Actually... I feel that studying with you, will be the best way to make me study. Cos you will be just beside me. And I won't keep wondering what you are doing and so on... Having you around will make me really want to study and make be able to concentrate fully...

Biology is definitely killing me. =( to be honest, i've only READ THRU 30% of the whole animal bio. That means i have not started on invertebrates, and I haven started memorising any thing! And math test on tues, haven study (though i'm quite confident), and sci EXAM on thurs, also haven study. SIGH. =((((

Extracted this from Christina's entry...

how about your sons and daughters? your baby nieces and nephews?

or even someone you love now?

how many times do u look at the sleeping face

and think to yourself how beautiful that face is?

do you find yourself wanting to provide for this person, to be there when s/he's down,

to comfort, to guide, to love...

how often do you think of him/her?

rejoice whenever s/he does? grieve whenever s/he does?

have you ever felt such a love for something?

have you experienced that kind of love, but it's directed, solely, exclusively for you?

Christina should know my answer la hor. Infact, I think he should know too...

Yes. I love him more than anything else. And he's none other than Enxian... Don't even know if I will see him during the exam period. I'm gonna miss him badly for sure ='(

Now, this song by Westlife =)

What About Now?

Shadows fill an empty heart

As love is fading,

From all the things that we are

But are not saying

Can we see beyond the scars

And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky

And open up to

The ways you made me feel alive,

The ways I loved you

For all the things that never died,

To make it through the night,

Love will find you

What about now?

What about today?

What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love never went away?

What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it’s too late,

What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes

To start a new day

This broken heart can still survive

With a touch of your grace

Shadows fade into the light

I am by your side,

Where love will find you

What about now?

What about today?

What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love had never went away?

What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it’s too late,

What about now?

Now that we’re here,

Now that we’ve come this far,

Just hold on

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life,

I am yours.

What about now?

What about today?

What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love had never went away?

What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?

What about today?

What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love had never went away?

What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it’s too late,

Baby, before it’s too late,

Baby, before it’s too late,

What about now?

Yeah I'm back from school =)

Anyway, the following is a picture from Cafe World. It's christina's cafe! =)

It's a rare sight so i took a screenshot of it. hahaha. anyway christina, it's not my avatar that appeared when I visited your cafe. It's really the avatar visiting your cafe. you know those random ppl walking in and out? ya. tt's the one. and so happens that when i visited your cafe, the avatar visited your cafe too! and guess what, you hired me as your waiter and so, there's 2 identical "Jasmine"s there. hahaha. LOL. and quote willy, "looks like you, got red hair!". LOL. haha. oh no, cafe world is so fun. =)

oh yeah so, today had math tutorial. sigh. hell week has begun. =( shucks man. i realised my schedule is soooo packed that i don't have enough time to study for each modules. packed as in, the exam arrangements and such. i'll try my best. =/

Yeah, had lunch with him before heading to school! :DDDDD but he ate very little =( get well soon!! looks like he has lost abit of weight again. =( 10 nov is coming... i hope something miraculous will happen? or even a simple meal i will be happy... I miss you so much... And.. I love you...

SO tired!

I think I will go sleep soon. Duno why so shag. =/

Tml hope can wake up earlier to study, or maybe go sch early. LOL.

Oh well, recently i'm addicted to cafe world. =//// Christina too, right? Jaz also just started =) But i shall take it as a break from studying. hahaha.I tried YoVille. Not fun leh. boo~ Lazy to farm also. cos have to click and click every single square. but I'll still go visit my neighbours to earn exp to $! and also to look at my beautiful farm that has those beautiful hay bales over there. =))

I had supper with him and his friends yst and I'm so happy =)

But I've got diarrhea =/ Cos I ate ALOT of seafood yst! For lunch, I ate stingray and la-la together with Jaz and Joc. And plus the supper, which was also seafood.... woah. LOL.

ok la, lose some weight lor. hahaha.

realised that I can only sleep one hour later. or else my food will spoil. =(

-Don't ever give up if you still wanna try. Don't ever wipe your tears if you still wanna cry.

Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go.-

I'm totally screwed and NOT READY for exams. =((

Next week is the study break and this is what I have.

Monday - Summing up with SLum

Tuesday - ASM 201 Math test

Wednesday - AAB 202 PRATICAL EXAM!!!

Thursday - ASK 201 SCIENCE EXAM!!!

Friday - Summing up with JYong

=(((

Exam schedule:

18th nov - ASM 201

19th nov - AAB 202

23rd nov - AAB 201

25th nov - AAB 201 PRACTICAL EXAM!!!

Damn. I'm really screwed =((

Ironically, animal diversity is the one that I have totally no confidence in now. Initially I was still whining and whining about how much I can't cope with plants blah blah blah. In the end.. SIGH. and practical EXAM is next week. I have totally NO CLUE how it'll be like. I'm so dead. =(

Sigh. Why are you so distant away from me now? ='(

Plans for the remaining hours of the night.

-Organise treasurial stuff

-Farm

-Bio Assignment (at least till "Status")

-Body conditioning plus recapping steps (at least 30minutes)

-Shower and relax for Man Utd match at 1.25am!

Okie.. That's about it. Let's go...

Anger and depression can be overcome by love and hope.

Yes. Not anger for me, but depression. =(

I'm still deeply in love with you...

I miss you so much..

I miss the laughters and all...

I miss all the good times...

='(

It's coming to the last week of school. =(

I think I've mentioned before why I feel sad about it. Sigh =((

Life is so different without you.

I don't wana live without you.

='(

Beautiful song...

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Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes

I don't wanna say goodbye to you

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop

I'm the one who's feeling lost right now

Now you want me to forget every little thing you said

but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the man your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried

now you wanna say goodbye to me

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the man your heart is missing

That's why you go away i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere

Don't know which way to go

There ain't so much to say now between us

There ain't so much for you

There aint't so much for me anymore

I was young but I wasn't naive

I watched helpless as he turned around to leave

And still I have the pain I have to carry

A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time

I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep

Only in hopes of dreaming

That everything would be like it was before

But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting

They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time

I never thought we'd be here

Never thought we'd be here

When my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why

Would you ever wanna leave it

Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind

But I couldn't make you see it

Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more than you will ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

That I loved you more than you'll ever know

A part of me died when I let you go

I have faith in you.

I believe.

=)

Can't find a way to let go of you.

I wonder how it feels to talk to your loved one on the bed, about anything under the sun, and fall deeply asleep when both are so tired. It must be a good feeling.

I don't know what to blog about.

Just feeling really down right now.

Everything I write here, will definitely by read.

EVERY SINGLE WORD.

It was a grave mistake yesterday.

Why? Why? Why?

I'm such an idiot.

I guess I'll still be around?

I hope so.

Stomach hurting like crap =(

Allergic reaction =(

And.. So cold.. =((

What should I do now honestly? =((

Some love quotes...

Love me now, love me never,
but if you love me, love me forever.

To the world you may be just one person,
but to one person you may be the world.

Of all forms of caution, caution in love is the most fatal.

No one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

Indescribable feeling. Does anyone know?

Will anyone ever understand?

And here I am now, trying so hard to reach out to you.

Not to stress you (at least I'm trying).

To be able to see you, I'm thankful.

To be able to spend time with you, I'm grateful.

On and on, these and that happened. The good and bad.

Don't really know what will happen next.

I'm still standing strong, knowing what I want.

Except that, I don't know if things will turn out smoothly...

Sometimes I really wonder...

This time I admit that it's not right for me to just skip it just like that. I'm sorry. =(

The way you reacted was just like how you did when we were still tgt.

I don't blame you for being mad at me just now. I can't blame you for being concerned. and i'm happy that you are concerned.

I'm so sorry I must have hurt you. I thought you were ok with it cos you said "up to you". =(

Thanks for still willing to send me home... appreciate that really...

I don't wana forget you.

I will hold on... No pressures yeah?

I love you.

It's been exactly 1 month since ......... ='(

I don't know how long I can go on like this. Maybe one day I'll .....

He used to msg me telling me that he's on his way to school etc. Though it's just a msg, to me it meant alot. Maybe it seems silly, but just those msgs itself makes me smile when i get drowsily woken up by the msg alert tone and check my phone.

But now, I don't even know whether he's asleep or awake. Suddenly, our lives seem so detached from one another's. ='(

Why did he say that that night? I don't know.

Is it becos I got tgt with him shortly after my breakup with my ex, so he thinks that i can move on fast and forget him too? ='(

The only thing I know now is that: Jasmine Lam, YOU suck big time.

Woke up feeling like crap again.

I dreamt of you again.

='(

If there's a place that I can hide forever,

I hope that it'll be your heart.

Will you be happier if I didn't existed?

Sch term is ending.

I don't like it at all.

For a few reasons:

1) It simply means exams are nearing (and I have not studied a single shit!)

2) Less dance. Can rest more! But might put on weight. =/

3) It might mean I might not see him that much. =(( It will be worse when the vacation really comes. Chalet will definitely feel different w/o him around. Afterall, things between us kind of sparked off from that night. I miss him like crazy. =((

Dance was fun today. After cleaning steps with juniors, we went crazy by playing all the past songs that we danced to. amazing that we still rmb the steps to quite a few of the songs! then had dinner at JP. finally, not can A. -.-

It's late. I should go sleep. Sigh. Good night.

You are the right one for me. I want you, nobody else. If it's not meant to be, sigh... ='((((

Je ne veux personne d'autre.

Je vous veux et seulement vous.

Détestez-le quand vous dites que "je suis sûr que vous trouverez le juste bientôt". Il est tel a douleur à entendre cela.

Je suis si muet. Qui m'a demandé de le commencer d'abord. Je l'ai mérité. vous sens douleur aussi?

Enjoyed Willy's session today. If You Leave. I posted the lyrics a few entried back. Go take a look. It's meaningful. =) Kinda speaks how I feel? haha. Time to sleep. Nights.

I don't want anyone else.I want you, and only you. Hate it when you say "I'm sure you will find the right one soon".It's so painful hearing it. =( I'm so dumb. Who asked me to start it first. I deserved it.Do you feel the pain too?