i don't know why it hurts so badly this time. i guess i expected too much out of it. high hopes brings big disappointment. and here i am now, lost in the midst of nowhere. i can't blame him totally, cos we're both at fault. this is a nightmare and i wished i could wake up and forget about it totally.

i shall believe what he said and treasure this friendship. never in my life have i found someone like him. too close, too comfortable. tried letting go and even not being friends. but i just can't do it. i don't wana lose him too. and i really treasure him a lot too. no one can ever replace him in my heart. memories - no one can steal.

we'll try our best to make everything work out normal, like before, but tt'll def take time. at least i need time. i'll try my best to forget. and maybe 10 years down the road, i will be able to find someone who truly loves me for who i am.

now i really can't imagine life without you.

-you're irreplaceable-