today is friday . AND the main thing is time reali flies and i'm like left w 33 days to a's while baby has 32 days left . oh my god . how . i'm panicking now. tt's for sure . isit realistic to aim for a B in math ?? i duno . but i will do that . cos i'm trying hard for math . today ww, tt n me went for math consultation. lol . it was rather fruitful cos we learnt quite afew things . INTEGRATION - i'm beginning to love it . jus now i spent like 2 hours plus in the lib doing the int qns . i realised tt i've improved . at least i'm able to do more qns now . like the one on int xtan-1x ... LOL. ok well ... i feel tt today is a rather productive day tt's y i'm feeling rather happy today . even baby can see it . hahas .

someone got on our nerves and finally tt someone is gone. i'm disappointed at the things she did and said tt made this crack in our friendship- a never mend-able crack . and also disappointed at the same old way she's taking studies as . well, i noe tt it's like a hatred game now btwn us . i jus hope tt we "jin shui bu fan he shui" , meaning having no relations to each other, but as a fren or maybe ex-fren, i'm still hoping tt she'll study. maybe she is studying now but i hope it's studying hard enough . lol . she is gone and we're happy cos everything seems less tense now, which is the best situation for all . cont' to stay away and - yes - we'll all be glad . ppl ask y this n y tt . well, it's hard to explain . but jus tt we're washing our hands off her . i believe one day, somehow, maybe they'll understand .

anyway . my period is reali on time . luckily i got things prepared . woots . hahas . i'm glad it's getting regular, which is a good thing . i reali think guys shld experience this at least once in a lifetime . den they'll understand how we feel . haha . how interesting is tt if tt is reali gg to happen . hmm .... haha .

today we got back econs essay . i got a pathetic 7/25 . however, it was more den i expected, considering the length of my essay . i tot i wud get like a 2 ?? but i was surprised when i got my paper . and there was this para tt reali made mi happy . teacher marked "good!" . wow . FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY J2 ECONS ESSAY, i got these kinda comments . hmm . (: but the overall comments were tt my essay lost focus despite starting off quite well . now, i'm pinning all my hopes on case study . i nida get 31.5/60 at least to pass econs overall . i hope i can . let's pray ...

i'm not dwelling at how bad my results are now . cos i'm moving on. i'm studying . i'm practising . i dun wana waste $432 . and . most imptly . I WANT TO DO WELL . BBBB and a pass for GP ? can i do it ?? yes ! i'm working for it. (:

it's 2nd mth soon . on sunday . i hope he rmbs it . if he dun .. i'll .. strangle him !!!! cos i told him abt it EXPLICITLY . hahas . LOL .

baby, i hope u see this and get reali happy for my target and all . for u'll be happy if i am rite ?? i noe u'll do well soon . let's study hard . love you . ((:

-it's up to u
whether u want to make
a heaven out of a hell
or
take it as
a hell out of a heaven-