it has been 1day plus. i think this is really a test for us. this is it. wish me luck. whatever the ending is, i will try my best to stay strong. i will cry buckets of tears if need to. deep down, i still hope to hear the answer that i want to hear. i will wait. "patience is the key".

recently i've been really really lazy to blog. and the worst thing is that i keep complaining that it's so bored and there's nothing to do online when i actually can blog. haha. i borrowed the sims 2 from christina and i haven started playing yet! -.- well, cos i'm not in the mood )): but i will try to play soon and return to her asap. (afterall it's really not nice to hold onto someone else's stuff for too long a time) thanks christina! (:

recently there has been dance after dance after dance. i'm dying. lol. i'm aching everywhere after Carol's session yst. lol. but the session was fun. i felt like i lost so much weight after that. LOL. i was doing fine during the session until i suddenly thought of him, and i ended up lost during the choreo. on the way back home, i was stoning and stoning, staring into blank spaces. ):

mahjong today. quite pissed somehow. shall not elaborate. haha. after that enxian and joc went jp with me to have dinner at thai express. den we talk and talk. den we went to the arcade and played there for quite long. haha. the main stuff we played there is the basketball and DDR. it's totally like exercising la. i was perspiring after a short while la. LOL. den we went starbucks to chat again... until damn late la... 11pm. well, we had lots to talk about.

really pissed at her. cos she dont understand what love is. her love is worth NOTHING, really NOTHING. and definitely, friendship to her means NOTHING too. it shows, it just shows. i finally see her true self. she can continue to cheapen herself, and be selfish for all she wants. and thinks that we're interfering with her love life. what i can say is that only true friends will tell you what you might not like to hear. you think those that supports you in everything you do are true friends? you're wrong. what i know is that she doesn't cherish our friendship by saying those things. i'm not gg to be soft on her anymore. she needs some serious telling-off. definitely that's all i'm gg do for her. nothing more anymore. in any case, she needs to learn her lesson. i will not give face.