hi. today is a tiring day man.
went to NIE just now for registration. the queue is fcuking LOOOONNNNGGG. LOL. well, eventually i got my stuff all done. (:
hmm. i was attracted by the dance fuzion club. could be due to my passion for dancing. have been wanting to join when i was in JC. but just couldn't have enough confidence to do so. well, now i guess i should go all out to do something tt i like! yeah (:
feel like watching the dark knight tml. jk is gg lunch with them leh. i duno if i should join them.. all so rich, what if they want to eat ex food? i don't think i can afford lo. zzzz... what if they say they wana watch movie too? tt'll be super sian.. damn.
cant imagine school's gonna start pretty soon - next wed. sigh. i won't have enough time to meet up with him man. :'( what if we drift apart, even before he goes NS, that'll be really bad. oh well.....
anyway, yst i finally met up with joy and mich!! :D super duper happy. all still the same. joy still so blur la. haha. we went billy bombers and shared 2 mian course. thank you mich for treating!! (: after which, we went to have my fav chocolate fondue!! hees. joy ordered waffle too. man, i love the waffle. it's freaking delicious! yum yum. :p then, we headed home to rest. haha.
to mich : no matter what decisions you've made, or you are gg to make, i'll still support you cos you're my fren. fret not. (:
-tiring wk-
Friday, July 18, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Jason Mraz Lyrics
I'm yours Lyrics
saw these on the web, the heart one is rather girly but the one on top contains only the 1st verse. well, i love this song! (:
hi!
have been waking up early these few days. LOL. have been listening to the song "i'm yours" by Jason Mraz. i think it's quite nice la. haha. hmm.
anyway, gg to meet mich n joy tml - FINALLY! i have not seen joy for a super long time. the last time was in school la! my goodness! LOL .. mich - last time was with vinleon. lol. few months back la. haha. still very long lo!!!
tml gg ktv w mummy first den will meet them. thinking of gg swiming tml morning or fri morning. lol. something good abt quitting the job is that i have lots of free time now, i can go swimming, slack at home, i can even have the time to cook for my family. LOL. but i miss working. too used to it, too fast. nowadays i stil wake up super early... like 5plus or 6, too used to waking up at that time for work. LOL. i miss his massage man, and i need it now. haven been sleeping well... shoulders feeling kinda sore, neck stiff. lol...
fri gg NIE, sat nothing on for the moment. hmm ... no money also lol! haven submit timesheets la. hmm. have to pay 20bucks for the orientation camp also man. urgh. geez. i just wonder how sch will be like.. hmm. mich is gona stay at the hostel. means we can play mj easily! lol. since sch is so near my house. LOL !!
hmm. mich, joy and i shared a present for cheryl and on sat i already went to singpost to make the arrangements. LOL. duno if she has already received it. hmm ...
jk just called and told me some stuff regarding work. sigh. duno what to say actually. no matter what, i'll still be on his side and support him. (:
-miss you much-
have been waking up early these few days. LOL. have been listening to the song "i'm yours" by Jason Mraz. i think it's quite nice la. haha. hmm.
anyway, gg to meet mich n joy tml - FINALLY! i have not seen joy for a super long time. the last time was in school la! my goodness! LOL .. mich - last time was with vinleon. lol. few months back la. haha. still very long lo!!!
tml gg ktv w mummy first den will meet them. thinking of gg swiming tml morning or fri morning. lol. something good abt quitting the job is that i have lots of free time now, i can go swimming, slack at home, i can even have the time to cook for my family. LOL. but i miss working. too used to it, too fast. nowadays i stil wake up super early... like 5plus or 6, too used to waking up at that time for work. LOL. i miss his massage man, and i need it now. haven been sleeping well... shoulders feeling kinda sore, neck stiff. lol...
fri gg NIE, sat nothing on for the moment. hmm ... no money also lol! haven submit timesheets la. hmm. have to pay 20bucks for the orientation camp also man. urgh. geez. i just wonder how sch will be like.. hmm. mich is gona stay at the hostel. means we can play mj easily! lol. since sch is so near my house. LOL !!
hmm. mich, joy and i shared a present for cheryl and on sat i already went to singpost to make the arrangements. LOL. duno if she has already received it. hmm ...
jk just called and told me some stuff regarding work. sigh. duno what to say actually. no matter what, i'll still be on his side and support him. (:
-miss you much-
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
hi, time for some pics... LOL. the 1st one is jk n i, all pics all taken at UOB building there. LOL. so dark huh? can't really see the face. haha.
yst went back office to return the pass and also to submit the timesheets, but jean is on leave! ): sigh. next monday gg again. to take my timesheet and also to meet them for dinner. Jameson is treating me! FINALLY. it was supposed to be a treat when he get his GD from the government. and it was delayed until now when GST is already given. LOL!!
after tt, went dinner with jk and walked to raffles... EVERYTIME, w/o fail, when i go out with him, we'll definitely have to walk a LOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNGGGGGGG dist. LOL!!! sigh sigh. time flies !!!!
abit sian at home. don't really noe what to do la. have been working for 8 months then suddenly i revert back to the slacking life ..... LOL... gona cook for my family today, like after so long la. i like cooking but i just hate clearing and washing the dishes. lol.
hope sch starts real soon - next weds - orientation will start. gotta go camp, abit sian about it lor.but i need to mend my broken heart. sigh...
-boredom-
Monday, July 14, 2008
sorry mich. didn't wana do the tagged thingie. LOL
i finally quitted my job. FINALLY. but i'll miss him. and not only him, definitely jean n kv esp. just one month, and we have grown so close... he said i put colours into his life.. was something that i felt very touched when i heard.
he'll be gg NS soon and for me, sch is starting on the 23rd. very fast. i would, of cos, hope to meet up with him frequently but i'm not sure if time allows us to do so. maybe it was the reliance he had on me that made us grew so close tgt. but on my part, it wasnt reliance on him. or maybe so too. i duno. like he said, it wasn't my best at that moment. maybe that's the reason. maybe he will forget me one day, i duno. but i'll definitely rmb him. cos i've nv had such a great guy friend. he is the closest guy fren i had, ever.
on my last day, it was his off-day. was rather ok at work. jean n kv surprised me by preparing gifts for minmin and i. they got a sportswear for me and jean got 2 OPI nailpolish for me for my upcoming bdae. guess it'll be a hectic month for me. jiewei and connie got siew mais for us. before i go, i hugged jean and ended up crying, so emo. my goodness. i guess it was due to the friendships that we built over there.
he said he wants to go out on the weekend of my bdae wk. most prob to celebrate my belated bdae i guess. my orientation camp ends on the 30th exactly. think i'll be to shag to celebrate my bdae. sad-ded. LOL. he says he's got some personal present for me. i really can't put a finger on it. LOL .....
anyway, i went swimming today!! happy . hees... gg to office later to return pass and then most prob gg dinner w him.. it'll be my official day that i leave and not see him for awhile. sigh.... work really makes ppl bond very well and yet alot of conflicts arises at the same time. guess it was becos we were tgt thru'out office hours and saturday after work, we were still hanging out tgt. of cos he spent the most time w me la. LOL....
can't wait for school to start. i wonder how it will be like ..... HMM .....
-i'll miss you-
i finally quitted my job. FINALLY. but i'll miss him. and not only him, definitely jean n kv esp. just one month, and we have grown so close... he said i put colours into his life.. was something that i felt very touched when i heard.
he'll be gg NS soon and for me, sch is starting on the 23rd. very fast. i would, of cos, hope to meet up with him frequently but i'm not sure if time allows us to do so. maybe it was the reliance he had on me that made us grew so close tgt. but on my part, it wasnt reliance on him. or maybe so too. i duno. like he said, it wasn't my best at that moment. maybe that's the reason. maybe he will forget me one day, i duno. but i'll definitely rmb him. cos i've nv had such a great guy friend. he is the closest guy fren i had, ever.
on my last day, it was his off-day. was rather ok at work. jean n kv surprised me by preparing gifts for minmin and i. they got a sportswear for me and jean got 2 OPI nailpolish for me for my upcoming bdae. guess it'll be a hectic month for me. jiewei and connie got siew mais for us. before i go, i hugged jean and ended up crying, so emo. my goodness. i guess it was due to the friendships that we built over there.
he said he wants to go out on the weekend of my bdae wk. most prob to celebrate my belated bdae i guess. my orientation camp ends on the 30th exactly. think i'll be to shag to celebrate my bdae. sad-ded. LOL. he says he's got some personal present for me. i really can't put a finger on it. LOL .....
anyway, i went swimming today!! happy . hees... gg to office later to return pass and then most prob gg dinner w him.. it'll be my official day that i leave and not see him for awhile. sigh.... work really makes ppl bond very well and yet alot of conflicts arises at the same time. guess it was becos we were tgt thru'out office hours and saturday after work, we were still hanging out tgt. of cos he spent the most time w me la. LOL....
can't wait for school to start. i wonder how it will be like ..... HMM .....
-i'll miss you-
Sunday, June 29, 2008
time flies!
it's another 18 working days to the end of my stay in the company! seriously i can't wait to leave cos i can't wait to start studying again! went 1st round shopping for stationery few wks ago. gg for the 2nd round soon! hees. so excited. (:
good news! i don't have to teach Chinese Language cos i managed to switch courses. instead of BA Chinese Lang, now it's BSc General, which is sciences, most prob math or sci. :D
duno what's wrong with me recently cos i have been emo-ing here and there, for no reason. moody moody moody. could be because of the coming tsunami i guess. hmm.
2wks plus passed so quickly and minmin is back from tw and coming back to work on mon! i'm so happy cos i've not seen her for freaking long la. during these two wks, alot of things happened. well, like it's unbelievable how close jk n i grew in just these 2 wks. but we agreed that we're just friends. yup. i thought he was too reliant on me though. maybe cos i was the one who trained him when he 1st came in. oh well...
i have to spend alot of money... i have to get a new pumps and i'm planning to save up for a laptop. sony vaio maybe? have been checking out on it recently. it kinda attracts me. hahs. next fri gg out for buffet!! hees, it's to celebrate the winning of the skit competition. yeah!!! sigh, but alyssa can't make it. hmm ... next sat most prob gg out for singing session also. wow, gona spend alot for the coming wk man, though we do not have to pay for the buffet la. hees.
duno why i'm like feeling freaking tired recently. i slept at abt 10pm and woke up around 5.45am. i didn't used to feel so tired leh. why man...
oh sudden craving.... yst went esplanade w jk and walked past the chocolate shop where that bastard brought me before. when i get my pay, i'm so gg to go there for the fondue again. man, it's delicious! hees. :D and i crave for the shihlin XXL chicken. yst jk just ate it infront of me. oh well, i just didn't feel like eating it yst but i'm craving for it now! goodness.........
alright, i'm looking forward to work tml as minmin is coming back and jk said that he will be early!!! hope he wouldn't disappoint me too! (:
-18working days left (:-
it's another 18 working days to the end of my stay in the company! seriously i can't wait to leave cos i can't wait to start studying again! went 1st round shopping for stationery few wks ago. gg for the 2nd round soon! hees. so excited. (:
good news! i don't have to teach Chinese Language cos i managed to switch courses. instead of BA Chinese Lang, now it's BSc General, which is sciences, most prob math or sci. :D
duno what's wrong with me recently cos i have been emo-ing here and there, for no reason. moody moody moody. could be because of the coming tsunami i guess. hmm.
2wks plus passed so quickly and minmin is back from tw and coming back to work on mon! i'm so happy cos i've not seen her for freaking long la. during these two wks, alot of things happened. well, like it's unbelievable how close jk n i grew in just these 2 wks. but we agreed that we're just friends. yup. i thought he was too reliant on me though. maybe cos i was the one who trained him when he 1st came in. oh well...
i have to spend alot of money... i have to get a new pumps and i'm planning to save up for a laptop. sony vaio maybe? have been checking out on it recently. it kinda attracts me. hahs. next fri gg out for buffet!! hees, it's to celebrate the winning of the skit competition. yeah!!! sigh, but alyssa can't make it. hmm ... next sat most prob gg out for singing session also. wow, gona spend alot for the coming wk man, though we do not have to pay for the buffet la. hees.
duno why i'm like feeling freaking tired recently. i slept at abt 10pm and woke up around 5.45am. i didn't used to feel so tired leh. why man...
oh sudden craving.... yst went esplanade w jk and walked past the chocolate shop where that bastard brought me before. when i get my pay, i'm so gg to go there for the fondue again. man, it's delicious! hees. :D and i crave for the shihlin XXL chicken. yst jk just ate it infront of me. oh well, i just didn't feel like eating it yst but i'm craving for it now! goodness.........
alright, i'm looking forward to work tml as minmin is coming back and jk said that he will be early!!! hope he wouldn't disappoint me too! (:
-18working days left (:-
Sunday, June 22, 2008
has been away for a long time. LOL. i mean away from blogging. as for the past incidents, i have already done what i think is necessary and now i do not have to worry about anything. the rest is up to them. (:
anyway. updates at work : alyssa and melissa have already left the job for studies. and jameson is back to replace them. there's this new guy, jiew kwang, also to replace them. however, jameson is working only till end of july while jiew kwang is up till sept. it's already the 22nd of June. time flies. 30th is Darrell's last day, followed by adiba, di yong and nilo whose last day is on the 5th of July. most prob 3 temps will be coming in to replace them and minmin and i will have to train them. jk will be left stranded. haha! LOL.
coming 12th of July will be chen boon's last day, followed by minmin and i, on the 19th of july. really really fast. look, i've already worked there for about 7 months plus!! and now i'm like, less than a month to my last day? some things are worth remember while some are not. people like kv, jean, bk, kes etc etc, will definitely be worth remembering. the list goes on. infact i'm glad i've built up quite a good relationship with most of the people there, and i hope to leave that bastard out of the pic.
for the last 2 wks i've been busy with the department's skit performance, which will be something i will always remember even after i leave the board. i also don't know why i was involved. haha. but anyway, i guess it started when Irene asked me to help her with some thunder lightning stuff and also alyssa, for the taxi. haha. OT for 2 to 3 days. went shopping for prop materials with jean, then stayed back after work with the rest of the csos involved to prepare those props. but most importantly, we must thank alyssa for the BIG taxi. hees.
joined them for their rehearsals and stuff like that. was a totally enriching experience. they just can't fail to make me laugh! Irene and Carol especially. LOL.. Anna has a good voice! i only realised it like during the skit rehearsals! it was fun that the CMs also joined us in the skit. i was only supposed to help out, den i ended up being a customer as well as the fairy that sprays water on the casts. Irene is so cute. she bought me wings to wear when i appear to spray them water!! my goodness, she's very funny. jean was in-charge of the slides, bk the narrator, yati, irene and carol the main casts, violet, anna, wei haur, both mr ngs, mrs koh were the rest of the casts, and kate, the other singer other than anna.
we finally put up the performance on fri at dbs auditorium. there was a lil crop ups here and there back stage. hees. like i forgot exit from the correct side so to facilitate spraying of water onto yati. haha. nevertheless, the main judge was impressed with our performance, all thanks to the high entertainment value of Jack n Rose aka the Hsiens and undoubtedly, the "no wrong door policy", we clinched the first prize of $1000 !! we were DAMN happy you bet. kept screaming on and on. cheering on and on... haha. i will never forget this. (:
back to work, i guess it was because i was the one training jk when he came in to work, tt's y he's closer to me as compared to others. mayb it's because the rest are more mandarin-speaking and jk doesn't speak much mandarin. as for me, i'm ok with both. well, yst we went out. and that crazy guy brought me from city hall to orchard by foot! haha. it was quite a long stretch. what i can rmb is that we walked past grand cathay. LOL. thinking back, what he said is right la. should try walking more so i can recognise more streets and stuff like that. i'm quite a mountain turtle. i always follow blindly behind ppl so usually i do not know how to lead the way. LOL. it was like an excursion? i think so la. we went to this certain cafe at paragon. wa lau the egg salad, i think cmi la. but we just wanted a place to rest so we chill out over there lo. told him abit about the bastard. yup. sigh.
tt bastard is getting from bad to worse. just can't stand him. NONSENSE SHIT.
-unforgettable-
anyway. updates at work : alyssa and melissa have already left the job for studies. and jameson is back to replace them. there's this new guy, jiew kwang, also to replace them. however, jameson is working only till end of july while jiew kwang is up till sept. it's already the 22nd of June. time flies. 30th is Darrell's last day, followed by adiba, di yong and nilo whose last day is on the 5th of July. most prob 3 temps will be coming in to replace them and minmin and i will have to train them. jk will be left stranded. haha! LOL.
coming 12th of July will be chen boon's last day, followed by minmin and i, on the 19th of july. really really fast. look, i've already worked there for about 7 months plus!! and now i'm like, less than a month to my last day? some things are worth remember while some are not. people like kv, jean, bk, kes etc etc, will definitely be worth remembering. the list goes on. infact i'm glad i've built up quite a good relationship with most of the people there, and i hope to leave that bastard out of the pic.
for the last 2 wks i've been busy with the department's skit performance, which will be something i will always remember even after i leave the board. i also don't know why i was involved. haha. but anyway, i guess it started when Irene asked me to help her with some thunder lightning stuff and also alyssa, for the taxi. haha. OT for 2 to 3 days. went shopping for prop materials with jean, then stayed back after work with the rest of the csos involved to prepare those props. but most importantly, we must thank alyssa for the BIG taxi. hees.
joined them for their rehearsals and stuff like that. was a totally enriching experience. they just can't fail to make me laugh! Irene and Carol especially. LOL.. Anna has a good voice! i only realised it like during the skit rehearsals! it was fun that the CMs also joined us in the skit. i was only supposed to help out, den i ended up being a customer as well as the fairy that sprays water on the casts. Irene is so cute. she bought me wings to wear when i appear to spray them water!! my goodness, she's very funny. jean was in-charge of the slides, bk the narrator, yati, irene and carol the main casts, violet, anna, wei haur, both mr ngs, mrs koh were the rest of the casts, and kate, the other singer other than anna.
we finally put up the performance on fri at dbs auditorium. there was a lil crop ups here and there back stage. hees. like i forgot exit from the correct side so to facilitate spraying of water onto yati. haha. nevertheless, the main judge was impressed with our performance, all thanks to the high entertainment value of Jack n Rose aka the Hsiens and undoubtedly, the "no wrong door policy", we clinched the first prize of $1000 !! we were DAMN happy you bet. kept screaming on and on. cheering on and on... haha. i will never forget this. (:
back to work, i guess it was because i was the one training jk when he came in to work, tt's y he's closer to me as compared to others. mayb it's because the rest are more mandarin-speaking and jk doesn't speak much mandarin. as for me, i'm ok with both. well, yst we went out. and that crazy guy brought me from city hall to orchard by foot! haha. it was quite a long stretch. what i can rmb is that we walked past grand cathay. LOL. thinking back, what he said is right la. should try walking more so i can recognise more streets and stuff like that. i'm quite a mountain turtle. i always follow blindly behind ppl so usually i do not know how to lead the way. LOL. it was like an excursion? i think so la. we went to this certain cafe at paragon. wa lau the egg salad, i think cmi la. but we just wanted a place to rest so we chill out over there lo. told him abit about the bastard. yup. sigh.
tt bastard is getting from bad to worse. just can't stand him. NONSENSE SHIT.
-unforgettable-
Sunday, June 08, 2008
hi.
feeling very depressed again... ):
yst faz came to look for us and he, pm n i went PS to SHOP. actually i was the one who did the most shopping. goodness me, i spent 300++bucks!! i bought a NB running shoes, DMK heels, a DVD player, 3 or 4 DVDs, and some ling ling long long at action city, of which, the bread is the most interesting thing!! haha, there's this fake bread thing on sale at action city, 4.95 for one. it's actually a stress ball cum wrist rest. i bought 2, one for jean since she's so stressed. it looks and smells exactly like a bread! i successfully tricked my bros using that. haha. LOL.
on the depressing side: well, faz didn't ask us anything regarding us. hmm, i duno. it should be a good thing that he didn't ask. don't want to continue bad-mouthing them and worse still, i do not want him to feel sad that we have become like that.
meeting fazil really reminds me of the times when hid and liyana were here. i can't imagine how sad liyana will feel when she gets back from germany. sigh. thinking back, although they are in the wrong for skiving and all that, we are also in the wrong for bad-mouthing them. and most importantly, i'm in the wrong for using harsh words on her. i'm really sorry about that and i guess tt was in the heat of the moment, i was just too angry and overwhelmed by emotions. read through that particular post just now. i thought i'm too harsh and mean to say all that and use those words on her, hence i deleted that post.
personally, i would want to mend this friendship. well, it takes two hands to clap. i duno if she and dy will want to mend this friendship as well. told minmin abt these harsh words thingie and she agreed that we should apologise if we're in the wrong. i think we're wrong to talk abt them between us and wrong for me to comment on her like that. still thinking of a way how to apologise though. just hope that they would understand that both parties had erred. and we want to apologise becos we want to mend the friendship.
i don't know how things will work out, but i'll try my best. (:
-"it's human nature to err"(by dy)-
feeling very depressed again... ):
yst faz came to look for us and he, pm n i went PS to SHOP. actually i was the one who did the most shopping. goodness me, i spent 300++bucks!! i bought a NB running shoes, DMK heels, a DVD player, 3 or 4 DVDs, and some ling ling long long at action city, of which, the bread is the most interesting thing!! haha, there's this fake bread thing on sale at action city, 4.95 for one. it's actually a stress ball cum wrist rest. i bought 2, one for jean since she's so stressed. it looks and smells exactly like a bread! i successfully tricked my bros using that. haha. LOL.
on the depressing side: well, faz didn't ask us anything regarding us. hmm, i duno. it should be a good thing that he didn't ask. don't want to continue bad-mouthing them and worse still, i do not want him to feel sad that we have become like that.
meeting fazil really reminds me of the times when hid and liyana were here. i can't imagine how sad liyana will feel when she gets back from germany. sigh. thinking back, although they are in the wrong for skiving and all that, we are also in the wrong for bad-mouthing them. and most importantly, i'm in the wrong for using harsh words on her. i'm really sorry about that and i guess tt was in the heat of the moment, i was just too angry and overwhelmed by emotions. read through that particular post just now. i thought i'm too harsh and mean to say all that and use those words on her, hence i deleted that post.
personally, i would want to mend this friendship. well, it takes two hands to clap. i duno if she and dy will want to mend this friendship as well. told minmin abt these harsh words thingie and she agreed that we should apologise if we're in the wrong. i think we're wrong to talk abt them between us and wrong for me to comment on her like that. still thinking of a way how to apologise though. just hope that they would understand that both parties had erred. and we want to apologise becos we want to mend the friendship.
i don't know how things will work out, but i'll try my best. (:
-"it's human nature to err"(by dy)-
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
have been feeling kinda vexed recently. things are getting really bad at work. and now i know what is internal conflicts, political issues etc etc. i didn't expect it'll happen among us.
abit worried for jean though. she is very stressed up and that beast is pushing work to her too often. she is having a bad headache and is very depressed. hope she will convince herself that she is definitely the right person for this position. feel bad that she n bro is involved in our "saga". they seemed disturbed by this incident. now minmin n i don't look forward to work anymore. work, to us, is like putting on a facade and having to protect your back. sigh. if only things will turn back to the past where we do not know so much. sometimes, it's really better not to know too much about certain ppl.
on the funny side: i guess i didn't mention about this guy from another dept.. well, we first met when he came down to rehearse for a performance. felt kinda weird when he talked to me. anyway, the 2nd time we met, it was for his rehearsal as well, when i waited for bro. ended up we went for dinner tgt as a grp. that was when he found out if i was attached. sigh. 3rd time was during the performance day itself. that day he talked to me thruout! and meli and gang was irritated with him cos they didn't like him since they were in the same training grp. they told me he was like flirting and whatever la. i just talked to him like normal lo.
who knows i saw him a few times and his pick-up lines where damn lame. i knew him like for such a short time only and he started asking me out to town. like just me, with his frens. like who in the right mind will go la?!?! lol. he started asking me out for steamboat etc etc and even to sentosa when it was actually his dept's gathering. it's like. FOR WHAT?! you asked mi to join you for what la? lol. the good thing is, he was leaving on the 30th of may. he was SUPPOSED to. damn. i saw him yst. -.-". shocked. i rmb exactly what he said. he asked when i'm leaving. he heard it wrongly as 19 june and said "we leave together la. 我带你远走高飞." i was like .... -.-" .... what the .....
ok. well, i know my colleagues hate him like shit la. but personally i'm ok with him cos he didn't do anything bad to me or irritate me. so i still accept him as a fren lo. i just feel that he's v comical with his pick-up lines and everytime i see him, my colleagues will laugh abt it the whole day. LOL.
alright. whatever it is. things shall remain as it is for now. as for that incident... i hope things will turn out just fine.
-if only time can turn back-
abit worried for jean though. she is very stressed up and that beast is pushing work to her too often. she is having a bad headache and is very depressed. hope she will convince herself that she is definitely the right person for this position. feel bad that she n bro is involved in our "saga". they seemed disturbed by this incident. now minmin n i don't look forward to work anymore. work, to us, is like putting on a facade and having to protect your back. sigh. if only things will turn back to the past where we do not know so much. sometimes, it's really better not to know too much about certain ppl.
on the funny side: i guess i didn't mention about this guy from another dept.. well, we first met when he came down to rehearse for a performance. felt kinda weird when he talked to me. anyway, the 2nd time we met, it was for his rehearsal as well, when i waited for bro. ended up we went for dinner tgt as a grp. that was when he found out if i was attached. sigh. 3rd time was during the performance day itself. that day he talked to me thruout! and meli and gang was irritated with him cos they didn't like him since they were in the same training grp. they told me he was like flirting and whatever la. i just talked to him like normal lo.
who knows i saw him a few times and his pick-up lines where damn lame. i knew him like for such a short time only and he started asking me out to town. like just me, with his frens. like who in the right mind will go la?!?! lol. he started asking me out for steamboat etc etc and even to sentosa when it was actually his dept's gathering. it's like. FOR WHAT?! you asked mi to join you for what la? lol. the good thing is, he was leaving on the 30th of may. he was SUPPOSED to. damn. i saw him yst. -.-". shocked. i rmb exactly what he said. he asked when i'm leaving. he heard it wrongly as 19 june and said "we leave together la. 我带你远走高飞." i was like .... -.-" .... what the .....
ok. well, i know my colleagues hate him like shit la. but personally i'm ok with him cos he didn't do anything bad to me or irritate me. so i still accept him as a fren lo. i just feel that he's v comical with his pick-up lines and everytime i see him, my colleagues will laugh abt it the whole day. LOL.
alright. whatever it is. things shall remain as it is for now. as for that incident... i hope things will turn out just fine.
-if only time can turn back-
Sunday, June 01, 2008
hi! i've been rotting for a long long time! work is still okay. but well, we aren't as close as before. me and minmin are closest now. cos both of us cant stand her. they are just so disgusting. had a clash with dy, but things are back to normal now. me n minmin are still disgusted by her behaviour. that guy really brings us lots of probs.
josh asked me abt that beast the other day. he asked if i'm ok. of cos! HAHA. i told him that i'm well over that beast and he is realli glad for me (:
anyway, i received rejection letters from both NUS and NTU. well, expected. LOL. but hey, my NIE interview was good. haha. and i received a sms a few days ago saying that i'm accepted by NIE already! right now i just have to wait for their letter of offer in 2wk's time. (:
still, i have already submitted appeals to both NUS and NTU. next up, i will take weds off to submit a manual appeal ltr by hand to both uni. though i'm accepted by NIE already, i'll still appeal and if it happens that the appeals are successful, i will turn down NIE's offer. but looking at the competition this year, i guess i'll most probably accept the offer by NIE. (:
minmin is doing the same like me. but she's much much more lucky than i am. she got frens that are accepted by pharmacy to draft the appeal ltrs for her and got her teachers to vet it for her. if all fails, we'll both go NIE. but i still wish her luck! and good luck to all those appealing for NUS/NTU.
i dun have to burden my parents and i will get a salary when i study. hees. (:
-no longer unwanted-
so that's all for updates. (:
josh asked me abt that beast the other day. he asked if i'm ok. of cos! HAHA. i told him that i'm well over that beast and he is realli glad for me (:
anyway, i received rejection letters from both NUS and NTU. well, expected. LOL. but hey, my NIE interview was good. haha. and i received a sms a few days ago saying that i'm accepted by NIE already! right now i just have to wait for their letter of offer in 2wk's time. (:
still, i have already submitted appeals to both NUS and NTU. next up, i will take weds off to submit a manual appeal ltr by hand to both uni. though i'm accepted by NIE already, i'll still appeal and if it happens that the appeals are successful, i will turn down NIE's offer. but looking at the competition this year, i guess i'll most probably accept the offer by NIE. (:
minmin is doing the same like me. but she's much much more lucky than i am. she got frens that are accepted by pharmacy to draft the appeal ltrs for her and got her teachers to vet it for her. if all fails, we'll both go NIE. but i still wish her luck! and good luck to all those appealing for NUS/NTU.
i dun have to burden my parents and i will get a salary when i study. hees. (:
-no longer unwanted-
so that's all for updates. (:
Monday, May 19, 2008
hi!
LOL. day by day, i found out more about those ridiculous stuff you did. you are just such a disappointment. you will never find true happiness. day by day, you make me hate you more than ever. you make me feel relieved that i'm finally out from your trap. you are such a hypocrite. never will you expect that i'll be in the light, and right now, at this moment, i'm in the light. i used to respect you so much. too much, maybe. yes, love is blind. i just can't believe. just tell me you weren't making use of me, that will be enough. we're still friends, yes, like how you treat your "brothers". how you treat them, will be how i'm gonna treat you. now, totally no more respect. maybe, just becos you're my "boss", i have to "respect" you infront of others. but hey, deep inside me, you just a piece of ****. enough, you beast. can't imagine i'll still have flashbacks of our "happy moments", NOT anymore. saddening indeed. nope, it's all not true. i shouldn't think about all those anymore. i'm supposed to forget you, and hate you. that is just right for me to do. i'm just nothing. just look at her. i shall look up to her. she's such a saint and you only have yourself to blame. too bad, you'll never find happiness.
-shut up-
LOL. day by day, i found out more about those ridiculous stuff you did. you are just such a disappointment. you will never find true happiness. day by day, you make me hate you more than ever. you make me feel relieved that i'm finally out from your trap. you are such a hypocrite. never will you expect that i'll be in the light, and right now, at this moment, i'm in the light. i used to respect you so much. too much, maybe. yes, love is blind. i just can't believe. just tell me you weren't making use of me, that will be enough. we're still friends, yes, like how you treat your "brothers". how you treat them, will be how i'm gonna treat you. now, totally no more respect. maybe, just becos you're my "boss", i have to "respect" you infront of others. but hey, deep inside me, you just a piece of ****. enough, you beast. can't imagine i'll still have flashbacks of our "happy moments", NOT anymore. saddening indeed. nope, it's all not true. i shouldn't think about all those anymore. i'm supposed to forget you, and hate you. that is just right for me to do. i'm just nothing. just look at her. i shall look up to her. she's such a saint and you only have yourself to blame. too bad, you'll never find happiness.
-shut up-
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Saturday, May 10, 2008
this wk was a week full of houseflies but it was super tiring and stressed for me. personally, i like the new oics but sometimes i just cant agree with wat some of them do. this wk, our first new oic came in. i like her. haha. she's just a workaholic and very stressed up, but definitely dedicated. former oics are even more dedicated than some of the present oics. i'm irritated by that. sigh.. personally, i'm ok with the 2nd new oic, but i don't like the way she works.. she practically asks me everything. it's like.. hello, so who's the oic now?
enough about work then. as for those incidents happened between the 2 of us. enough. i found out everything about him. the worst that i ever could. he's just such a beast and lowdown creature. he doesn't know that i'm in the light. he's a liar. every move of his meticulously calculated. i'm glad i've seen your true colours. get away from me.
got to go.. stomach ache !!! LOL ...
-i'm glad -- BARney-
enough about work then. as for those incidents happened between the 2 of us. enough. i found out everything about him. the worst that i ever could. he's just such a beast and lowdown creature. he doesn't know that i'm in the light. he's a liar. every move of his meticulously calculated. i'm glad i've seen your true colours. get away from me.
got to go.. stomach ache !!! LOL ...
-i'm glad -- BARney-
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
i ought to start exercising soon! i need to trim fats here and there but i prefer my build as compared to others. i do not wana be skinny! LOL. watever. burn fats la.
monday started off with me reaching office super early, before 7am. and there was this siao char bo who reached there like 6am?!?!?! haha. but she is dedicated and stressed, that's y she's there early in the morning 6 o'clock. haha. then proceeded with tallying the cheques and literally typing every single shit into the excel file. i finally completed the whole thing around 4, including tallying those collected ones and all. cos in between, the queue was too long i had to stop tallying and start serving mbrs.
anyway, B is from another dept. T was the guy that i was blogging abt previously. everytime B comes to our dept, he will look for me to pass me some stuff la. then today i was in one of the rooms and i saw B and called out his name saying that i've got something to pass to him. and the thing is. i didn't noe T was behind him!!!! it was like, abit awkward. ... ... anyway, T and i still give each other awkward stares and glances... i duno y. but is there something that he wants to say?? weirdo.
had dinner at cb with bro. T wasn't there. he is still avoiding. sigh. but well, life still goes on w/o him! i'm just glad that when we were dating, he saw the real me. i feel myself, comfortable. i just hope i left a good impression. he should just rmb my good points and forget the times where i get angry. i believed we were happy.
let's move on.. today is minmin's bdae!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN MIN !!!!!! :D
we bought a big baby pooh bear for her as it's her fav cartoon character... hees. i'm glad she really like it !!!!
work again - tml . zzzzzzzzz
-i hate and love you-
monday started off with me reaching office super early, before 7am. and there was this siao char bo who reached there like 6am?!?!?! haha. but she is dedicated and stressed, that's y she's there early in the morning 6 o'clock. haha. then proceeded with tallying the cheques and literally typing every single shit into the excel file. i finally completed the whole thing around 4, including tallying those collected ones and all. cos in between, the queue was too long i had to stop tallying and start serving mbrs.
anyway, B is from another dept. T was the guy that i was blogging abt previously. everytime B comes to our dept, he will look for me to pass me some stuff la. then today i was in one of the rooms and i saw B and called out his name saying that i've got something to pass to him. and the thing is. i didn't noe T was behind him!!!! it was like, abit awkward. ... ... anyway, T and i still give each other awkward stares and glances... i duno y. but is there something that he wants to say?? weirdo.
had dinner at cb with bro. T wasn't there. he is still avoiding. sigh. but well, life still goes on w/o him! i'm just glad that when we were dating, he saw the real me. i feel myself, comfortable. i just hope i left a good impression. he should just rmb my good points and forget the times where i get angry. i believed we were happy.
let's move on.. today is minmin's bdae!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN MIN !!!!!! :D
we bought a big baby pooh bear for her as it's her fav cartoon character... hees. i'm glad she really like it !!!!
work again - tml . zzzzzzzzz
-i hate and love you-
Sunday, May 04, 2008
one week has passed so quickly.
anyway. at work, another batch of chqs came. damn, GD chqs. around 2000. this is excluding those people where their bank a/cs had been closed and paymt rejected. there'll be another batch coming down this coming week. and our new oic is taking over. i feel that she's so poor thing. jus took over and she has to do those chqs. it's madness. tml i'll be gg to work early to help her with the chqs first. she very funny. she's always so stressed when there's things undone. the other new oic changed my opinion of her when she offered her help! hees. hopefully this continues. and all in all, we have 4 good oics !! (:
that stupid guy, or i should say, man, is driving me nuts. always avoiding the issue. don't understand him at all. i realised everything btwn us changed from the moment he was promoted. now i truly understand why career will get in the way of these things. i'm furious. the way he questioned bro made me felt like i fabricated some kinda story. he is like "... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ..." when it comes to handling these kinda stuff. for goodness sake. he's like the age to get married already and ... sigh, i duno what else to say. in any case, i realised i should really move on and forget abt him. nonsense shit. i used to like the way he work, the way he think of solutions to make the mbrs leave happily. he always had a way, somehow. i totally admired that. maybe that's y i like him. but looking at how he handles the issues btwn us, i duno if i still hold any respect for him. maybe i dont, anymore.
now, down to sports. haha. we're definitely going for our DOUBLE this season!! had a fantastic win over west ham last night. if i didn't rmb wrongly, they are one of our jinx team. well, yst nani did a totally stupid thing. i was already super unhappy with him a few matches back. he was playing like shit and what the hell? that stupid head butt from him ended his season like that. FOOLISH shit. i still love the way we played even after nani was sent off. 4-1 . chelski-s are playing against newcastle coming monday night. the best thing that could happen is for chelsea to lose that. and hey, the title's ours. (:
21st may is another big day. after that nonsensical match with the bribed ref, it's time for us to show chelski who's the real king. that champions league title is also gona be ours. hahs. :D
shall stop here then ... (:
-i realised a 30yr-old man might not
be more matured den a 20 yr-old.
i was wrong.-
anyway. at work, another batch of chqs came. damn, GD chqs. around 2000. this is excluding those people where their bank a/cs had been closed and paymt rejected. there'll be another batch coming down this coming week. and our new oic is taking over. i feel that she's so poor thing. jus took over and she has to do those chqs. it's madness. tml i'll be gg to work early to help her with the chqs first. she very funny. she's always so stressed when there's things undone. the other new oic changed my opinion of her when she offered her help! hees. hopefully this continues. and all in all, we have 4 good oics !! (:
that stupid guy, or i should say, man, is driving me nuts. always avoiding the issue. don't understand him at all. i realised everything btwn us changed from the moment he was promoted. now i truly understand why career will get in the way of these things. i'm furious. the way he questioned bro made me felt like i fabricated some kinda story. he is like "... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ..." when it comes to handling these kinda stuff. for goodness sake. he's like the age to get married already and ... sigh, i duno what else to say. in any case, i realised i should really move on and forget abt him. nonsense shit. i used to like the way he work, the way he think of solutions to make the mbrs leave happily. he always had a way, somehow. i totally admired that. maybe that's y i like him. but looking at how he handles the issues btwn us, i duno if i still hold any respect for him. maybe i dont, anymore.
now, down to sports. haha. we're definitely going for our DOUBLE this season!! had a fantastic win over west ham last night. if i didn't rmb wrongly, they are one of our jinx team. well, yst nani did a totally stupid thing. i was already super unhappy with him a few matches back. he was playing like shit and what the hell? that stupid head butt from him ended his season like that. FOOLISH shit. i still love the way we played even after nani was sent off. 4-1 . chelski-s are playing against newcastle coming monday night. the best thing that could happen is for chelsea to lose that. and hey, the title's ours. (:
21st may is another big day. after that nonsensical match with the bribed ref, it's time for us to show chelski who's the real king. that champions league title is also gona be ours. hahs. :D
shall stop here then ... (:
-i realised a 30yr-old man might not
be more matured den a 20 yr-old.
i was wrong.-
Saturday, April 26, 2008
it's saturday!!
just finished watching the chelski-man u match. DAMN!!! fcuk the assistant ref. where the hell did he see carrick's hand ball?! it's not ! and that fcuking decision from him led to the chelski-s leading by 1 goal again. but i'm still impressed by my team with the superior goal diff. ((:
most importantly, we must win the remaining 2 matches. i think this is a good season for us to win both the EPL title as well as the champions league title! haha. let's see how things go. (:
had a talk w josh on the train the other day. again, i had counselling! haha. but that really helped me! i learnt that i have to love myself well enough. i should stop looking so emo and should cheer up! and i reali did. and i felt so much better now. (: i guess certain things are meant to be while certain things are not. his career is more important, definitely. who knows we might meet again next time, few yrs later? i dont know. i wun say i have totally forgotten abt him or that i still hold hopes. just let nature takes its course.
working here exposes me to all kinds of people that makes mi grow up and be more matured in my thinking. i like working here and hey! i have extended my contract till 31 july. haha. but the damn thing is the other agency increased their candidates pay by 50cents per hr!! and hey. mine is still the same. and oh pls, i know i definitely deserve more. DAMN IT. will talk to my agent.
tired. anyway, bought a perfume - Salvatone Fevragamo's incanto dream. i love it. it's got the fruity and not so strong fragrance.. i bought a hand cream too. 6.90 only haha. from sasa. salsa strawberry. not greasy and it smells nice. (:
thinking of what to get for my mum for mother's day though... hees...
-fcuk the refs and the watever shit there-
just finished watching the chelski-man u match. DAMN!!! fcuk the assistant ref. where the hell did he see carrick's hand ball?! it's not ! and that fcuking decision from him led to the chelski-s leading by 1 goal again. but i'm still impressed by my team with the superior goal diff. ((:
most importantly, we must win the remaining 2 matches. i think this is a good season for us to win both the EPL title as well as the champions league title! haha. let's see how things go. (:
had a talk w josh on the train the other day. again, i had counselling! haha. but that really helped me! i learnt that i have to love myself well enough. i should stop looking so emo and should cheer up! and i reali did. and i felt so much better now. (: i guess certain things are meant to be while certain things are not. his career is more important, definitely. who knows we might meet again next time, few yrs later? i dont know. i wun say i have totally forgotten abt him or that i still hold hopes. just let nature takes its course.
working here exposes me to all kinds of people that makes mi grow up and be more matured in my thinking. i like working here and hey! i have extended my contract till 31 july. haha. but the damn thing is the other agency increased their candidates pay by 50cents per hr!! and hey. mine is still the same. and oh pls, i know i definitely deserve more. DAMN IT. will talk to my agent.
tired. anyway, bought a perfume - Salvatone Fevragamo's incanto dream. i love it. it's got the fruity and not so strong fragrance.. i bought a hand cream too. 6.90 only haha. from sasa. salsa strawberry. not greasy and it smells nice. (:
thinking of what to get for my mum for mother's day though... hees...
-fcuk the refs and the watever shit there-
Sunday, April 20, 2008
hi! it's sunday!
work has been tiring. 2000 over cheques came in and i have to help bro to tally the cheques. haha. went karaoke w bro, ter, charlene and dy. had fun there. initially was sakae till 8.30pm. den from 8.30pm till 12.30am was singing, singing and singing! LOL. i guess bro and i hogged on to the mic the most though. our main purpose there was to help bro with choosing a song for a mini performance. haha.
anyway, as pertaining to those accusations, my conscience is clear. (:
well, adiba and i are over our "babies". haha. i guess only those who knows the situation will know what i'm talking abt. bro has been my counsellor for these 2 wks. things that he said really made sense. i guess that's y i managed to feel much better right now.
no notification from any of the uni yet. i wonder if i managed to get a place already. difficult i guess. if i dun get a place, i'll continue working for the time being i guess. then i have to save up and consider gg for private uni while working at the same time. hmm...
shall update next time when i blog again !!
-awkward-
work has been tiring. 2000 over cheques came in and i have to help bro to tally the cheques. haha. went karaoke w bro, ter, charlene and dy. had fun there. initially was sakae till 8.30pm. den from 8.30pm till 12.30am was singing, singing and singing! LOL. i guess bro and i hogged on to the mic the most though. our main purpose there was to help bro with choosing a song for a mini performance. haha.
anyway, as pertaining to those accusations, my conscience is clear. (:
well, adiba and i are over our "babies". haha. i guess only those who knows the situation will know what i'm talking abt. bro has been my counsellor for these 2 wks. things that he said really made sense. i guess that's y i managed to feel much better right now.
no notification from any of the uni yet. i wonder if i managed to get a place already. difficult i guess. if i dun get a place, i'll continue working for the time being i guess. then i have to save up and consider gg for private uni while working at the same time. hmm...
shall update next time when i blog again !!
-awkward-
Sunday, April 13, 2008
everything came too fast.
and i'm not sure if it's ending too.
why would things turn out like that?
it's neither of our fault.
but why are you reacting this way?
ignoring me while claiming everything's fine.
no, it's not, we know it's not.
memories.
short, but was always so sweet.
kinda hurts me when i think of it.
every little thing you said and did,
it's all imprinted in my heart.
i'm trying my very best to understand.
but i hope you understand too.
do you?
well, you don't.
if you do, you would have told mi what to do.
pls.
tell me what to do.
and dun leave me hanging there.
i hope it'll all revert back to normal.
how i miss you.
-lost-
and i'm not sure if it's ending too.
why would things turn out like that?
it's neither of our fault.
but why are you reacting this way?
ignoring me while claiming everything's fine.
no, it's not, we know it's not.
memories.
short, but was always so sweet.
kinda hurts me when i think of it.
every little thing you said and did,
it's all imprinted in my heart.
i'm trying my very best to understand.
but i hope you understand too.
do you?
well, you don't.
if you do, you would have told mi what to do.
pls.
tell me what to do.
and dun leave me hanging there.
i hope it'll all revert back to normal.
how i miss you.
-lost-
Saturday, April 12, 2008
hey, one week has passed so quickly!
haha. anyway, total ups and downs. Monday was such a wonderful day and especially after work, it was wonderful time spent with baby. Tuesday was when all the disaster started .... even till now. after talking to bro kovito, i felt much much much better. i decided to give baby some time. if it's meant to be, it will be. and it's not any of our fault. it's other's fault. he's so stressed up right now, shall leave him alone for the time being.
well, today's bro josh's wedding day! CONGRATULATIONS JOSH! haha. so sweet of him to be discussing wedding details and stuff with his other "bros". too bad i can't turn up becos of work, bleh... i didn't know all the 4 of them actually has driving lic! LOL..... and bro kovito was the first among them who got it, though he's the youngest. well, he got it during his army days! hahs.
anyway, the talk with bro kovito was rather inspirational yst. hahas. it was totally unexpected of him ok. cos the image he always potrays is like the joke-y and funny plus lame kinda person. well, he sounded super logical yst and he managed to make me feel better after so many ppl have tried to, but failed. haha! thumbs up for bro kovito. sounds like some jap name. he's getting married soon. heard from him it's next month - ROM. hees. my baby will be the one left alone after josh and him gets married and following up is georgie-boy. LOL
he managed to talk me out of transferring (indirectly, even w/o him knowing) too! haha! such a nice bro. such a nice bunch of friends. such a pleasure to have known the group of them. (:
minmin was ANGRY today. cos adiba and i laughed at her mistakes. cos she's always so cute, making those pronunciation mistakes. but she had never gotten angry before until today. she practically can't be bothered with us. and she didn't want to talk to us. then, i realised. sometimes when a person doesn't react negatively, it doesn't mean he doesn't mind. one day, it's going to erupt. and here's a live example. i'm sorry minmin. we wun do it again..
i'm glad she's no longer angry at us for that. phew. i was so scared...
her mistakes are like pronunciation which is pardonable and cute, therefore laughable. but others i've seen or heard.... erm. they really ought to brush up their english. at least...
-i miss the times-
haha. anyway, total ups and downs. Monday was such a wonderful day and especially after work, it was wonderful time spent with baby. Tuesday was when all the disaster started .... even till now. after talking to bro kovito, i felt much much much better. i decided to give baby some time. if it's meant to be, it will be. and it's not any of our fault. it's other's fault. he's so stressed up right now, shall leave him alone for the time being.
well, today's bro josh's wedding day! CONGRATULATIONS JOSH! haha. so sweet of him to be discussing wedding details and stuff with his other "bros". too bad i can't turn up becos of work, bleh... i didn't know all the 4 of them actually has driving lic! LOL..... and bro kovito was the first among them who got it, though he's the youngest. well, he got it during his army days! hahs.
anyway, the talk with bro kovito was rather inspirational yst. hahas. it was totally unexpected of him ok. cos the image he always potrays is like the joke-y and funny plus lame kinda person. well, he sounded super logical yst and he managed to make me feel better after so many ppl have tried to, but failed. haha! thumbs up for bro kovito. sounds like some jap name. he's getting married soon. heard from him it's next month - ROM. hees. my baby will be the one left alone after josh and him gets married and following up is georgie-boy. LOL
he managed to talk me out of transferring (indirectly, even w/o him knowing) too! haha! such a nice bro. such a nice bunch of friends. such a pleasure to have known the group of them. (:
minmin was ANGRY today. cos adiba and i laughed at her mistakes. cos she's always so cute, making those pronunciation mistakes. but she had never gotten angry before until today. she practically can't be bothered with us. and she didn't want to talk to us. then, i realised. sometimes when a person doesn't react negatively, it doesn't mean he doesn't mind. one day, it's going to erupt. and here's a live example. i'm sorry minmin. we wun do it again..
i'm glad she's no longer angry at us for that. phew. i was so scared...
her mistakes are like pronunciation which is pardonable and cute, therefore laughable. but others i've seen or heard.... erm. they really ought to brush up their english. at least...
-i miss the times-
Saturday, April 05, 2008
at work, today was the last day for faz, yaya and zaLiaK. haha. time flies. and i'll really miss them! haha. these colleagues are a really fun batch. the CSOs and our OICs love us! haha. luckily i still have adiba and minmin ard. adiba just goes on and on about her baby, and minmin goes on and on being lost, and BLURRRRR. haha. wonderful colleagues plus friends. (:
hope baby makes me stay (:
it has been gg up and down, like a roller coaster. DUNO what is he up to. LOL. he says he's stressed but he refuse to tell me!!! his holding statement will be "i'll tell you when the time comes"... zzz zzz ... -.-"
yst he gave me some clue, but some redundant clue, which doesnt help me make out what is he stressing about. he said it's GOOD stress! something good.... i was like LOL.... "patience is a virtue", he said. OKAY......
"what the hell is he up to?"
didn't noe dorae actually like him, but it was a gut feeling, and i was right! haa... but according to reliable sources, she likes to have connections with higher ranking persons, maybe she'll get something good out of it?? i don't know. well, i don't know her well enough to judge her though.
*shrugs*
i know for sure, baby doesn't like her THAT way. (:
i'm still in the midst of deciding if i should extend or not.. hmm. well, i do hope baby do something to make me stay. but even if he doesn't, i might still extend. cos i'm too lazy to join another company and start all over again and then, it's for another 3 months again. i might as well stay put and continue to work all the way till i admit to uni huh?
i just hope that if i extend, adiba, min min and diyong would extend too! (:
i am the only one among the temps who knows who is the 4th oic... well, *shrugs*. i can just shake my head.... it's already a blow when i heard that baby is not gg to be our oic anymore. there comes another blow when yati says she's transferring....... there goes another oic... ):
i think they should really reconsider regarding the 4th oic candidate... baby and i were just talking about it that day while having dinner.. we practically scanned everyone in office to evaluate who would be suitable... well, difficult... it's really difficult to picked one out. potential ones are transferring.. and who knows, the one that we shook our heads immediately was the one who was selected... i reali do hope the higher management reconsider and do something about it.
-baby misses me, says you and your "brother"-
(:
hope baby makes me stay (:
it has been gg up and down, like a roller coaster. DUNO what is he up to. LOL. he says he's stressed but he refuse to tell me!!! his holding statement will be "i'll tell you when the time comes"... zzz zzz ... -.-"
yst he gave me some clue, but some redundant clue, which doesnt help me make out what is he stressing about. he said it's GOOD stress! something good.... i was like LOL.... "patience is a virtue", he said. OKAY......
"what the hell is he up to?"
didn't noe dorae actually like him, but it was a gut feeling, and i was right! haa... but according to reliable sources, she likes to have connections with higher ranking persons, maybe she'll get something good out of it?? i don't know. well, i don't know her well enough to judge her though.
*shrugs*
i know for sure, baby doesn't like her THAT way. (:
i'm still in the midst of deciding if i should extend or not.. hmm. well, i do hope baby do something to make me stay. but even if he doesn't, i might still extend. cos i'm too lazy to join another company and start all over again and then, it's for another 3 months again. i might as well stay put and continue to work all the way till i admit to uni huh?
i just hope that if i extend, adiba, min min and diyong would extend too! (:
i am the only one among the temps who knows who is the 4th oic... well, *shrugs*. i can just shake my head.... it's already a blow when i heard that baby is not gg to be our oic anymore. there comes another blow when yati says she's transferring....... there goes another oic... ):
i think they should really reconsider regarding the 4th oic candidate... baby and i were just talking about it that day while having dinner.. we practically scanned everyone in office to evaluate who would be suitable... well, difficult... it's really difficult to picked one out. potential ones are transferring.. and who knows, the one that we shook our heads immediately was the one who was selected... i reali do hope the higher management reconsider and do something about it.
-baby misses me, says you and your "brother"-
(:
Sunday, March 23, 2008
hey, just happen to read thru my secondary sch bestie's blog. and she's happily married with her daughter 5 months old. maybe i should hint hint to him, i should become a housewife and stop studying. haha. but anyway, i'm happy to see her doing well. looking at her wedding pics and all.. i really feel happy for her. especially when she has such an adorable daughter. (: i really hope to meet up with her soon cos i have not seen her for a long long time..
i'm actually thinking of signing on as a prison officer. haha. LOL!!! he was so funny. his reaction was "why do you have to do that to yourself?!" . i was like... wat's wrong with being a prison officer? haha. wanted to apply but the thingie is down! it says "under maintenance" LOL.... now i'm looking at the SPF websites... looking at the scholarships etc etc... then, looking at OCS... hai. really duno what to do if i cant get into uni!!!!!
-shrugs-
i'm actually thinking of signing on as a prison officer. haha. LOL!!! he was so funny. his reaction was "why do you have to do that to yourself?!" . i was like... wat's wrong with being a prison officer? haha. wanted to apply but the thingie is down! it says "under maintenance" LOL.... now i'm looking at the SPF websites... looking at the scholarships etc etc... then, looking at OCS... hai. really duno what to do if i cant get into uni!!!!!
-shrugs-
Saturday, March 22, 2008
hey! the internet connection in my workplace is cut off. well well, i guess they actually track which websites we go. i cant even go google now. bleh.
work is as usual, tiring. hmm... lots of people coming down and all. nevertheless, my day was all made fine because of him (:
oh well, i cant rmb what i did last saturday... OHH !!!! oh ya. i went seoul garden with my colleagues. haha. it was rather havoc cos i ate ALOT. haha. den we went taking photos and all before we finally head home!! so i didn't go out with him... hmm..
but i went out with him on wednesday! fun. after work, we walked around maxwell looking for that particular shop he was talking abt and ! it happened to be closed..... LOL. so we practically walked round and round and finally went to chinatown to have frog porridge! nice.. esp the tofu. (: we went on to this dessert shop to have black sesame paste. then we went to central to take a look. disappointing. the layout there is like.. bleh. and it's so quiet and the shops there are so empty. well, just when we decide to go home, we saw "hokkaido ice-cream" ! so i ordered the dark choco and the cookies and cream and we sat outside, at clarke quay, jus opposite the bungee jump thingie.
i was with my heels and dress, making it rather difficult to balance myself and sit on the steps. he had to lend his hand. finally we sat down and ate the ice-cream, looking at the bungee jump-ers. i reali admire their courage!
at last, we walked to city hall and from there, we went home separately. it was already 10plus! and we're both freaking tired... but happy. (:
today i met him for lunch as well. we managed to get to the eatery that we din get to go on wednesday! had zha jiang mian. then we shared guo tie, xiao long bao and also the gluttinous rice balls. it was nice! but the zha jiang mian is like average lo.
anyway, i just got a new psp slim! lol. i bought from my brother. he is actually doing sales for this. so might as well, buy from him right.
so after our lunch, we proceeded home with the psp in hand. haha. we took turns to play winning 11. well, i think he's a better player than me while he thinks i'm better. when has he become so humble?!?! haha! he sent me to boon lay and went on to meet josh. he was already late. LOL. talking abt josh, i feel that it's nice to be discussing wedding details with your brothers cos it just shows how much each of them mean to you. hmm... (:
today was liyana's last day. i'm so gg to miss her! i'm sending her off coming monday. well, i know he's not gg. so far, dy, pm and i. i miss yaya as well! she is finally back from australia and coming back to work on monday! new temps will be coming in on monday i guess. i think we're really short of ppl. hmm. i really wonder what will happen when the whole of our batch leaves.
according to him, we're the batch that are closest to them. haha. i supposed they will miss us? i think so la. he said he cant rmb some of the temps!!! can u imagine if he says he cant rmb who m i?!?!?!?! i'm so gg to kill him if he does that. i believe we will still keep in contact after i leave. he's someone important to me.
let's talk abt something else. i have applied for uni.... i wonder how it will go la. hai. just cant help but sigh at my shitty results. let me be a housewife then.... LOL.
this is a rather long post. shall stop here. dont reali know what else to blog about. (:
-romantic-
work is as usual, tiring. hmm... lots of people coming down and all. nevertheless, my day was all made fine because of him (:
oh well, i cant rmb what i did last saturday... OHH !!!! oh ya. i went seoul garden with my colleagues. haha. it was rather havoc cos i ate ALOT. haha. den we went taking photos and all before we finally head home!! so i didn't go out with him... hmm..
but i went out with him on wednesday! fun. after work, we walked around maxwell looking for that particular shop he was talking abt and ! it happened to be closed..... LOL. so we practically walked round and round and finally went to chinatown to have frog porridge! nice.. esp the tofu. (: we went on to this dessert shop to have black sesame paste. then we went to central to take a look. disappointing. the layout there is like.. bleh. and it's so quiet and the shops there are so empty. well, just when we decide to go home, we saw "hokkaido ice-cream" ! so i ordered the dark choco and the cookies and cream and we sat outside, at clarke quay, jus opposite the bungee jump thingie.
i was with my heels and dress, making it rather difficult to balance myself and sit on the steps. he had to lend his hand. finally we sat down and ate the ice-cream, looking at the bungee jump-ers. i reali admire their courage!
at last, we walked to city hall and from there, we went home separately. it was already 10plus! and we're both freaking tired... but happy. (:
today i met him for lunch as well. we managed to get to the eatery that we din get to go on wednesday! had zha jiang mian. then we shared guo tie, xiao long bao and also the gluttinous rice balls. it was nice! but the zha jiang mian is like average lo.
anyway, i just got a new psp slim! lol. i bought from my brother. he is actually doing sales for this. so might as well, buy from him right.
so after our lunch, we proceeded home with the psp in hand. haha. we took turns to play winning 11. well, i think he's a better player than me while he thinks i'm better. when has he become so humble?!?! haha! he sent me to boon lay and went on to meet josh. he was already late. LOL. talking abt josh, i feel that it's nice to be discussing wedding details with your brothers cos it just shows how much each of them mean to you. hmm... (:
today was liyana's last day. i'm so gg to miss her! i'm sending her off coming monday. well, i know he's not gg. so far, dy, pm and i. i miss yaya as well! she is finally back from australia and coming back to work on monday! new temps will be coming in on monday i guess. i think we're really short of ppl. hmm. i really wonder what will happen when the whole of our batch leaves.
according to him, we're the batch that are closest to them. haha. i supposed they will miss us? i think so la. he said he cant rmb some of the temps!!! can u imagine if he says he cant rmb who m i?!?!?!?! i'm so gg to kill him if he does that. i believe we will still keep in contact after i leave. he's someone important to me.
let's talk abt something else. i have applied for uni.... i wonder how it will go la. hai. just cant help but sigh at my shitty results. let me be a housewife then.... LOL.
this is a rather long post. shall stop here. dont reali know what else to blog about. (:
-romantic-
Monday, March 10, 2008
tired!!
a lot of members came down to us today! my goodness. what crap is that? all coming down at the same time, we practically didn't stop serving members! some are so irritating. freak. so kan chiong when she heard my conversation with liyana that i have to get back to counter after serving this member. she quickly walked to me and said "eh, girl. please help me with the computer hor. i come first." i was like " ........ ". i didn't care about her though. i quickly asked qam to take over and serve her while i quickly went back to counter. somehow, the counter needs me, it needed mandarin speakers.
had a hard time doing recording. one whole stack! SE declaration was like 62?!?! wtf. ERS recording was quite bad too. oh well, i took up this duty in the first place, so i shouldn't grumble much.
after work, fazil gathered all of us to take pictures with all our OICs and the CSOs. it was a fun time taking pictures with them, especially the part where we "accidentally" made corporal lim and xxx stand next to each other. haha. it's really fun working with this bunch of people.
after which, they all left, leaving me, ter, kv and corporal lim. went coffee bean. hah. had some fusili. not nice, at least to me? cos it's too creamy for me. hmm. as usual, they went on and on about soccer. haha. it's just so them. luckily i'm quite a soccer fanatic so it's ok for me to hang out with them. hmm. when we were heading towards the MRT station, we were recalling the chinese names for the various clubs. haha. it ended up rather hilarious cos some sounded weird. hmm.
while in the train, ter was really trying hard to pronounce AC milan in mandarin. i couldn't control my laughter. hahaha.... that was when kv started to tease us. bleah. it's just so kv. LOL.
out of a sudden, i had a bad gastric pain, again. it left mi silent and pale-looking. he kept asking me to go see a doctor but he knows i won't. it's costly and it's redundant cos i think docs will only give painkillers for gastric pain and stuff. and do you ever hear of any cases where gastric pain can be cured? hmm. well, of cos i ignored his "instruction" and went home. like now, i'm fine here, blogging.
hope he can bring me to cali tomorrow. didn't make it on time today. and oh man. i actually forgot to remind him to follow up on a case! i feel super duper bad. ):
that's all for today i guess. let's see when will i have the time to blog again. bye!
-thanks for your concern-
a lot of members came down to us today! my goodness. what crap is that? all coming down at the same time, we practically didn't stop serving members! some are so irritating. freak. so kan chiong when she heard my conversation with liyana that i have to get back to counter after serving this member. she quickly walked to me and said "eh, girl. please help me with the computer hor. i come first." i was like " ........ ". i didn't care about her though. i quickly asked qam to take over and serve her while i quickly went back to counter. somehow, the counter needs me, it needed mandarin speakers.
had a hard time doing recording. one whole stack! SE declaration was like 62?!?! wtf. ERS recording was quite bad too. oh well, i took up this duty in the first place, so i shouldn't grumble much.
after work, fazil gathered all of us to take pictures with all our OICs and the CSOs. it was a fun time taking pictures with them, especially the part where we "accidentally" made corporal lim and xxx stand next to each other. haha. it's really fun working with this bunch of people.
after which, they all left, leaving me, ter, kv and corporal lim. went coffee bean. hah. had some fusili. not nice, at least to me? cos it's too creamy for me. hmm. as usual, they went on and on about soccer. haha. it's just so them. luckily i'm quite a soccer fanatic so it's ok for me to hang out with them. hmm. when we were heading towards the MRT station, we were recalling the chinese names for the various clubs. haha. it ended up rather hilarious cos some sounded weird. hmm.
while in the train, ter was really trying hard to pronounce AC milan in mandarin. i couldn't control my laughter. hahaha.... that was when kv started to tease us. bleah. it's just so kv. LOL.
out of a sudden, i had a bad gastric pain, again. it left mi silent and pale-looking. he kept asking me to go see a doctor but he knows i won't. it's costly and it's redundant cos i think docs will only give painkillers for gastric pain and stuff. and do you ever hear of any cases where gastric pain can be cured? hmm. well, of cos i ignored his "instruction" and went home. like now, i'm fine here, blogging.
hope he can bring me to cali tomorrow. didn't make it on time today. and oh man. i actually forgot to remind him to follow up on a case! i feel super duper bad. ):
that's all for today i guess. let's see when will i have the time to blog again. bye!
-thanks for your concern-
Sunday, March 09, 2008
random thoughts..
people might think i am moving on rather quickly. but personally i think otherwise. it's true that yah, i've put down my feelings for my ex already but isn't it a good thing? i mean we see, or at least i see no future in our relationship. i might be cruel to him but, isn't this better? i realised i no longer initiate to message him or call him. i realised i'm cold towards him. i realised i no longer love him. but i still miss those good times we have together. that, i will never forget. i will never forget him either.
sometimes i get emotional. i think of him, and i still feel sad. no, i no longer love him but there's still this something within me that makes me really sad. i duno how should i put it. but maybe no one can really understand how i feel right now.
he offers his help-to be there for me when i actually got this shitty results. but i rejected him coldly. it's nice of him. but it's not right, and it's too late for him to do that. why didn't he spend much more time and effort on these little things he can do so the build on our relationship? why did he have to wait till everything has ended? it's all too late.
it's difficult to be friends or maybe close friends. i dun think i can face him like the way i do in the first place. i knew he wanted to speak to me in school that day. i was on the phone. and on the line was him-my date. i jus waved to him and continued with my conversation, ignoring him after that. he was pacing near me, while his friends waiting nearby. he looks like he's got something to say. but still, i continued my conversation with my date, leaving him stranded, finally, he left with his frens. and next, i received a message from him..
really random thoughts.
suddenly i realised, it's not going to work out between us anymore.
-it's really over-
people might think i am moving on rather quickly. but personally i think otherwise. it's true that yah, i've put down my feelings for my ex already but isn't it a good thing? i mean we see, or at least i see no future in our relationship. i might be cruel to him but, isn't this better? i realised i no longer initiate to message him or call him. i realised i'm cold towards him. i realised i no longer love him. but i still miss those good times we have together. that, i will never forget. i will never forget him either.
sometimes i get emotional. i think of him, and i still feel sad. no, i no longer love him but there's still this something within me that makes me really sad. i duno how should i put it. but maybe no one can really understand how i feel right now.
he offers his help-to be there for me when i actually got this shitty results. but i rejected him coldly. it's nice of him. but it's not right, and it's too late for him to do that. why didn't he spend much more time and effort on these little things he can do so the build on our relationship? why did he have to wait till everything has ended? it's all too late.
it's difficult to be friends or maybe close friends. i dun think i can face him like the way i do in the first place. i knew he wanted to speak to me in school that day. i was on the phone. and on the line was him-my date. i jus waved to him and continued with my conversation, ignoring him after that. he was pacing near me, while his friends waiting nearby. he looks like he's got something to say. but still, i continued my conversation with my date, leaving him stranded, finally, he left with his frens. and next, i received a message from him..
really random thoughts.
suddenly i realised, it's not going to work out between us anymore.
-it's really over-
oh man! yesterday was a freaking tired day! anyway, got my a's results already. let's not talk abt it. it's freaking saddening. ): i'm applying for all the uni courses available, nie etc etc. well... hope i get into uni. i'm praying hard. i wish zj good luck too, hope tt he gets into nie. (:
for every other frens, i wish all of you well too (:
back to yst. work was like.... freak. sat and still relatively more ppl compared to other sats. time was running very very slowly.... but after work i went out with ter ter. man, we went to have beef kway teow at bugis! den we went shopping at raffles city. den went eating at the soup spoon! eating again. haha. den went esplanade... then, had chocolate fondue! heavenly. very nice!!!!! all his treat, my goodness.. haha. we kept eating! or isit jus mi?! after that, he send mi to boonlay n we went jp to get the xi gua shuang for his ulcer. den finally we went home! tiring! yet enjoyable (: i reached home ard 9plus.
i was researching on uni courses and all and i'm brought back to reality. what if, i reali cant get into local uni? what am i gg to do? i cant afford private uni fees. i cant afford overseas uni fees as well. i'm practically doomed. so what if i got a B for economics. that's h1 and that's my highest grade in my cert excluding mother tongue. my major subjs... SIGH.. thurs i can start applying for uni already. hope everything turns out fine....
tml's work again. AGAIN. i'm getting tired of this job. ): sian.
-unglam queen-
for every other frens, i wish all of you well too (:
back to yst. work was like.... freak. sat and still relatively more ppl compared to other sats. time was running very very slowly.... but after work i went out with ter ter. man, we went to have beef kway teow at bugis! den we went shopping at raffles city. den went eating at the soup spoon! eating again. haha. den went esplanade... then, had chocolate fondue! heavenly. very nice!!!!! all his treat, my goodness.. haha. we kept eating! or isit jus mi?! after that, he send mi to boonlay n we went jp to get the xi gua shuang for his ulcer. den finally we went home! tiring! yet enjoyable (: i reached home ard 9plus.
i was researching on uni courses and all and i'm brought back to reality. what if, i reali cant get into local uni? what am i gg to do? i cant afford private uni fees. i cant afford overseas uni fees as well. i'm practically doomed. so what if i got a B for economics. that's h1 and that's my highest grade in my cert excluding mother tongue. my major subjs... SIGH.. thurs i can start applying for uni already. hope everything turns out fine....
tml's work again. AGAIN. i'm getting tired of this job. ): sian.
-unglam queen-
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
duno what the hell is wrong with the damn tagboard but i'm going to change it when i have the time. hmm..
today is a busy day at work. i'm freaking tired!!!!! i miss emo guy. haha. this week i have not met up with him yet. poor him, had night shift last night till this morning than he is freaking tired now. he must be SLEEPING SOUNDLY. too tired. haha.
watched soccer that day (carling cup finals spurs v chelsea) with emo guy, but mi at my house, he at his. den, spurs finally win a trophy!!! i'm suuuuuupppppeeeerrrr happy!!!! haha. maybe becos of him! but i noe spurs put up a good fight and chelsea sucks, totally. full stop.
he called mi around 2am and he was so elated!! haha. i can hear from his voice. i'm excited too. haha. excited abt the carling cup as well as abt him calling mi. haha. well, the way things are now is rather good. close, but no commitments (:
extending my contract to 10th april i guess. wondering who will be doing singpass when adiba and diyong is gone. but it's highly doubtful it's mi!! haha. hopefully it's not me la. (:
-i miss you! haha :p-
today is a busy day at work. i'm freaking tired!!!!! i miss emo guy. haha. this week i have not met up with him yet. poor him, had night shift last night till this morning than he is freaking tired now. he must be SLEEPING SOUNDLY. too tired. haha.
watched soccer that day (carling cup finals spurs v chelsea) with emo guy, but mi at my house, he at his. den, spurs finally win a trophy!!! i'm suuuuuupppppeeeerrrr happy!!!! haha. maybe becos of him! but i noe spurs put up a good fight and chelsea sucks, totally. full stop.
he called mi around 2am and he was so elated!! haha. i can hear from his voice. i'm excited too. haha. excited abt the carling cup as well as abt him calling mi. haha. well, the way things are now is rather good. close, but no commitments (:
extending my contract to 10th april i guess. wondering who will be doing singpass when adiba and diyong is gone. but it's highly doubtful it's mi!! haha. hopefully it's not me la. (:
-i miss you! haha :p-
Saturday, February 23, 2008
let mi update on last night. haha. LOL. before that i wana say that my ex actually called mi on thurs night asking mi out for some talks regarding this private institution thing. well, i will be tired after work, and i reali am. but the main point is that, i dun think i wud wana go with him. i mean the feeling will be different and awkward somehow. when we were tgt, i nv rejected any request from him when it comes to gg out. but ever since we broke up, i'm not at all keen to meet up with him. it just brings back some sad memories. he seemed pissed cos despite him urging mi to go for umpteen times, i decided not to go.
ok.. last night i went out with emo-guy cos he need not report to camp yst! he's gg for reservist anyway. i miss him at work la. well, we met at city hall and went to marina square. went to swensen's!! had my favourite pasta and walnut rocky road. DELICIOUS!!! haha. (: after that, we went drinking at this german bar at millenia walk. had a great time there as that was a good place to chill out. sat there and chatted, listened to the band sing, the crowd and stuff like tt, it's a nice place. den walked around window shopping den headed home! again, he sent mi home to my house downstairs. so nice of him (:
ltr i'm gg for this talk at suntec city. hmm. for this one hour talk. then gg shopping again!!!!!!!! haha. hopefully i dun spend ! goodness mi. haha.
-baby, where's the hug?-
ok.. last night i went out with emo-guy cos he need not report to camp yst! he's gg for reservist anyway. i miss him at work la. well, we met at city hall and went to marina square. went to swensen's!! had my favourite pasta and walnut rocky road. DELICIOUS!!! haha. (: after that, we went drinking at this german bar at millenia walk. had a great time there as that was a good place to chill out. sat there and chatted, listened to the band sing, the crowd and stuff like tt, it's a nice place. den walked around window shopping den headed home! again, he sent mi home to my house downstairs. so nice of him (:
ltr i'm gg for this talk at suntec city. hmm. for this one hour talk. then gg shopping again!!!!!!!! haha. hopefully i dun spend ! goodness mi. haha.
-baby, where's the hug?-
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
his answers were all rather contradicting. i confronted him last night and asked what he meant when he said he liked mi as a fren and later he said he like mi. he thought that "isn't it the same?" i was like... hai. i reali duno la. he said he didnt want to lead mi on. but he is leading mi on!! and he says he knows that he is leading mi on. and so. WHY is he leading mi on?! CONTRADICTING...
he looks at mi as a fren as well as a possible partner. ok... as in the rationale behind why he said those things.. i duno. ): there's totally no need for him to say all those things and we can date as usual. but now that he has said all this, i duno if i can stil do it. he still wants it this way, like i want to. but i duno if it will stil be the same. i told him that i mite be fixing my last day back to 29feb and i wun get to see him again. i duno if i can still face him like the way i usually will do.
-contradicting-
he looks at mi as a fren as well as a possible partner. ok... as in the rationale behind why he said those things.. i duno. ): there's totally no need for him to say all those things and we can date as usual. but now that he has said all this, i duno if i can stil do it. he still wants it this way, like i want to. but i duno if it will stil be the same. i told him that i mite be fixing my last day back to 29feb and i wun get to see him again. i duno if i can still face him like the way i usually will do.
-contradicting-
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
freaking longggggg since i blogged right?? events took place one after another...
got to know xxx much better and have been msging each other since then. i should say i get the sign from him but i still have to be cautious about it. i actually went out with xxx on valentine's day. went to PS for a movie then to the glass house fish & co for the super late dinner. we were the last to leave the restaurant. very nice of him to send mi home in a cab and even acc mi to the lift. he paid for everything that day, and i feel bad.. i wana treat him back to something- food or drinks.
i should admit that i feel very happy when i'm with him and even though he is 11 yrs elder than i, i feel that we can click well. (: but still, i'm not very sure of his feelings towards me.
last night while msging, he said something like he hope tt i dun get the wrong idea and tt he treat mi like a fren. i mean, i feel that i have a right to feel angry cos whatever that he was doing is like leading mi on. i jus said bye and din noe what to sms anymore. den he called but i din ans. he explained things to mi thru msging and called but still, i din ans. i jus said that he dun have to mind about how i feel. he then msged mi and said that he like mi. i mean, i'm reali confused as to how is he really feeling towards me. for a moment he say he like mi as a fren, and the next moment, he said he like mi.
now i'm thinking if i should bring back my last day to 29 feb. if i do, i wun get to see him again. maybe that's a way to end things. but i still wana stay like this with him cos i really feel happy with him. as what he have said, i think we should just continue exploring each other's personality and see if we could build up a r/s from there.
meeting my ex tml after work. he said he has got something to give me and i got to get back something from him too.. hmm. duno leh. hai.
-i'm freaking confused now-
got to know xxx much better and have been msging each other since then. i should say i get the sign from him but i still have to be cautious about it. i actually went out with xxx on valentine's day. went to PS for a movie then to the glass house fish & co for the super late dinner. we were the last to leave the restaurant. very nice of him to send mi home in a cab and even acc mi to the lift. he paid for everything that day, and i feel bad.. i wana treat him back to something- food or drinks.
i should admit that i feel very happy when i'm with him and even though he is 11 yrs elder than i, i feel that we can click well. (: but still, i'm not very sure of his feelings towards me.
last night while msging, he said something like he hope tt i dun get the wrong idea and tt he treat mi like a fren. i mean, i feel that i have a right to feel angry cos whatever that he was doing is like leading mi on. i jus said bye and din noe what to sms anymore. den he called but i din ans. he explained things to mi thru msging and called but still, i din ans. i jus said that he dun have to mind about how i feel. he then msged mi and said that he like mi. i mean, i'm reali confused as to how is he really feeling towards me. for a moment he say he like mi as a fren, and the next moment, he said he like mi.
now i'm thinking if i should bring back my last day to 29 feb. if i do, i wun get to see him again. maybe that's a way to end things. but i still wana stay like this with him cos i really feel happy with him. as what he have said, i think we should just continue exploring each other's personality and see if we could build up a r/s from there.
meeting my ex tml after work. he said he has got something to give me and i got to get back something from him too.. hmm. duno leh. hai.
-i'm freaking confused now-
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
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yst wanted to treat emo guy to coffee bean but in the end 'technology' ended up treating us. goodness. haha. so i'm gg to treat him again today! (:
he's so nice. bought a cough medicine for mi ((: . hees. still got a spoon for mi . so nice!! den yst after coffee bean, we went taka to help 'tech' get a gift for his gf. haha . then after tt 'tech' left for his reunion dinner, leaving only emo guy and i. so we went home! lol .......
finally, after many many years, i'm gg to m'sia again ! i reali miss them!! lol . i'm gg there tml, after getting my new biometric passport. (:
highlighted my hair, and i'm happy with it (: .
-he knows it all-
he's so nice. bought a cough medicine for mi ((: . hees. still got a spoon for mi . so nice!! den yst after coffee bean, we went taka to help 'tech' get a gift for his gf. haha . then after tt 'tech' left for his reunion dinner, leaving only emo guy and i. so we went home! lol .......
finally, after many many years, i'm gg to m'sia again ! i reali miss them!! lol . i'm gg there tml, after getting my new biometric passport. (:
highlighted my hair, and i'm happy with it (: .
-he knows it all-
Monday, February 04, 2008
damn! i'm sick .. bleh. coughing and coughing. i'm gg to die. hai...
anyway, new updates!! my ex called mi a week ago, asking mi out to join him for shopping for his clothes and stuff, and even to m'sia. i know it's not possible, so i rejected. hai. i mean. it's too late. why dun he give me more attention while we were still tgt? really, too late. maybe the saying "one cherishes only when the person is gone" is true..
well, things on my side is gg well (: . played bball w the CSOs on tues till v late. haha. it was fun man. i wana play again!!! wed i went bugis w hid, thurs went for reunion dinner w colleagues and officers at lau pa sat. it was a very interesting outing with them.
went out with emo guy on sat. ((: very happy.. went to marina square "spageddies" then shop around. wahaha. he's got quite a good taste too. reali had fun gg out with him... den we quickly rush home for soccer. damn. i almost died watching the match. spurs led 1-0! and at the last last second, man utd finally scored to equalise ! at least they get back one point. shew... it was damn close. and emo guy was like "bloody shit! not again?!" ...
considering still....
-i'm bored-
anyway, new updates!! my ex called mi a week ago, asking mi out to join him for shopping for his clothes and stuff, and even to m'sia. i know it's not possible, so i rejected. hai. i mean. it's too late. why dun he give me more attention while we were still tgt? really, too late. maybe the saying "one cherishes only when the person is gone" is true..
well, things on my side is gg well (: . played bball w the CSOs on tues till v late. haha. it was fun man. i wana play again!!! wed i went bugis w hid, thurs went for reunion dinner w colleagues and officers at lau pa sat. it was a very interesting outing with them.
went out with emo guy on sat. ((: very happy.. went to marina square "spageddies" then shop around. wahaha. he's got quite a good taste too. reali had fun gg out with him... den we quickly rush home for soccer. damn. i almost died watching the match. spurs led 1-0! and at the last last second, man utd finally scored to equalise ! at least they get back one point. shew... it was damn close. and emo guy was like "bloody shit! not again?!" ...
considering still....
-i'm bored-
Sunday, January 27, 2008
hey !!!! lol . lots of things to blog abt actually but some are not convenient to say here. i duno if i should look out for guys of my age anymore. i think it's better for mi to look for older guys. more matured and financially stable ones. dun look for too hot ones !! they only give us a feeling of insecurity. haha . LOL
anyway. work has been rather normal these few days. and i'm v tired . haha . cos of gatherings and outings . yst met vinleon (mr ang) and mich ! haha . lots to catch up!! was like talking alot and all... went to billy bombers to have our dinner . and my goodness i spent almost 200bucks yst !!!! hai !
monday i'm gg to meet them again. but hopefully this will be a bigger scale one. (: then on tues, i'm gg to play bball with my officers and colleagues (: . cool. i cant wait to play!!! haha
anyway, valentine's is gg to be a boring day. hai. hopefully something will happen? hmm....
shall update next time . bb !
-give me a sign-
anyway. work has been rather normal these few days. and i'm v tired . haha . cos of gatherings and outings . yst met vinleon (mr ang) and mich ! haha . lots to catch up!! was like talking alot and all... went to billy bombers to have our dinner . and my goodness i spent almost 200bucks yst !!!! hai !
monday i'm gg to meet them again. but hopefully this will be a bigger scale one. (: then on tues, i'm gg to play bball with my officers and colleagues (: . cool. i cant wait to play!!! haha
anyway, valentine's is gg to be a boring day. hai. hopefully something will happen? hmm....
shall update next time . bb !
-give me a sign-
Friday, January 25, 2008
hey. THIS IS MY 100TH POST!!!! lol.
anyway, i duno what to blog abt actually. but well, jus for info, my bro did v badly for his o's la. LOL. hai. L1R4 27. hope that he can get into at least poly?? talking abt tt, i heard tt this batch didnt do reali well la. hmm...
results results results. i'm freaking scared of my a's now. what if i do v badly and cant get into uni? i dun think i can afford to retake now. ): talking abt studies is like reali stressful.
-i'm SCARED-
anyway, i duno what to blog abt actually. but well, jus for info, my bro did v badly for his o's la. LOL. hai. L1R4 27. hope that he can get into at least poly?? talking abt tt, i heard tt this batch didnt do reali well la. hmm...
results results results. i'm freaking scared of my a's now. what if i do v badly and cant get into uni? i dun think i can afford to retake now. ): talking abt studies is like reali stressful.
-i'm SCARED-
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
today is black and white day . everyone of us dressed in black-and-white or black-or-white . what for ? for the fun of it . we're also gg to take pics to remember this special day . LOL ! sad thing is digital lover cant report for work today . cos his grandmother passed away . hai . sad... hope tt he will get over it soon.. now i'm thinking of visiting the funeral wake . duno leh . see how first . and moreover, no one is accompaning mi there . hmm ....
yst met him to pass him the money for the food . quite sad though . jus passed him the money and he passed mi the stuff and there he goes . ): reali sad ... maybe one day he will look for mi again ...
i'm a lone ranger today ! i chose my lunch at 2pm . my goodness . haha . cos if i eat late, den when i get back to work late, i'll only need to work for another 1 hour plus to 2 hours !! haha . lol . but it's all psychological la . funny . anyway i'm feeling much better today . maybe time reali will heal my wound . but i noe for sure, i'll NEVER forget him in anyway . hmm
tml gg to shop with colleagues at bugis . i'm gg to window shop for clothes and get a new pair of heels !! tada . but the plans mite be cancelled cos we mite be visiting the wake tgt tml . hmm .....
tt's it for now i guess ...
-time mite heal everything-
yst met him to pass him the money for the food . quite sad though . jus passed him the money and he passed mi the stuff and there he goes . ): reali sad ... maybe one day he will look for mi again ...
i'm a lone ranger today ! i chose my lunch at 2pm . my goodness . haha . cos if i eat late, den when i get back to work late, i'll only need to work for another 1 hour plus to 2 hours !! haha . lol . but it's all psychological la . funny . anyway i'm feeling much better today . maybe time reali will heal my wound . but i noe for sure, i'll NEVER forget him in anyway . hmm
tml gg to shop with colleagues at bugis . i'm gg to window shop for clothes and get a new pair of heels !! tada . but the plans mite be cancelled cos we mite be visiting the wake tgt tml . hmm .....
tt's it for now i guess ...
-time mite heal everything-
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
yst was my first full day of singlehood . morning was dreadful . i was like about to die there . ): kept tearing and all ..... but as hours and minutes passed, i felt much better . all thanks to my colleagues . nice and caring colleagues .
i know it's not easy to let go . and i feel bad letting go . i was urging him not to give up so easily but i myself actually gave up before he did .
went to buy clothes with diyong and ziyong and also hidayah who wanted to buy a keyboard for her beloved . so sweet of her . they are really nice ppl and i appreciate their company . went to catch a movie with zy and dy at jp . ONE MISSED CALL . sucks actually . shocking but not scary . the ending is the worst . and it is super similar to this japanese movie i watched few years back . but still, it's their those guys tt made mi let down my hair and cheer up . thanks alot guys !!!
had a chat w him last night . it was depressing and heartbreaking . i am not as strong as some who can afford to make a clean break . i noe if i still meetup with him after the breakup, it'll no longer be the same and we mite feel awkward . i know tt this guy, i will never forget . i hope he reali wun forget me . if only he could say it's the right time and tt he loves mi, i wun have to make this decision .
i will still open the option to him - "you can still look for mi one day, when you feel tt it's the right time" .
-stay happy, my love-
i know it's not easy to let go . and i feel bad letting go . i was urging him not to give up so easily but i myself actually gave up before he did .
went to buy clothes with diyong and ziyong and also hidayah who wanted to buy a keyboard for her beloved . so sweet of her . they are really nice ppl and i appreciate their company . went to catch a movie with zy and dy at jp . ONE MISSED CALL . sucks actually . shocking but not scary . the ending is the worst . and it is super similar to this japanese movie i watched few years back . but still, it's their those guys tt made mi let down my hair and cheer up . thanks alot guys !!!
had a chat w him last night . it was depressing and heartbreaking . i am not as strong as some who can afford to make a clean break . i noe if i still meetup with him after the breakup, it'll no longer be the same and we mite feel awkward . i know tt this guy, i will never forget . i hope he reali wun forget me . if only he could say it's the right time and tt he loves mi, i wun have to make this decision .
i will still open the option to him - "you can still look for mi one day, when you feel tt it's the right time" .
-stay happy, my love-
Sunday, January 13, 2008
time flies . 5 months have passed . and i'm all alone once again . no one can understand how i feel right now. not even YOU .
all those sweets moments jus flashed back and i noe . i have no choice but to let go . i noe there will be nothing out of this r/s . tt's y . i initiated it . cos i noe . u'll not do it . cos u feel bad towards mi .
i'm totally heartbroken . but . for our sake, it's better this way . goodbye, my love . and i reali do love you .
-it's all over-
all those sweets moments jus flashed back and i noe . i have no choice but to let go . i noe there will be nothing out of this r/s . tt's y . i initiated it . cos i noe . u'll not do it . cos u feel bad towards mi .
i'm totally heartbroken . but . for our sake, it's better this way . goodbye, my love . and i reali do love you .
-it's all over-
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED . BORED .
rarrrrrrr ........ damn damn damn . bored bored bored . LOL . lots of gathering now and then . hmm . lots of ppl getting their last day . first was sophia and janaki . tt one was not much of a strong impression cos at tt time i jus joined the board . well, next was jameson and george and nas . george and nas were perm staff at our board's main branch . both posted to jurong east . i dun reali talk to them, usually only regarding work . jameson, my good friend, i should say . next, zi yong is having his last day on 24th jan . another person gg . so fast . gg to have dinner or lunch with him some day . hahs .
mi and janica are thinking of extending our contract though . thinking of work, a level's suddenly came to my mind . i wonder how i did for a's . i'm afraid i cant get into uni . i wana go to NTU ! lol . haha . biological sciences . hmm . hopefully i do well enough . i heard tt the results will be out in end of feb . jus when i'm ending my contract with the board . rar rar .
about the interjc pageant . lol . i wonder who win . haha .
-bored-
rarrrrrrr ........ damn damn damn . bored bored bored . LOL . lots of gathering now and then . hmm . lots of ppl getting their last day . first was sophia and janaki . tt one was not much of a strong impression cos at tt time i jus joined the board . well, next was jameson and george and nas . george and nas were perm staff at our board's main branch . both posted to jurong east . i dun reali talk to them, usually only regarding work . jameson, my good friend, i should say . next, zi yong is having his last day on 24th jan . another person gg . so fast . gg to have dinner or lunch with him some day . hahs .
mi and janica are thinking of extending our contract though . thinking of work, a level's suddenly came to my mind . i wonder how i did for a's . i'm afraid i cant get into uni . i wana go to NTU ! lol . haha . biological sciences . hmm . hopefully i do well enough . i heard tt the results will be out in end of feb . jus when i'm ending my contract with the board . rar rar .
about the interjc pageant . lol . i wonder who win . haha .
-bored-
Monday, January 07, 2008
Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!! hahaha . i'm at my workplace once again . haha . (:
anyway, i met my long-lost primary school fren a few days ago . haha . we were both gg to work la . haha , he did not change much though . still the same but at least he talks more than before i think . hahaha . (: a nice guy . talk alot . and alot in common . hahaha . funny .
well, darling seems to be neglecting me again . ): why why why ? i dont want history to repeat itself again . hais ! i'm so sian now . it's been a week since i saw him . and quite a few days since we talked on the phone . i miss him ..
work is getting back to normal again . tt's why i have the time to even blog now ! hahaha (: . well, hope those customers will never come again ! SHOO SHOO !!! urgh . haha . i'm getting bored of this job . thanks to all those nasty customers ! urgh . anyway i'm thinking of extending my stay in CPF . hmm . might wana change my agency . higher pay maybe . hahaha . LOL .
attended a wedding dinner tt day . had 3 glasses of red wine and i'm still sober while my cousin is feeling a lil tipsy after 2 glasses . haha . feeling super sleepy after the red wine . haha . but i had a good meal there . nice ! meritus mandarin . haha . i wana go there again !
wana go sketches with him . but no news at the moment . blah . i'm feeling unwell today . duno why . jus feeling DAMN heaty . when i shut my eyes, i can feel the heat . wow . damn . tt's all for now i guess .....
-feeling super unwell!-
anyway, i met my long-lost primary school fren a few days ago . haha . we were both gg to work la . haha , he did not change much though . still the same but at least he talks more than before i think . hahaha . (: a nice guy . talk alot . and alot in common . hahaha . funny .
well, darling seems to be neglecting me again . ): why why why ? i dont want history to repeat itself again . hais ! i'm so sian now . it's been a week since i saw him . and quite a few days since we talked on the phone . i miss him ..
work is getting back to normal again . tt's why i have the time to even blog now ! hahaha (: . well, hope those customers will never come again ! SHOO SHOO !!! urgh . haha . i'm getting bored of this job . thanks to all those nasty customers ! urgh . anyway i'm thinking of extending my stay in CPF . hmm . might wana change my agency . higher pay maybe . hahaha . LOL .
attended a wedding dinner tt day . had 3 glasses of red wine and i'm still sober while my cousin is feeling a lil tipsy after 2 glasses . haha . feeling super sleepy after the red wine . haha . but i had a good meal there . nice ! meritus mandarin . haha . i wana go there again !
wana go sketches with him . but no news at the moment . blah . i'm feeling unwell today . duno why . jus feeling DAMN heaty . when i shut my eyes, i can feel the heat . wow . damn . tt's all for now i guess .....
-feeling super unwell!-
Saturday, January 05, 2008
it's a long long time since i blogged . work is reali reali busy !!! due to the gst offset closing date . SUPER LONG QUEUE !!!!!!!! damn it . cos some elderly are rather deaf, we have to practically shout from 8 to 5 . wow . madness . and lunch is reduced to half an hour . it was crazy !!!! and some nasty customers made our day worse . lol
luckily things are getting back to normal now (: . but we're all damn shag now . haha . yst was our gathering w jameson cos it was his last day on monday so we wanted to have a meal w him before he goes back to school . but it din turn out well . cos his gf was there . i think there mite be some misunderstanding . i duno why the gf die die also wana come . plus she come and pull a long face liao . w/o saying hi to anyone of us . LOL . whatever . the main thing is tt my mood is spoilt yst . i cant tell him why i'm so pissed off since he can see tt i'm in a bad mood yst . i stil cant tell cos ltr things will be difficult for him .
was buying shades and she was staring at mi . like what the hell la !!! urgh . damn damn damn . next time if there's any form of gathering, i must specify tt it's strictly for CPF members !!! LOL .
i shouldn't feel so pissed anymore . lac lac lac . i hope darling calls mi soon . i miss him so much !!!
-nv put gf infront of frens !-
luckily things are getting back to normal now (: . but we're all damn shag now . haha . yst was our gathering w jameson cos it was his last day on monday so we wanted to have a meal w him before he goes back to school . but it din turn out well . cos his gf was there . i think there mite be some misunderstanding . i duno why the gf die die also wana come . plus she come and pull a long face liao . w/o saying hi to anyone of us . LOL . whatever . the main thing is tt my mood is spoilt yst . i cant tell him why i'm so pissed off since he can see tt i'm in a bad mood yst . i stil cant tell cos ltr things will be difficult for him .
was buying shades and she was staring at mi . like what the hell la !!! urgh . damn damn damn . next time if there's any form of gathering, i must specify tt it's strictly for CPF members !!! LOL .
i shouldn't feel so pissed anymore . lac lac lac . i hope darling calls mi soon . i miss him so much !!!
-nv put gf infront of frens !-
Thursday, December 27, 2007
hi ! hees . it was a lovely christmas ! although i did not spend alot of time w darling . i really love our christmas celebration . (:
anyway, this was how it went . firstly we went to jack's place to have our xmas set lunch haha . he had roasted turkey while i had my favourite ribeye's steak ! woots .. i love my medium rare steak . it was rather delicious . haha . and cheap . hmm . the set lunch cost 18.20 each . and then we had this mini chocolate log cake which was v nice ! it's chocolate, u know ! after which, we ordered a side dish, prawn with mango cocktail . it was blehh ... i din quite like it la . lol .
i had a pleasant surprise, a reali pleasant one (: . while eating, darling took out the xmas present for me . hees . i reali din expect it la ! lol . cos he kept insisting tt i shld not buy any present for him . hmm . so after dinner i went home while he went for his family gathering . finally i got to open the present . hahs . was a jigsaw puzzle with a personal message from him ! and also , there was a pixie necklace (: . i reali love it . (:
i am so so so happy !!!!!!!!
anyway i'm at work now . gtg and serve more demanding customers !!!!!!!! bye !
-(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:-
anyway, this was how it went . firstly we went to jack's place to have our xmas set lunch haha . he had roasted turkey while i had my favourite ribeye's steak ! woots .. i love my medium rare steak . it was rather delicious . haha . and cheap . hmm . the set lunch cost 18.20 each . and then we had this mini chocolate log cake which was v nice ! it's chocolate, u know ! after which, we ordered a side dish, prawn with mango cocktail . it was blehh ... i din quite like it la . lol .
i had a pleasant surprise, a reali pleasant one (: . while eating, darling took out the xmas present for me . hees . i reali din expect it la ! lol . cos he kept insisting tt i shld not buy any present for him . hmm . so after dinner i went home while he went for his family gathering . finally i got to open the present . hahs . was a jigsaw puzzle with a personal message from him ! and also , there was a pixie necklace (: . i reali love it . (:
i am so so so happy !!!!!!!!
anyway i'm at work now . gtg and serve more demanding customers !!!!!!!! bye !
-(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:-
Sunday, December 23, 2007
today's sunday !! and i can finally slack at home . haha . tml is mon, christmas eve . my long awaited gathering w my m'sia frens is nearing !! but only one of them is coming over i guess . tml he'll be coming over w his dad . haha . i reali miss them !!! (:
anyway, tml i have to work full day ! hmm . nvm . for the sake of money ... LOL . tues i'm gg out w darling !!! hees but i reali duno where to go for a wonderful lunch . hmm any suggestions ?? lol .
yst i just went cs hair spa w chris . goodness me . it costs me 45bucks for wash, cut and blow !! at least i like my hair . haha . lol . i MITE be gg there to highlight my hair next time . hmm ... chris wanted to perm her hair but the hair stylist said her hair too short and thick. if permed, will not be nice . so she had her hair done - bob hair . plus highlight . highlight was 90bucks and treatment was 30 . so she spent 120bucks in total ! hmm . but i reali like the service there . v nice and spacious . the design is not bad . the hair-washing skills are good too . they dun use their nails to scratch ur scalp , they use their finger tips . and the massaging was reali good . no shoulder aches or anything after tt . haha . i would reali wana go there again . IF I HAVE THE MONEY . (:
i'm gg to do some house work now ! hahs . tml gg to work again . so fast ! lol . haha . ok gtg . bye ! ((:
-wonderful lunch!-
anyway, tml i have to work full day ! hmm . nvm . for the sake of money ... LOL . tues i'm gg out w darling !!! hees but i reali duno where to go for a wonderful lunch . hmm any suggestions ?? lol .
yst i just went cs hair spa w chris . goodness me . it costs me 45bucks for wash, cut and blow !! at least i like my hair . haha . lol . i MITE be gg there to highlight my hair next time . hmm ... chris wanted to perm her hair but the hair stylist said her hair too short and thick. if permed, will not be nice . so she had her hair done - bob hair . plus highlight . highlight was 90bucks and treatment was 30 . so she spent 120bucks in total ! hmm . but i reali like the service there . v nice and spacious . the design is not bad . the hair-washing skills are good too . they dun use their nails to scratch ur scalp , they use their finger tips . and the massaging was reali good . no shoulder aches or anything after tt . haha . i would reali wana go there again . IF I HAVE THE MONEY . (:
i'm gg to do some house work now ! hahs . tml gg to work again . so fast ! lol . haha . ok gtg . bye ! ((:
-wonderful lunch!-
Friday, December 14, 2007
i'm back from work . tml is finally saturday ! i'm tired . today jus met w one sick customer . he tried to touch my hand !!!! eek ! disgusting sicko . den he kept asking me the same qns OVER and OVER again . so pissed off !!! i used the officer's method : "jus now we have already discussed abt this" .. but he jus cant stop . i said at least ten times of tt phrase . and F ! he started throwing mi qns like "so are you studying or working now?" like DUH ?! i'm working la ! is he talking to air ??!! "waiting for results isit ? what results?" . i was so damn freaked out by tt sicko . and i attended to Janica's customer and ignored him for a moment . after which, i quickly called for the next customer and TA DA ! he finally go away . SICK !!! everywhere i work i meet w this kinda sicko !!
today i still din get to meet him . it's almost 2 wks and i reali miss him . especially after yst . hopefully nothing goes wrong so we can meet tml as planned . shall think over the situation my officer proposed . it mite work . who knows !! ha . i don't know . for me, i follow my heart . and my heart tells mi i stil love him v much and is not at all ready to let him go .
jus hope tt he can accede to my request and tt both of us can reali cherish one another . one last chance, i should say . I REALI CHERISH THAT ONE LAST CHANCE . i hope he cherish tt too .
he is wonderful .
someone tt has left a great impact in my life .
someone so real .
someone so beautiful .
someone i wud never wana let go of.
someone whom i will always be there for.
someone whom i need.
someone that cheers me up.
someone who knows me.
someone so special.
someone whom i love most thruout my life .
someone whom i really love.
you are my everything .
-"i really like you alot"-
today i still din get to meet him . it's almost 2 wks and i reali miss him . especially after yst . hopefully nothing goes wrong so we can meet tml as planned . shall think over the situation my officer proposed . it mite work . who knows !! ha . i don't know . for me, i follow my heart . and my heart tells mi i stil love him v much and is not at all ready to let him go .
jus hope tt he can accede to my request and tt both of us can reali cherish one another . one last chance, i should say . I REALI CHERISH THAT ONE LAST CHANCE . i hope he cherish tt too .
he is wonderful .
someone tt has left a great impact in my life .
someone so real .
someone so beautiful .
someone i wud never wana let go of.
someone whom i will always be there for.
someone whom i need.
someone that cheers me up.
someone who knows me.
someone so special.
someone whom i love most thruout my life .
someone whom i really love.
you are my everything .
-"i really like you alot"-
it's been one week since i blogged . hmm . well, lots of things happened i guess . hais . it's reali sad . ):
it's reali hard to let go . and i dun wan to let go . cos the feelings are real . my heart is bleeding . and i reali din noe what to do . cud it be my fault ? cud it be tt i'm the one who not understanding enough ? i reali don't know . all those things tt he said made mi cried so much . not becos it's hurting . it's becos it's deep from his heart . i was touched . at tt moment, i realised, i'm not at all ready to let go . ):
i hope we can give each other one more chance . i hope things will turn out fine (: and i'm sure it will .
i love him so much .
-dun wana let u go-
it's reali hard to let go . and i dun wan to let go . cos the feelings are real . my heart is bleeding . and i reali din noe what to do . cud it be my fault ? cud it be tt i'm the one who not understanding enough ? i reali don't know . all those things tt he said made mi cried so much . not becos it's hurting . it's becos it's deep from his heart . i was touched . at tt moment, i realised, i'm not at all ready to let go . ):
i hope we can give each other one more chance . i hope things will turn out fine (: and i'm sure it will .
i love him so much .
-dun wana let u go-
Friday, December 07, 2007
firstly, i'm here to say i'm reali sorry . mind or flesh ? which is worse ? i think flesh is worse but mind is bad enuff .
jus an eye candy . although he's reali hot and nice . and decent, i reali do still love my bf . so . no . i'll still stick w darling and not let him down again . he doesnt noe but i jus feel guilty tt he's psychologically betrayed by mi . jus hope tt he will treat mi better (: hah .
tml's last day of work for the week (: cheers . but darling cant acc mi for lunch ): . next time . next time . .... i reali miss you ! (:
- a man is not who he is.
a man is who he is not. -
jus an eye candy . although he's reali hot and nice . and decent, i reali do still love my bf . so . no . i'll still stick w darling and not let him down again . he doesnt noe but i jus feel guilty tt he's psychologically betrayed by mi . jus hope tt he will treat mi better (: hah .
tml's last day of work for the week (: cheers . but darling cant acc mi for lunch ): . next time . next time . .... i reali miss you ! (:
- a man is not who he is.
a man is who he is not. -
Thursday, December 06, 2007
hey ! i'm back (: after a few days . haha . i'm rather bz w work nowadays . lol . tiring i should say . meeting w all sorts of customers and all . URGH . but for the sake of my salary, i shall bear w it ! (: hahaha . sad thing is none of my frens are working w mi there . if not, it'll be better ! haha . but my colleagues are all v nice and some hot and cute ones . haha . reali nice knowing them . well, my contract ends on 29 feb . hope i get used to it and the CSO is happy w my performance so much tt i can extend my contract . hahah .
something dreadful happened today which i would most probably not talk abt it here . it's jus so bad u see . and confidential somehow . hais . but i'll jus have to say tt i'm reali sorry and i feel really bad abt it . ):
anyway, regarding me and him . sometimes i wonder this and wonder tt . and i tot . m i thinking too much ? well, gals are like tt i guess . had a quarrel tt day . sigh . things are rather ok now . had a talk w my colleague . and realised tt my relationship w him doesnt seem fruitful . m i really thinking too much - tt's the prob . how long have tt been ? ... since he told me that few words ...
whatever ! i shall jus let nature takes its course . if reali things cant work out, then i'll jus have to go tt way . i still hope tt things can turn out well . and i reali wish tt i'll be the one seeing him thru his NS days and be there for him always . let's see how things go . well, i still have my frens who can always lend mi their shoulders if things reali turn out bad ! haha ((:
alright . i gtg . (: till then !
- the future is bleak -
something dreadful happened today which i would most probably not talk abt it here . it's jus so bad u see . and confidential somehow . hais . but i'll jus have to say tt i'm reali sorry and i feel really bad abt it . ):
anyway, regarding me and him . sometimes i wonder this and wonder tt . and i tot . m i thinking too much ? well, gals are like tt i guess . had a quarrel tt day . sigh . things are rather ok now . had a talk w my colleague . and realised tt my relationship w him doesnt seem fruitful . m i really thinking too much - tt's the prob . how long have tt been ? ... since he told me that few words ...
whatever ! i shall jus let nature takes its course . if reali things cant work out, then i'll jus have to go tt way . i still hope tt things can turn out well . and i reali wish tt i'll be the one seeing him thru his NS days and be there for him always . let's see how things go . well, i still have my frens who can always lend mi their shoulders if things reali turn out bad ! haha ((:
alright . i gtg . (: till then !
- the future is bleak -
Saturday, December 01, 2007
today is like . hmm . tired . i guess it has been so long since i woke up so early . i meant yst waking up early la . cos of work . so i'm feeling rather tired today . gosh . lots of things to do . and buy . and i'm goin to be so broke . urgh . yeah . gg out w darling on sunday . (: i guess i'll jus buy another set of office wear and a pair of heels . but i've only got $56 left for next week . damn it . why am i so poor ! *#@&%#*&! i'll see how it goes . hai . maybe have to borrow . i dun like tt . urgh .
today is MUGGING day ! haha . i'll try to memorise all those package stuff . lol ! dun reali understand why am i deployed to the main branch . hmm . but still, at least it's not inaccessible . jus tt i have to wake up earlier and walk a longer distance . and squeeeeeezzzzeee with all those ppl in the extremely crowded train . it's the peak hours . oh man . i hate crowded places . and during lunchtime i have to walk to the nearest hawker centre . and similarly, lunch hours, CROWDED ! lol . hahaha .
ok gonna go do some housework and finally MUG ! haha . (: bye !
- set . i'm sticking with you ! ((: -
today is MUGGING day ! haha . i'll try to memorise all those package stuff . lol ! dun reali understand why am i deployed to the main branch . hmm . but still, at least it's not inaccessible . jus tt i have to wake up earlier and walk a longer distance . and squeeeeeezzzzeee with all those ppl in the extremely crowded train . it's the peak hours . oh man . i hate crowded places . and during lunchtime i have to walk to the nearest hawker centre . and similarly, lunch hours, CROWDED ! lol . hahaha .
ok gonna go do some housework and finally MUG ! haha . (: bye !
- set . i'm sticking with you ! ((: -
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