes i wonder am i thinking too much or what. cos like what he says, i'm quite unpredictable at times as i will be stormy out of a sudden. i really do not know what the hell is wrong with me. maybe, i'm just afraid?

we have progressed alot as compared to before. but whatever it is, we are still friends, just friends. i do not know if i should go on like this. sometimes i wish i could just walk away and just end everything like that. but in the first place, we are not even officially together, so what is there to end? but i just can't bear to do it. it will just hurt so much to do so. he is just irreplaceable and definitely unforgettable. i cant imagine life without him, too.

i duno what he wants out of this actually. could it be, he just want someone to be by his side, and that's all? he asks me to not treat him differently and he's already used to me. but i really duno how long this thing can just go on. i'm not sure if i can be so nice and always be there for him and yet not expect anything from him. i don't think i can be that noble. i must admit that, i really do want to be with him, officially. but i do not want to pressurise him and force him to pop that question or what. even at present, i don't even know how exactly he feels about me. he never mentioned it. he says he cant say anything much at the moment. i really don't know. he asked me to just look at the obvious. well, intuitively, i feel that he does like me. but i'm afraid. i'm scared that i might have gotten the wrong idea. so i do not want to think of it that way.

sometimes i wonder why he never popped that question.. i really can't figure out. i guess, because he is still not sure of his feelings or he doesn't like me? or what? maybe becos he's gg to ns so he might be afraid that i might forget about him when he's there? at least i know i won't. he's someone really special to me, that it will never happen that way. i guess maybe the other way round... maybe he'll be the one who forgets me and drifts away from me... sigh.

despite all that has happened between us, i do not know what the future holds. nobody does, anyway. maybe we might end up tgt? maybe i will be such a coward that i decide to back off and go into hiding? maybe he will just walk away one day? i do not know. and i'm afraid to face what's coming. 'cos i realised that i've fallen in love with him. i just can't seem to pull myself out of this. i'm stuck.

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that's the key chain i made for jk, and the one he made for me. he really used it as a "key"-chain while i use it as a "pencilcase"-chain. LOL. (:


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yst we went out tgt as a grp to celebrate xy's bdae! we had dinner at swensen's. (: nothing much to update about that though. jk n i shared a present for her. next up, pictures!



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oh ya! i forgot to update that i actually had an outing with my pri sch besties!! 3 of them (: it's such pleasure to know that though we have not met up for quite awhile, we are still v close. haha. all of us are still the same. the same old character. (: took alot of pics tat day. shall post some. (:




1st: me doing stupid faces while khim is singing and fiona joining me in the spastic act!
2nd: me and ying(bestest of my besties)
3rd: me and khim
4th: ying, fiona and i
5th: fiona and i
6th: 4 of us! L to R: fiona, ying, me and khim

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-it difficult to say "there's nothing between us"-

yst went to watch 4bia. quite scary la but some of the stories you wun understand how the person died. oh well.... lol

something bad happened yst. misunderstanding i guess... but eventually things got back to normal. i'm glad. i was happy in the end. ((:

i'm sorry tat i'm quite bad la. sorry...

-deeper and deeper-

hi, haven been updating my blog for a wk or so. have been rather busy in sch...

let's start from where i stopped. hmm...

22nd aug
met a few of them at jp during noon to acc some of them get some stuff like caps and pants etc. den went back to sch and practised dance at the theatre inside the student hub. and it was performance day! it was the first time for me, performing hip-hop. it has been a long long time since i performed and i really enjoyed myself that day. it was a good thing that it rained i guess. cos the stage is freaking small. therefore, we had to change the location due to inclement weather conditions. haha. it was a fantastic performance (: den we went off to jp and had kfc for dinner-supper.

23rd aug
i went out with jk and we had fish n co for lunch! nyfc-my fav! lol. for dinner we went to thai express. i'm totally not impressed with the food there. sigh. wrong choice, but a lesson learnt. oh well.. but anyway, we got to see the fireworks! unexpected though. haha. n i took a video of it. nice. (:

27th aug
after sch i acc-ed jk to repair his cock-up phone. guess what. the freaking store wasn't opened!!! lol. what a day they chose for teambuilding. sigh. but we went to have sakae sushi after that and walked ard orchard.

28th aug
it was the shaggiest day for me so far. damn. haha. it was learning fest and i signed up for house. house was tiring cos it involves ALOT of footwork and we had to jump, jump, jump, twist, twist twist, cross, cross, cross etc etc etc. lol! i cud feel the lactic acid building up in my calves. but it was really fun. after which i went to play bball - finally!! cos i havent been playing for ages. lol. after bball joc, queenie, ym n frens n i went to hall7 fxn hall for MJ audition. the steps are ok, but the song is fast so everything is fast. lol. anyway, we got numbered for the audition. B1-me, B2-yimin, B3- queenie, B4-jocelyn, C3-yong kai. i think i did rather badly during the audition. sigh. but i do hope that i can get into MJ. lol. after MJ, we quickly rushed back to nie to attend willy's class. i mentioned C3 becos he ended up following us to nie. and i feel that he is a very good dancer cos i managed to peep in when he was auditioning. lol. nice. anyway, when we stepped into the dance room, i saw them doing the steps, it was nice! lol. we quickly followed and surprisingly, we learnt it quite fast. lol. cool, we danced to purple line. nice song. (: after that, we had our own session-ing where we danced to party people, apologise, cant help but wait, etc etc. danced all the way up till ard 9. had dinner with a big grp of them and went home. (:

29th aug
as the previous day was too shag for me, i woke up late and forgot that i had proj meeting. lol!!! in the end i reached sch at 2plus so to attend the bio outing to spore botanical gardens. took 100 over pics and in the end, the bus didn't wait for us! so joc n i cabbed back to sch. now i realised, uni is so diff from last time. they dun even care abt us now. we have to take care of our own welfare.

ok, updating done! i really hope that i can get into MJ. shall wait for the results...

-anxious-

hey! had dance just now. quite tired man. today was a different kinda dance. it was lyrical hip-hop, which i like it very much! haha. we danced to "apologise" by Timbaland. that made me think of my ex who used to sing that song to me. oh well... lol. i felt happy cos carol actually pointed out that i can follow the beat well. hees :D

anyway, after that, we stayed behind to practise the steps for the performance. hope chai huat upload the video soon so i can take a closer look at how i dance. haha. tml will be another hardcore dancing i guess. will focus more on our coordination. hmm. can't wait for fri's performance!

isn't feeling well recently. sigh. it's like i can just sit there and suddenly feel very giddy and a source of energy flowing up towards my head and spinning.... and my body starts to turn cold. really don't know why i wud feel this way. sigh. what the hell is wrong with me?

gotta have enough rest man. urgh. meeting jk on sat, must be in tip-top condition!

-dance-

hey. today my bed frame arrived. like FINALLY! lol. but have to wait for the person to come to fix the frame la. lol

anyway, yst's dance was shag i guess. willy taught us the full steps la. den we stayed back to practise till 9. was very tired. haha. only managed to have my dinner at 10plus. well, for the performance, i'm very glad tt the things willy want, i have it all except the white cap. lol. i still prefer my black bling cap. haha. i think i have to put in more power in my steps to make it better.good to see that everyone is so enthu about the performance and trying to find common slots to practise our steps. (:

yst i went to look for jk for lunch la. den kv was oic. can strongly sense that kv wasn't in a good mood yst. they're understaffed and these recent batch of temps have been giving them much of a problem. well, jk is also very sian that he's always so unlucky and he's always being marked by him. sigh. just hope that things turn out better for them at work. i dont exactly know what to say as well.

today wanted to pract dance again but i cant make it becos of my bed. haha. lol. but anyway, there's dance tml, thurs and fri. lol. tml will be carol's session and after which will be our own performance pract. thurs will be willy's and then our rehearsal. fri, the performance. how i wish jk can come and watch!!! lol. if only....

gotta go! looking for food... i'm hungry!

-new fantasies-

hi! i'm back from my dance session. hees. love to sweat it all out while dancing. well, i'm glad i tried hiphop, which is new to me as i can learn diff genres ya. tml gg for dance again. gonna practise choreo for next wk's performance. excited!! it's been sooooo freaking long since i performed! really miss it alot. (:

has been talking to jk like every night since duno when, but we never seem to be short of topics to talk about. that's a good thing. haha. lol. funny to listen to him rant sometimes, and tell me about work etc. things really changed since my batch left i guess. oh well...

today i had 3 freaking hours of edu psy. like... wth... so boring and it's hypnotising except the clips part. hahaha. lol. but i got thru it! *claps..... lol. had lunch tgt with penny and pam den went lib up till 5plus. met gina, hannah and yimin after tt. den kelvin joined us for awhile and we had to go for dance. the pace was faster than the intro class la, but it's fun. haha. less ppl as well. less than 30 of us. guess the other 30 will be attending tml's session. hmm. stayed behind for awhile after tt to practise some moves. and now i'm back! lol

waiting for the olympics highlights. hees. i dun really know why i feel so tired. cud it be becos i'm ill? i sleep around 12plus and i wake up around 9. enough sleep right? but i just feel so lethargic. urgh. anyway, wana get more pants and clothes esp from topshop. wonder when the sales end. hmm. alright, gtg!

-happy, contented-

it was a long wkend for me. fri was nat day celebration, sat, sun, then mon was sch holiday.

fri was the runway show thing. our team didn't get into the finals but what's most impt is the teamwork that we have put together during the course of making the costume. (:

yimin n i want to perform during the director's relay next fri. and i've already emailed the exco. they welcome me to join them despite my concerns! i'm so happy. lol. as for yimin, she's in man, like duh.. she has hiphop background. hees. so cool.

sat went to city hall had lunch at carls with jk. then went fort canning. duno wat is there and duno what's the history behind that. LOL. den went towards the floating platform. there was ALOT of ppl man. city link mall was soooooooooo packed. goodness me. had kenny rogers for dinner, still love the cheese marcaroni. (:

when gg home, there was this bunch of trying-to-be-cool-but-idiotic guys who cudn't stand waiting for their turn to ride the escalator and they started running up the down-riding escalator. one tripped but luckily din fall n roll down. some ppl were cheering there la. what the...

sun was just an ordinary day at home, nothing much...

yst met 5 of my og mates for our so called og outing. lol. it became a clique outing i guess. haha. went to get our movie tics and had fish n co for lunch. i love new york f&c and esp the mussels. my goodness. freaking nice. had cranberry with sprite too. nice. it was a rather hearty meal for me at f&c yst. hahs. watched money not enough 2. it was funny and rather touching. it's a good show to catch. hmm. after which, we walked aroungd quite aimlessly but i got myself a pair of pants from topshop. can wear for dance. hees. then we went raffles city shopping centre and had ice-cream there.

jk met me there and then we left for dinner at xingwang. the food there is nice and the service is good. (: yummy. den we walked to the singapore flyer there to take a look. nothing nuch, not much ppl. business there is bleak. hmm. but i'm gg to take the singapore flyer one day.

gg to sch soon. sian. i'm just looking forward to wed n thur. dance! :D

-i'm glad i met you-

hi! today is 080808! 8th aug 2008! (:

today was the proj runway NIE thing. it was a fun experience definitely but it was just blardy hot. haha.

anyway, i went for the dancefuzion session on wed and i enjoyed myself. would really love to go again next wk. i guess i'll be gg for both weds and thurs. yimin and i want to perform for the director's relay! for yimin, i think no prob la, cos she has hiphop background. but i do not have hiphop background! and the performance is like 2 wks away. well well, i really do hope that i can perform but tt depends on how fast i can learn. i've already sent an email to ask abt it and i'm waiting for their reply. hees.

as for academic wise, i seriously love bio lects. hahaha. i begin to love evo more when i'm exposed to the biodiversity course. besides that was the cell structure one. i still love it as much. and i realised how impt it is to have chem background. it's like.. knowing the chemistry behind biology. LOL ! cos they actually talked abt the bonding part, the alpha (1->4) glycosidic bond and stuff like that. it kinda go more in depth to how the bonding occurs and stuff like tt. there was a lect mate of mine sitting beside me and was quite lost cos she didn't have much of chem knowledge. nevertheless, i tried explaining to her how it goes la. hope she understands. (: becos of that. i got to know a new fren! she'll be calling me to ask if she's in doubt.

now i realised how impt chem is, though i HATE it sooooooo much. it really helps man. thank god. haha.

alright, gg out with jk tml! like finally la, after one week plus. since my bdae. lol. hees. gtg!

-deep in my heart-

hi! i just came back from sch. today i finally started lessons. haha. first was on the philosophical stuff abt education. that one didn't really interest me, but the tutor is very funny. hahaha. anyway, time is really packed. we have to conduct student-led tutorials pretty soon. n we're the first team to go. we have like around 2wks plus to get things ready? plus i have the runway show and director's relay stuff gg on. sch will be quite a havoc. but i'm looking forward to the dance session tml. hees.

up next was the bio lect. yeah, i love it. i realised i still love bio as much. today was abt cell structure and function, which was more of a recap of JC work i guess. as in so far la. i enjoyed the lecture. well, i hope further bio lects will be like this as well. hees.

-heard you, my dear-

today is monday, school officially starts! lol.. was looking forward to this but when sch really starts, i feel rather sian about it. well well, school will still start anyway. lol.

alright, let's start from monday 28th jul then. that was the first day of my orientation camp. hmm. got to know my OG mates and had some station games. had to pay for our own lunch and at night was the fright night prog. it was freaking scary. lol... we had to go in groups of 4, into the nanyang playhouse. i must commend those ppl organising this. the settings, the make-up etc, were all well done. hahs. in my grp was pam, pat, krys and i. all of us were very scared. until we went in. hmm. ok. i must say that was the first time i really pluck up my courage to walk into some "haunted house". all of us were struggling to get to the "backstage" where the "ppl" are combing their hair and putting on make-up. we were all hugging each other. LOL!!

suddenly this freaking lady screamed at us to take the baby doll in her hand. i took it. oh man, i guess the most terrifying part of the fright night was the toilet. damn it. they only allowed one of us to go in. and i went in. -.-'' there were "ppl" sitting on the sink and i had to go to the other side of the partition. damn, there was one of them sitting on the floor below the shower, with light beaming from the pendant she was wearing. i was to pass her the doll and she will thne tell me where is the clue. after i took the clue, she screamed at me "get out"! what the fcuk. i jumped. -.-"

when we went out of the playhouse, i realised there were "bloodstains" on my shirt that i duno when i actually got that. and my arms were red, due to the few of them grabbing on to my arm TIGHTLY. lol. before we went in, pam seems the one who's most afraid. but during the course, she was the one warning us where the "ppl" were standing at incase they try to scare us. i guess both of us were the slightly more daring ones. haha. LOL.

after the fright night we went for our shower, FINALLY. lol. i bet we stank. haha. den we had OG bonding for freaking long, up till 2plus. damn it. i never went for a camp tt lights out at so late! i was freezing during the 1st night man. was awaken every half an hour. morning had to wake up like so early too. went for our amazing race. back to town area, to esplanade etc etc, the place where he n i love most. LOL. -.-" oh man, i rmb our og had to do pole-dancing at the esplanade entrance. so embarrassing. haha, and my face was burnt due to the amazing race.

went back and had buffet dinner. good, at least better than the previous dinner. SUCKS. ... ... after dinner we quickly went back to get ready for the advertisement and also the mascot. haa.. i think out advertisement was good. infact, all olympian's advertisement were good. haha. as for the mascot, we dressed idzan up as poseidon. though he didn't win the best camper award, we are still very proud of him! the whole event ended near 3. then, we went bathing. only around 4 then we get to sleep. shag... 6plus wake up. urgh.

3rd day, we had "high tea" for breakfast. hahas. but due to our family being the last one to get food, i only manage to get bee hoon and one pathetic soon kueh. then i looked ard and saw other tables with chicken wings n whatsoever. i was like 'what the fuck?' urgh. it sucks really.. finally we went to sports hall for the prize presentation. and our og got 3rd! yeah. haha, didn't expect it at all. lol. haha. and after which, we went home. hees.

slept for 1hour den went to meet him. it was my bdae! 30th! happy bdae to me. oh ya. i was made to do the chicken dance infront of everyone when my og sang the bdae song to me. hahas. anyway, met him at city hall, shagged. didn't realise he was there until he touched my head. went to kenny rogers for dinner then went to our fav hangout. hees, it was an unforgettable bdae for me. (:

thurs went to meet him again for lunch. how i craved for sliced fish beehoon. that poor guy was sweating like mad as the weather was really hot. then, went to meet my GESL mates for the runway show. finished the poster then idzham drove sam, nisa n i to get the poster done then he drove all of us back. thanks! lol.

fri went to sch for the freshmen welcome ceremony. hmm, quite grand. had to wear the academic robe. had freebies like windbreaker, drink, torchlight, organiser. after which, we had buffet. then went with some GESL mates to get the poster pasted. checked out my time table and then went back for another welcome ceremony. haha. then saw dancefuzion's performance. not bad, i will go for their trg session coming wed. hees.

just now went to sch to get some textbooks and notes. so sian, see so many ppl in school and the weather is so hot.... it's killing me. urgh. sch for me tml! wonder how my classmates will be like. wish me luck! (:

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