Sunday, November 08, 2009

Actually... I feel that studying with you, will be the best way to make me study. Cos you will be just beside me. And I won't keep wondering what you are doing and so on... Having you around will make me really want to study and make be able to concentrate fully...

Biology is definitely killing me. =( to be honest, i've only READ THRU 30% of the whole animal bio. That means i have not started on invertebrates, and I haven started memorising any thing! And math test on tues, haven study (though i'm quite confident), and sci EXAM on thurs, also haven study. SIGH. =((((

Saturday, November 07, 2009

Extracted this from Christina's entry...

how about your sons and daughters? your baby nieces and nephews?
or even someone you love now?
how many times do u look at the sleeping face
and think to yourself how beautiful that face is?
do you find yourself wanting to provide for this person, to be there when s/he's down,
to comfort, to guide, to love...
how often do you think of him/her?
rejoice whenever s/he does? grieve whenever s/he does?

have you ever felt such a love for something?
have you experienced that kind of love, but it's directed, solely, exclusively for you?

Christina should know my answer la hor. Infact, I think he should know too...
Yes. I love him more than anything else. And he's none other than Enxian... Don't even know if I will see him during the exam period. I'm gonna miss him badly for sure ='(
Now, this song by Westlife =)

What About Now?

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace
Shadows fade into the light
I am by your side,
Where love will find you

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?

Now that we’re here,
Now that we’ve come this far,
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you’re making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it’s too late,
Baby, before it’s too late,
Baby, before it’s too late,
What about now?

Friday, November 06, 2009

Yeah I'm back from school =)

Anyway, the following is a picture from Cafe World. It's christina's cafe! =)

It's a rare sight so i took a screenshot of it. hahaha. anyway christina, it's not my avatar that appeared when I visited your cafe. It's really the avatar visiting your cafe. you know those random ppl walking in and out? ya. tt's the one. and so happens that when i visited your cafe, the avatar visited your cafe too! and guess what, you hired me as your waiter and so, there's 2 identical "Jasmine"s there. hahaha. LOL. and quote willy, "looks like you, got red hair!". LOL. haha. oh no, cafe world is so fun. =)

oh yeah so, today had math tutorial. sigh. hell week has begun. =( shucks man. i realised my schedule is soooo packed that i don't have enough time to study for each modules. packed as in, the exam arrangements and such. i'll try my best. =/

Yeah, had lunch with him before heading to school! :DDDDD but he ate very little =( get well soon!! looks like he has lost abit of weight again. =( 10 nov is coming... i hope something miraculous will happen? or even a simple meal i will be happy... I miss you so much... And.. I love you...

Thursday, November 05, 2009

SO tired!

I think I will go sleep soon. Duno why so shag. =/

Tml hope can wake up earlier to study, or maybe go sch early. LOL.

Oh well, recently i'm addicted to cafe world. =//// Christina too, right? Jaz also just started =) But i shall take it as a break from studying. hahaha.I tried YoVille. Not fun leh. boo~ Lazy to farm also. cos have to click and click every single square. but I'll still go visit my neighbours to earn exp to $! and also to look at my beautiful farm that has those beautiful hay bales over there. =))

I had supper with him and his friends yst and I'm so happy =)
But I've got diarrhea =/ Cos I ate ALOT of seafood yst! For lunch, I ate stingray and la-la together with Jaz and Joc. And plus the supper, which was also seafood.... woah. LOL.
ok la, lose some weight lor. hahaha.

realised that I can only sleep one hour later. or else my food will spoil. =(

-Don't ever give up if you still wanna try. Don't ever wipe your tears if you still wanna cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer if you still want to know. Don't ever say you don't love him if you can't let him go.-

Monday, November 02, 2009

I'm totally screwed and NOT READY for exams. =((

Next week is the study break and this is what I have.

Monday - Summing up with SLum
Tuesday - ASM 201 Math test
Wednesday - AAB 202 PRATICAL EXAM!!!
Thursday - ASK 201 SCIENCE EXAM!!!
Friday - Summing up with JYong

=(((

Exam schedule:

18th nov - ASM 201
19th nov - AAB 202
23rd nov - AAB 201

25th nov - AAB 201 PRACTICAL EXAM!!!


Damn. I'm really screwed =((
Ironically, animal diversity is the one that I have totally no confidence in now. Initially I was still whining and whining about how much I can't cope with plants blah blah blah. In the end.. SIGH. and practical EXAM is next week. I have totally NO CLUE how it'll be like. I'm so dead. =(


Sigh. Why are you so distant away from me now? ='(

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Plans for the remaining hours of the night.

-Organise treasurial stuff
-Farm
-Bio Assignment (at least till "Status")
-Body conditioning plus recapping steps (at least 30minutes)
-Shower and relax for Man Utd match at 1.25am!

Okie.. That's about it. Let's go...
Anger and depression can be overcome by love and hope.

Yes. Not anger for me, but depression. =(

I'm still deeply in love with you...
I miss you so much..
I miss the laughters and all...
I miss all the good times...
='(
It's coming to the last week of school. =(

I think I've mentioned before why I feel sad about it. Sigh =((

Life is so different without you.
I don't wana live without you.
='(

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Beautiful song...

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Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There aint't so much for me anymore

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I have faith in you.
I believe.
=)

Can't find a way to let go of you.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

I wonder how it feels to talk to your loved one on the bed, about anything under the sun, and fall deeply asleep when both are so tired. It must be a good feeling.
I don't know what to blog about.
Just feeling really down right now.
Everything I write here, will definitely by read.
EVERY SINGLE WORD.

It was a grave mistake yesterday.
Why? Why? Why?
I'm such an idiot.

I guess I'll still be around?
I hope so.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Stomach hurting like crap =(
Allergic reaction =(
And.. So cold.. =((
What should I do now honestly? =((