why is it that those that you don't expect will shower you with care be the ones that show care and concern? while those that are supposed to care for you, do not show you the "required" amount of care? am i too demanding? ):

I feel that I shouldn't compare... But why? why does one person care more than the other? why? ): shouldn't it be the other way round? it's hurting me badly... it's killing me... I keep asking "why" but never was there an answer that could shut me up. Is it supposed to hurt this much?

I'm drained too. I'm tired.. and I hope I can hide somewhere... ))):

If only blogspot has password-protected post...

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